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Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance like the others. You earn pretty medallions gallantly while other players buy, sell and trade at market to get ahead without moving an inch. Slow burn…hey? You’d rather keep your dignity, or try to figure out their game. That’s where you really get lost. Game full of misdirects leads right back to start over and over. You could have stayed on your quest. Now, you have this.

Redacted, censored, gaslighted…must be doing something right, my old boss would say. I’m not a sociopath, he tells himself. Equal parts, then? Mom should have had me tested. Because, life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit ugly.Tap on them. It’s part of the quest…see where I’ve been; see who I am:


         
                   
                                       
                   
                   
        
         


Right. I redact myself. The beautiful mess you made. Who are you?
If I’ve been denied the right of knowledge, I’ve earned the right to judge.
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Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
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No gavel; no voice.

"...politely reedy but ambitiously eclectic—moving effortlessly from hen-picking and bottleneck slides to a full deck of chucka-chucka rhythm figures."

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

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I'm sorry you got caught in the middle.

*Neurodivergent poet.
*Don’t judge/hate. I love.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Dump your prejudice outside my door. Hope you leave it on the way out.
*Nothing to fear but people who surround themselves with rules, can’t be touched.
*Real dialogue accepted.

My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both.

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons to find boundaries, having no clue or told where they lie, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed. (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical lawyer up?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. But, I get it. You're sick of me. It's how I feel about myself when I dig deeper, push boundaries. Don’t care my words that aim for honesty, either brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit a target. Get a back off shoulder shot for asking your motivations to write…won’t get me to bend over backwards to appease, again.

There’s no prize to eye, not properly incentivized. So, does it mean when dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got? Yeah, rigged. Yeah, other tables — other ‘games’. But, something in my gut I’ll never be rid.



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It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Life’s Little Misdirections 🥀🦋"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

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No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

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Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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May 3, 2020 at 10:51am
May 3, 2020 at 10:51am
#982645
Summer Silencer

He needed an automatic life silencer
from the moment his own screams
pierced the dense skull, rooted
in its stem to the core
until he was hollow --
A boy alone
flashlight
in tent
blankets
warmed in dark
swaddled him in --
With musty old pillows
that sometimes produced
a curious insect crawling across
his pale head perusing comics
or colorful Sunday section
at their woodland camp
beneath the pinnings
on the clothesline
where he hid
from them
all day

When supper was called he would hesitate
until a quilt peeled back produced her
expectant face and light behind it
as she repeated her words lovingly
Time to eat
Not a command, a call
to face the snarling man
at their table
When he wasn't there
life outside the silencer continued --
By the creek, spying for frogs --
Under the apple viewing bees
serenading pink buds --
Along the power line that made a trail --
rugged properties connected

Strawberries would sometimes hide
beneath red and green leaves
still too early for maturation
for a child who could remember
a happy man who drove their
green truck bouncing them --
unbelted on saddled stead --
over uneven terrain
to collect wood discarded
by yellow hat utility workers busied
with clearing their trail

With small lungs he drank in
wafting vapors --
gasoline and oil mixed
with summer air. Ears inhaled
tempered buzzing from
a one-horsepower propelled blade
chained, decisively ripping
trunks into stackable pieces
handed up to load where
he obediently stood inside
the paint-worn, metal bed
He would push down
oversized work gloves
from finger tip to palms repeatedly
The morning soaked his face
in their clearing where he wished lay
beside harvested timber --
tightly packed by him --
load approved by the cutter

They would return to wedge and split
stack and earn lemonade
on the tailgate
He would eventually learn
buzzings produced by cutters
were not always as even
as hewn wood

After the last meal
before sundown
he spent one more hour
dreaming inside
a temporary lair --
imagining a new man
to court his mother --
One who'd rub his head
when he passed
share a good word --
Who'd let him lay
next to him in the easy chair
(before too big to share)
read the castoffs
of Sunday sections
until breakfast
at the table in their den
off the kitchen
where she prepared
and called her loving
mealtime phrases

And before the last clothespin dropped --
the final blanket folded up
and stored in the cabin --
He took one look
into the sky
he missed
shrank
and sighed
Walking toward
the idling green truck
he glimpsed a man he had
not seen all weekend, who smiled
The man who taught how to
clip blankets to wire lines
with pins, he recognized
Good thing automatic
life silencers
have pins.


more edits pending

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