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Rated: 18+ · Book · Spiritual · #1149750
10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance like the others. You earn pretty medallions gallantly while other players buy, sell and trade at market to get ahead without moving an inch. Slow burn…hey? You’d rather keep your dignity, or try to figure out their game. That’s where you really get lost. Game full of misdirects leads right back to start over and over. You could have stayed on your quest. Now, you have this.

Redacted, censored, gaslighted…must be doing something right, my old boss would say. I’m not a sociopath, he tells himself. Equal parts, then? Mom should have had me tested. Because, life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit ugly.Tap on them. It’s part of the quest…see where I’ve been; see who I am:


         
                   
                                       
                   
                   
        
         


Right. I redact myself. The beautiful mess you made. Who are you?
If I’ve been denied the right of knowledge, I’ve earned the right to judge.
         |
Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
         |
No gavel; no voice.

"...politely reedy but ambitiously eclectic—moving effortlessly from hen-picking and bottleneck slides to a full deck of chucka-chucka rhythm figures."

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

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I'm sorry you got caught in the middle.

*Neurodivergent poet.
*Don’t judge/hate. I love.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Dump your prejudice outside my door. Hope you leave it on the way out.
*Nothing to fear but people who surround themselves with rules, can’t be touched.
*Real dialogue accepted.

My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both.

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons to find boundaries, having no clue or told where they lie, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed. (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical lawyer up?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. But, I get it. You're sick of me. It's how I feel about myself when I dig deeper, push boundaries. Don’t care my words that aim for honesty, either brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit a target. Get a back off shoulder shot for asking your motivations to write…won’t get me to bend over backwards to appease, again.

There’s no prize to eye, not properly incentivized. So, does it mean when dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got? Yeah, rigged. Yeah, other tables — other ‘games’. But, something in my gut I’ll never be rid.



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It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Life’s Little Misdirections 🥀🦋"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


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No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

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Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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May 7, 2021 at 9:47am
May 7, 2021 at 9:47am
#1009821
highway of haste

         wheels spun
in determined direction
         crush all in view
on pavement.

determined vehicle
and lone occupant, me,
chew scenery together,
as memories roll with each reenactment.
different; but, the same outcome.

but, it can never be.
waysides remind me,
stop and stretch legs
from haste to escape
all left in your wake.

stop and view
in still quiet, dream.
create anew and stop
recreating the past.

be now instead of rolling
         town to town
to the stretches between.
         truly see
all you've passed
for an eternity, without
further introspection.

         Accept what's lost
on the highway of haste.



private 5.7.21
public after edit 5.14.21
re-edit 5.24.21

stop and smell the roses instead of trying to get back what you lost while ignoring the view in the moment or accepting the road you're own, the only remaining destiny.
May 7, 2021 at 9:31am
May 7, 2021 at 9:31am
#1009819
Promise blooms now.
Brightly colored hope, renewed,
bounces and wavers on thin arms
strengthening, harden
outside my portal --
a world I view and
should commune within.

Eager was a child who played
in fresh green, once white
slipped below the surface
and the glow lingered longer
upon a simple, burgeoning land.
And, she was there
to hold my hand.

But, now my hands are worn
with no gentle, guiding fingers to touch.

Blast the shaky glass
and tousle the trembling green.
Dampen the entire scene
while I'm inside, protected.
Howl if you will; I dare
not look in my heart
for strength, because

no end for this story, except
to wait it out.


5.7.21
brief edits 5.24.21

made up on spot before work. Edit or revise later.
May 7, 2021 at 9:21am
May 7, 2021 at 9:21am
#1009818
Dear Brother, sorry
I didn't write. Staring
from the ledge steals hours;
a void merges within me.
This ledge that comes before me
reveals no vista I dare follow.
Desire to fly faded when
I couldn't sprout wings in
innocence or ignorance; but
I long to venture yet, set
a world afire, just
can't rekindle the flame
inside me, even to
pick up a pen, scrawl
ink from my heart on mead.
Would spill my blood into
these cylinders, if
that could color a page
from ailing vision
from a steepening ledge
that consumes eternally.
Sorry, your brother.



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kind of conceptualized but not fully targeted what I want to depict about how we get so lost/consumed with nothing and never keep in touch with loved ones who could fill our life with joy, if we weren't pining for something more/else that is likely unattainable.


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