Varying Shades of Gray - My Life

Sorry it's been so long

I hope and pray I did the right thing
02:38am 05/01/2004
I found out tonight, that not only has Tay been thinking about running away, but also that he's been contemplating suicide.
Up to this point I thought it was best that I stay out of his personal, family life. I was wrong, and I admit that and I am so very sorry to anyone who feels betrayed by my actions, tonight.
Including you, Tay.
I called the suicide prevention hotline and ended up calling CPS, on their advice. I was told that Tay and his younger brother would most likely be removed from the house, and they were by what I was told. When he seen Devin and Asa he went off on them. In turn, Devin went off on me, for betraying him. If I can arrange it, I really, REALLY want Jarrod to talk to him, about what I did and why and what difference it could make.
I have only known Tay a short time and he probably hates me more than anything right now. But, if I did save his life and he gets help with his problems and manages to live a full and productive life, I can live with that. Even if I do lose Devin and his trust and friendship.
All I did was report what I had heard and what I knew. I am sorry but I could not live with myself if I had done nothing, and Tay had killed himself. Could you?
Devin, I hope that you can understand why I did what I did. If not, then PLEASE talk to Jarrod. He knows all too well what that time, feeling and urge is like. I had hoped that I would never be put in this situation again, but I was. And again, I did NOT ignore it.