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10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance like the others. You earn pretty medallions gallantly while other players buy, sell and trade at market to get ahead without moving an inch. Slow burn…hey? You’d rather keep your dignity, or try to figure out their game. That’s where you really get lost. Game full of misdirects leads right back to start over and over. You could have stayed on your quest. Now, you have this.

Redacted, censored, gaslighted…must be doing something right, my old boss would say. I’m not a sociopath, he tells himself. Equal parts, then? Mom should have had me tested. Because, life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit ugly.Tap on them. It’s part of the quest…see where I’ve been; see who I am:


         
                   
                                       
                   
                   
        
         


Right. I redact myself. The beautiful mess you made. Who are you?
If I’ve been denied the right of knowledge, I’ve earned the right to judge.
         |
Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
         |
No gavel; no voice.

"...politely reedy but ambitiously eclectic—moving effortlessly from hen-picking and bottleneck slides to a full deck of chucka-chucka rhythm figures."

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle.

*Neurodivergent poet.
*Don’t judge/hate. I love.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Dump your prejudice outside my door. Hope you leave it on the way out.
*Nothing to fear but people who surround themselves with rules, can’t be touched.
*Real dialogue accepted.

My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both.

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons to find boundaries, having no clue or told where they lie, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed. (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical lawyer up?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. But, I get it. You're sick of me. It's how I feel about myself when I dig deeper, push boundaries. Don’t care my words that aim for honesty, either brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit a target. Get a back off shoulder shot for asking your motivations to write…won’t get me to bend over backwards to appease, again.

There’s no prize to eye, not properly incentivized. So, does it mean when dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got? Yeah, rigged. Yeah, other tables — other ‘games’. But, something in my gut I’ll never be rid.



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It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Life’s Little Misdirections 🥀🦋"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

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All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
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No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



What Was NEW

Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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May 31, 2021 at 11:36pm
May 31, 2021 at 11:36pm
#1011074
Merit Badge in Quill Award
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Congratulations on winning the 2020 Quill Award for Best Psychology for [Link to Book Entry #980764]. *^*Delight*^* For more information, see  [Link To Item #quills] .
"Light Everlasting?

I could easily retitle and spin on more with that poem:

Disappearing Ink
Magic Ink
Vanishishing Ink
Invisible Ink

Each of the adjectives alone for this Quill award winner for best philosophical (poem?) could describe even further (irony? Control over our words). You don't have to burn books in a dystopian drama, just make them...irrelevant. 'All the words are in that cloud over there...or there?' Until one by one they all evaporate because your subscription expired. Poof!
May 29, 2021 at 7:37pm
May 29, 2021 at 7:37pm
#1010980
Since I can see what poems are getting attention, I can also revisit and re-edit to see if I can polish the rough gems. Here's what I did with one that I wasn't particularly fond of, but have a new appreciation for:

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I know the sentimentality is forced, but I think it serves me and many readers who contemplate fare like this.

Another poem freshly re-edited after quite a few years. Points to anyone who can guess the image adorning the link:

 
STATIC
Flavor For The Feast  (E)
Obsession with preparing a feast and good conversation can spoil a good time.
#1165197 by He’s Brian K Compton
May 28, 2021 at 8:42am
May 28, 2021 at 8:42am
#1010908
As a parent, I can only assume
to be a bad programmer, because
our code has been compromised,
hacked by scammers with brilliant videos
and remarkable deals that steal innocence,
crack open a childhood with dreams planned --
empty idle brains like pockets sowed with seeds
of ignorance and immortality we cannot obtain.

Must I refrain because I was aboard that very same train?

Rebellious youth does not teach wisdom, but mistakes learned from.
And the longer I ramble and lack recompose, they rob our youth, rob me
of dreams I once had, realized again in their eyes until the shine stolen.

As a parent, I wonder what I have done, what I can do
to build a better firewall. But once hacked, the damage is done.
I can't go to the store for another, with promise of a better outcome.
I don't really know how to write code, forced to write this one off?

5.28.21

One I'll have to give thought to.

