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Suffering

The greatest gift someone gave was reviving my account. I currently going thru a scary difficult time and writing is good therapy for me.
Two days ago my wife was having tremors' and had difficulty standing and asked me to call an ambulance. From there it has a difficult humbling journey. I know suffering in ways I never did.
We were in Er from about 1pm to 11pm, they did testing and told us we were good to go. We got home and two hours later my wife is shaking violently waking me up. She is drooling out of right side of mouth unresponsive. I call the ambulance and the dispatcher keeps me on phone till they arrive.
My wife left me and then started coming back to life. She woke up not remembering anything except entering ambulance.
We go to Er. She asks for coffee. She has not drank anything in a couple days. Soon after she falls asleep only to start having tremors, convulsions, difficulty breathing, blood out of side of her mouth from biting her tongue. On top of that she wet herself. She has been confused and more asleep than awake since then. It is painful and yes I suffer and yet not alone. Some part of me wants the suffering, another part no. It is like being in labor wondering what good can be redeemed from this.