Life as we know it sucks

We're at the top of the world

Current Mood: I'm in bliss

Current Music: Hey Mister - Custom

I'm surprised I made it this far. But I'm happy I did. It was worth it.

Shane says when he looks in the mirror, he just seems some ugly, fat loser staring back at him; no one special. When I look, man, I could go on and on about the things I like about him. People just don't understand. Maybe it is a weird attraction. I really don't know. But, I'm happy with my decision and I don't know why he doesn't see that.

Oh God, it's Jacob all over again. :( No! Please no! I care for Shane all too much! I don't want to lose him now. <sigh> I'm so saddened. I miss Jacob and I would miss Shane so much. I'm upset now. It depresses me to even think about losing this great guy. He is a great guy. I don't care what he says; I see it.

He makes me smile just thinking about him and his facial expressions. lol And when he grabs my face and my cheek and goes, "Aww, how cute." I've just never gotten this sort of treatment.

I love it when he grabs my hand, when he accidentally walks into me, when he pokes me - just all the little things. When he tells me he's happy with me. When he says I'm weird (more like one-of-a-kind). When he checks up on me. When he's just there for me. I like how he jokes with my mom, respects me, is shy in my house, drives slowly, is very precautionary, is sweet when he doesn't know it, is adorable when he's trying to figure something out, has beautiful [green] eyes and hair and nice canines. He's so perfect as is, I don't know why he'd want to change himself.
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but i threw you the obvious,
just to see if there's more behind you.
eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy
but i see,
see through it all.
see through, see you