The Definition of Insanity

I wish...

DAY 2721 April 29, 2020
What do you wish more people knew about you and why?

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I wish more people knew I don’t like contact. Yes, when it is a particular person, I do like it. They are comfortable and I enjoy hugs from them. Like my best friends. But when I shy away from other’s touch, it is not because I don’t like them or something happened, I just find it uncomfortable.

I don’t know what to do when they try and hug me; whoever the person may be is still practically a stranger in my mind, and quite frankly, means nothing to me. Yes, they may be someone in my family’s friend, or some step-family, but that title has not been bestowed from me.

Or, the person is a part of my immediate family and I still shy away. I would like if they didn’t take it personally; I know it’s hard, but I don’t know what to do. Would they rather me lie?
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It may be harsh, but I have been told I’m a bit to nice, and for once I want to show these feelings without getting sneered at or hurt looks.
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I wish more people knew that on those days I cry, or get angry for no reason I’m not trying to. I just need to be alone for a few hours and I’ll be okay. I think I have found the reason for why I randomly cry in conversation and my throat closes even though I’m not sad. It’s because I’m uncomfortable or nervous and I just don’t know. Granted, I could be wrong but it makes sense to me.
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I’m tired of people’s scathing questions asking why I am crying or telling me to stop crying. I don’t know how to stop, and all that does is make me feel worse. I also don’t appreciate the looks I get when I’m upset. Adults are allowed to get upset with us whenever they’re stressed, and even though we don’t have the same responsibilities, we still feel stress or get irritated.
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That was a bit long, but I’m tired for some reason and I wanted to vent. Thanks for reading 🍪