We build them up and then shoot them down because we see them take flight in the wrong direction. There are not enough parachutes for this drama.

https://twitter.com/glaedrfly/status/1398262588027330562?s=21
May 28, 2021 at 7:31am
May 28, 2021 at 7:31am
#1010905
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Congratulations! You won 1st Place in  [Link To Item #2139468]  with your beautiful poem, Time-Wrinkled. This brought tears to my eyes. So well written!

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Time-Wrinkled

From her nightstand, emptied of cough drops, tissues,
reading glasses, and snapshots of a little man, came
a scent of old leather, time-wrinkled and bound.
The creased cover moaned gently, as I pried to peer
at her name scribed gently as a tattooed heart.

I crawled upon a cool mattress like the child
to warm under quilt, snapped on the overhead lamp.
The key to open a secret door I alone clutched.
The years waited upon me to return and saunter inside.

Beneath reality, eyes slipped past the donned jacket
to inhale an inviting aroma, hear crisp leaves bend
by my mindful hand, as a bright adventure for dry eyes
began. Her messages inhaled like forgotten dreams.

Like a talisman gripped, so too my mind, the decoder.
Minutes melded into hours, to days and beyond before
shadows from an inspecting sun reappeared about
the framed panes of winter glass, pinching me awake.

My heart wants more, my childhood, my dreams back.
Even just the touch of her soft-worn hand upon mine,
as we explored dank caves for treasures guarded
by pirates with surly lips and gleaming broadswords.

Perhaps, another classic, another day in her room.



22 lines
prose-y freeverse

5.28.21 final edit

For Taboo Words

May 28, 2021 at 7:21am
May 28, 2021 at 7:21am
#1010903
Brazen Butterflies Beach Brilliance Bedazzles

                                                           -- *Butterfly2Y*

Buzzing
sunbathers ate bright butterflies
festive frolic. Brine wave-
walls crashed on all,
breathless.


6.1.21
6.22.21 edited


PROMPT (You don't have to use all the words or include them in the poem):
BEACH FUN, BUTTERFLIES, HEAT HAZE, SUNBATHE, BEES, PICNICS

REQUIRED POETRY FORM: CINQUINO

2-8-6-4-2 syllables in five line unryhmed

https://www.poetry4kids.com/lessons/how-to-write-a-cinquain-poem/

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NATURE-themed quarterly contest.
#2000001 by Choconut ~ House Targaryen
May 27, 2021 at 12:07pm
May 27, 2021 at 12:07pm
#1010877
Some days, editing poetry is like eating furry deer venison --
That noise you would make, demonstrating a hair clung to tongue.
Of course, toiling to edit an unworthy poem would be like
spitting buckshot after grinding the metal ammo betwixt molars.

5.27.21
May 27, 2021 at 8:01am
May 27, 2021 at 8:01am
#1010864
Going outside my comfort zone to find unique subjects to explore in prose:


Nudity and Truth


I would look at naked pictures of you

I would not look
at naked pictures of you

Are their naked pictures?

Never mind

I'm googling naked pictures of you,
hoping not to be disappointed,
until I stop,
rather than click a link recovered

I'd rather not know your desperate need
for approval
to share your naked pictures

I get the allure of nudity,
of beauty unwrapped to admire

As a boy I wanted to know the mystery

When you get old you'll think,
'if you've seen one, you've seen them all'

At times, we still peek to be sure
of nudity's allure

While naked pictures might be a secret worth investigating,
the unsolved mystery holds more truth,

that I would look at naked pictures of you,
and, isn't that enough?



5.27.21
6.5.21 edit
May 27, 2021 at 7:34am
May 27, 2021 at 7:34am
#1010863
They aim their tarnished cannons,
Precisely read outdated canons
Aloud to the masses;
As I sit upon grass
Fingering a dry pistol
That chased away ants,
Hydrated daisies,
Stung the burned backs of fleeing,
Tearful children echoed happiness --
Trapped laughter hung on tree limbs,
Detached by gentle, carefree breezes sending higher
Solubles to the blue patches and white drifters inhaling,
Until grey-black unload their h2o pellets like bombs upon a
Silenced planet. Groggy, a sobering sun emerges, dries
The scene where we return to play, after hours listening
To the interrupted radio bemoaning a world somehow in decay.

