Ins and Outs of my Life

One more month!

I should be happy, but I am not. I only have a month left before my students will be in the classroom with me teaching them. I am just enjoying this time off, finding myself! For so long, I have worried about others or things and not about me. Last summer, it was church stuff. And I have always been busy pleasing others. I never said no to anyone. Well, I started saying no and guess what. The world is still revolving. And I am finding out a lot about me. Like how much i enjoy this writing. I have always had the urge and all, but never really sat down for days on end and went at it with all my heart. I have penned a lot in my written journal. I have also read a lot this summer. I have taken the time to enjoy my kids. We are having a ball. It is a freedom thing, I guess. THe only thing i don't feel free from is my housework. My housework is never caught up and I just get so frustated at my family for being so messy. I am messy too, I guess. Tonight, my hubby came home and seem mad. I think he just doesn't feel good. But he went on this cleaning frenzy. I did clean today, but it was messed up again as Kaleb has company and then we left the house at one and things got messed up with them playing. Anyway, it was nice to have some help. But I felt guilty that he was cleaning after working all day. Does anyone else ever feel like I do about housework or is it just me. I feel like i can never catch up and that I am cleaning all the time. Even when I have a cleaning service! ! Then I feel guilty if I have company and it is not clean .
Today, I saw a beautiful thing. One of my twin nephews crawled for the first time in my den! It was such a moment!