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Rated: 18+ · Book · Spiritual · #1149750
10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance like the others. You earn pretty medallions gallantly while other players buy, sell and trade at market to get ahead without moving an inch. Slow burn…hey? You’d rather keep your dignity, or try to figure out their game. That’s where you really get lost. Game full of misdirects leads right back to start over and over. You could have stayed on your quest. Now, you have this.

Redacted, censored, gaslighted…must be doing something right, my old boss would say. I’m not a sociopath, he tells himself. Equal parts, then? Mom should have had me tested. Because, life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit ugly.Tap on them. It’s part of the quest…see where I’ve been; see who I am:


         
                   
                                       
                   
                   
        
         


Right. I redact myself. The beautiful mess you made. Who are you?
If I’ve been denied the right of knowledge, I’ve earned the right to judge.
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Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
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No gavel; no voice.

"...politely reedy but ambitiously eclectic—moving effortlessly from hen-picking and bottleneck slides to a full deck of chucka-chucka rhythm figures."

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

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I'm sorry you got caught in the middle.

*Neurodivergent poet.
*Don’t judge/hate. I love.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Dump your prejudice outside my door. Hope you leave it on the way out.
*Nothing to fear but people who surround themselves with rules, can’t be touched.
*Real dialogue accepted.

My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both.

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons to find boundaries, having no clue or told where they lie, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed. (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical lawyer up?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. But, I get it. You're sick of me. It's how I feel about myself when I dig deeper, push boundaries. Don’t care my words that aim for honesty, either brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit a target. Get a back off shoulder shot for asking your motivations to write…won’t get me to bend over backwards to appease, again.

There’s no prize to eye, not properly incentivized. So, does it mean when dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got? Yeah, rigged. Yeah, other tables — other ‘games’. But, something in my gut I’ll never be rid.



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It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Life’s Little Misdirections 🥀🦋"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


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No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

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Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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January 26, 2020 at 3:40pm
January 26, 2020 at 3:40pm
#974254
Pearls

I put no pearls in your clutch.
In my gear do not dive
For baubles deep in my chest --
Exhale where I recline
On temperate gold-grained shore,
Sipping shaken fare.
Cool fruits ground alive glide,
Paint my nubile tongue.

Aware of seagulls eternal yearnings,
Winds high in palms
Synchronize with churning waves --
Whitecaps rolling, lulling,
Rolling, lulling
Slowing
Down
Time.

Beach towel draped on
My white, horizontal plane,
I admire thinly disguised
Bronze skin smooth ambling
Toward destinations I long be --
Not here
With you
When you need twenty-five hundred words
Soon.

This isn't paradise
Where be-frecked snots suck
Juice from a box that miss
A wasp-hovered drum.
Shrill shrieks and splashes
Spear air beneath
Diving board groans.

This isn't what I signed on for --
Cold blasts remind
It's a short season
No one even ice skates
When winter comes
Here
Anymore.

I need a new publisher.


I get that it falls apart. Another day when my head is not wracked with...ugh.
January 26, 2020 at 3:00pm
January 26, 2020 at 3:00pm
#974251
Helium
Escapes on my horizon,
Leaks
From my drowning vessel.
Helium
Lifts the young heart,
Breaks
Overinflated, floating Dreams.

You were my liquid
Glowing --
Energy for a weak heart
Dying
Alone.

Helium
Inhaled, an addictive drug.
Helium
Exhaled, wasted by many.

I wasted a chance
Knowing,
If you could not be contained,
Going
Home
Alone.

Helium,
Too precious to possess.
Helium,
I sought in dark recess.
Helium
Eluded my dull eyes.
Helium,
Gone as time flies.

Where are you now my dark
Glowing?
Will I ever posses you
Showing
Love?
Leaking,
Gone
Forever.


Subtitle: my obit for you
January 26, 2020 at 1:19am
January 26, 2020 at 1:19am
#974210
Coins (Hidden Spaces)

The first coin you coveted
Saved
A touchstone gleaming
With restored memory
Visions of a child who dared dream
Stowed away from grim reality
In a wall closet
Blanket fort with
Chocolate-covered
Marshmallow cookie treats
Comics and pillows
A flashlight with dying batteries
Sending signals
To another dreamer
Who would clutch
Round silver
Nostalgia
And the proper reading material
Hidden in sheltered dreams.


Not true finish to the initial inspiration from this. Just thinking how clutching a few coins felt special as a kid. Coins seemed more valuable than paper currency. The associated nostalgia is how I liked to burrow someplace with prized possessions and be hidden. I don't know why I finished showing as a shared experience. Though, I did sometimes with a playmate or little brother.


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