Ins and Outs of my Life

Nothing new!

Today was just an ordinary day with the kids! My parents came and picked up my 3 year old as I was having the carpet cleaned and did not need him underfoot! Later in the morning, My oldest son and I went on out to my parents to spend time with them! I so enjoyed spending the day with them as I don't get to do that as much as I would like! I have wonderful parents who still seem so young even though they are nearing 65 and 70. I also enjoy being "home" as this is where I lived all my life until I married. It is a farm that I was raised on and just being out in the country does wonders for my soul! As you can tell by my journal entries, I have been in such a reflective mode of my life! I have no idea why but it is kind of nice. My 7 year old had never seen pictures of me as a child (and he looks like me as a child) so I went through the old pictures while we were there! I could tell he enjoyed it but I did too. But it was strange seeing pictures of Mama and Daddy so young as it may me realize they are aging now and that makes me somewhat sad! I saw pictures of me very very skinny and thought "Damn, I looked good!" Funny how I didn't know or feel so beautiful then! I was always underweight actually until about 26 and then I started gainning> I am not overly fat but I could lose a few pounds (20 or so) .
I have tried so hard and just can't for some reason! Having a slow thyroid does not help! Anyway, I have always liked myself O.K., but now I am learning to really love myself and I think it as helped me so much! For once I am feeling beautiful on the outside (I haven't always felt that way even when others tell me I look like Jackie Kennedy or Loni Anderson with brown hair). But I feel beautiful on the outside because of the beauty I have found on the inside! That may sound kind of conceited but it is how I am feeling and I am happy! Of course, my wonderful husband helps me feel beautiful as he has been so loving and saying lovey dovey things lately that it is almost like we have a "falling in love all over again" thing going! Not that we ever have been out of love but things can get put on the back burner in the romance dept. when you as busy as we have been lately! Tonight, we went out to eat with the kids and we were flirting a lot just like we used to when we were first married! It is a great feeling to be loved and to love! I know we are so lucky as most others don't have what we do! At least not most of our friends!