My thoughts

Random thoughts 04/27/07

I basically decided to just write in my journal and then copy and paste my thoughts here. Normally I do it the other way around on Friday. But I decided to do it this way, today. Why? I do not know... maybe just to be different.

My teeth are not getting infected. I just need to get my left wisdom teeth out. My roommate is hard to live with. I think because I can't relate to him. He doesn't get fired up about anything. I can't pray with him. I can't really talk to him. I feel as if I am stifled living here. Don't get me wrong. I save so much money living so close to work. But I pray for another living arrangment. I simply can't handle the waiting. Holding on is so frustrating. I miss a friend that i haven't seen in several years. I do. I know I probably shouldn't but her absence is a constant load on me, an emptiness in my heart. I would gladly call her if I felt I could talk to her. But I don't know how to call her. The last times I have tried, I left a message on her answering machine and she has never called me back.

I am also engaged in pointless talk with liberals. It may be pointless but there are changes in me. I am getting into a deeper level of who I really am. I am coming to terms with my own hatred and anger for liberals and I am being cleansed. They will continue to hate me, I know because they can do nothing else. But my hatred for them is slowly slipping away.

Now I have 2 days in which to write. Choices. I know I need to work on assignment 8 for class. I also need to re-edit Chapter 4 for Hope of Darkness. I also need to go over my short stories and spruce them up so I can enter them into the short story contest. I have many things to do, so many that I don't know how I am going to get them all done.