Ins and Outs of my Life

Having children?

I know several couples that say they do not want children. One of them is my best friend. I just can't believe someone that is so close to me and I felt was so much a part of me doesn't want kids.
I knew I wanted kids when I was only four or five. I remember anticipating when I grew up and could be a mother. I have always had strong instincts in this respect. I can remember going around the house with my dolls and a whole bunch of stuff went room to room with me in order for me to fit the bill of a good mom. I had the clothes, the diaper bag, the food, the bed, the buggy..
When I met my husband, I knew we weren't ready to start a family, but if we had I would have been ready emotional.
There is nothing like holding that baby for the first time. I can remember someone saying that until you had kids of your own, you just wouldn't know the feelings of love you can have. I thought that was just bunch of crap as I was already working with young children and felt all the love in the world for them. But that person was right. I indeed love my kids more that my own life. And that is saying a lot as I am a happy person and dearly love life!
The joy of having a child is like no other. And as they grow, everything they do is just so wonderful. " Hey, listen did you see that? He burped!" And if they are hurting or sick, you wish it were yourself.
They are a lot of work but I can not imagine not having them in my life. I could not imagine ever not wanting them even before I had them. I only have two and will not have anymore. If I could afford to send more to school and college and care for them, I would have had more. As it is, I have two that I want to be able to spend on and they have a quality life. I just wish my best friend could feel the joy. OF course, it is her decision and I don't nag her or anything even though all my senses want to scream, "Are you crazy?" But then again I am sure when she sees me juggling motherhood she wants to say the same thing back to me!