Writing in Snow

A New Week full of Potential

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Today is Sunday, July 18, 2010; it is the beginning of a new week. This week I work everyday. I think I will get overtime for the week, but not for the day. I cannot work from 8:00 AM to 8:00 PM because I cannot afford to have someone stay with Mom all day.

I am not sure I could do a sixteen-hour shift everyday. Mornings are difficult for Mom because cannot find everything she wants or needs. Mom forgets where she puts stuff and I suspect that sometimes she forgets which kitchen cupboard holds the different dishes and cups. Mom just does not seem to have the will to do things for herself. I do not know what I am going to do, but I have to do something. I will leave everything in God’s hands and do what I can.

As I said, it is a new week with new potentials for happiness. I do not know what will happen this week, but I have hope it will be better then last week. Since Mom normally has difficult mornings, I just have to focus on prayer, helping Mom as much as possible, and doing my own work. If I just keep plugging away I will eventually accomplish the important and urgent goals.

I can see actions that waste time, of course, I see them after I have wasted the time. Eventually I will stop wasting so much time on the little time wasters. This week I am going to attempt to do that, I do not know how well I will do, but it does not hurt to try.

I hope the week of July 18 will be a good week. I have to think it will be a good week. I have to believe it will be better then last week. I have to focus on my goals and accomplish those goals no matter how difficult it is or what roadblocks appear in front of me. Mom’s week has started out difficult, I know it is the Alzheimer’s and I cannot let Mom’s unhappiness affect my mood.

This morning Mom is crying and wanting to put “herself” away actually what she says is “put myself away”. Mom wants to get the breakfast room cleaned up today. I would like to see her do the stuff around the house she used to do, but I do not think that is going to happen. The breakfast room, living room, and kitchen look all right now, they could look better, but they are not as bad as a week ago. I am not the one responsible for it, cleaning them was a gift from some of the women who are sitting with Mom while I am at work.

The grant runs out on Tuesday, so I have to find someone else next week. I might be able to afford $20.00 a day, but not $20 or $25 dollars an hour. On Wednesday, someone I can afford will sit with Mom. I trust him; he is the yardman. Still I would prefer a professional agency; however, that is out of my price range without a grant. I do what I have to do. I place everything in God’s hands. I go forward, slow and study. I hope this week is better then last week.