I sit my tenderness upon the fertile ground, shadowed
By black-rust cannons, as incited canons obtrude,
To wonder upon a glaring, misunderstood sun
And ask, 'why must it be this way?'



5.26.21
6.5.21 edit

Loosely applied logic to the world we live in today (History teaches us...history teaches us?). Is it so uncivilized that we've forgotten how to play?

I wrote this in under ten minutes. Another five to edit. Done. Really worked hard to get obtrude in there, thought not sure if syntactically correct?
May 26, 2021 at 2:39pm
May 26, 2021 at 2:39pm
#1010805
Not Your Monster

My definition:
villain — misunderstood.
unnecessarily feared, reviled,
chased by villagers with torches
for so long,

he learned
he was a monster,
loved in secret
by children who understood
his tenderness, not lacking
in the same innocence,
a never-ending supply
for true torches.

By your definition (I assume):
villain — a dangerous buffoon
to you (though I assure
very capable), ((and not diffused
by your definition)),
(((despite your label
to feel safe from your own ignorance)))
by ((((false assumption)))).

I redefine by revealing
what you fail to acknowledge.

By association,
by this principle,
I have another definition
and a label to add, though
I’ll not make your mistake
to restrict egress
between the two of us,
friend,

ending here.


5.26.21

This will need work and time to marinate.
May 26, 2021 at 2:08pm
May 26, 2021 at 2:08pm
#1010804



Reach

I make it to the top
when I eye another summit --
far --
but not out of reach.

try?

I imagine you there,
my inspiration to seek.

5.26.21
May 26, 2021 at 7:24am
May 26, 2021 at 7:24am
#1010789
There are varying degrees of difference between
quitting and not doing anything, though
ultimately
the same because of outcome, and
if you had given up on me,
even though not trying,
I would know and feel hurt
just the same.

5.26.21


just something that bubbled up while listening to Fisher, yet again. I'm as breakable as any; as hard as people try to see the cracks and fissures form, they're on the inside, not trying to get out.
May 25, 2021 at 2:03pm
May 25, 2021 at 2:03pm
#1010761
Most people — voidless.
The hungry few — growing,
Eyeing
Your completeness,
Looking to fill a hole
They can’t sate until
They sink their teeth
In you.

I’m the rare void — complete
Because I don’t need
The Voids,
The Fulls,
Because I live in this
Empty hole,
Victimless.
But, still worry
About the rest of you.


5.25.21

Thinking of people like you Bethany, so full of potential, but ditched your dreams for someone else's passion, because you are empty inside.

I’m still here. Visit me at work anytime. The weather here is fine.

Still editing, adding.
May 24, 2021 at 5:34am
May 24, 2021 at 5:34am
#1010638
Reemergence

from this morass
deep, dark,
from this hole in the scenery
I've chewed;
reemergence.
strum your steel strings hard,
vibrating warm.

long since yawning,
I'm awake.
long since I was driven deep,
I creep,
merging with your land.
stick a drum quaver building
before gleam cymbals crash.

I've returned a mess,
awake, aware
a dark hole in my head
chewed
emergently
to take the mic once more.
strings in my heart's throat
have tenderly unfolded.


5.24.21
1.28.22 edit
22 lines, vers libre



some songs stay with you a long time and greet your idle brain at dawn, though I can't help but feel it's a ripoff of the Smashing Pumpkins.
May 20, 2021 at 11:16am
May 20, 2021 at 11:16am
#1010479
Black With Regret

No one asks if you’re dying
when they see the burden lugged
on pale shoulder, trudging forward
with dry eyes locked on a burning hill
barefoot
cooling
calming as day bleeds out --
no fight in loosed jaw. Though,
I see your approach;
pity denied where
love would have been accepted.

Truth of life flushed out,
skin replicated a thousand layers.

Your pockets well serve your hands,
mine tasked to one simple goal:
ascend and lug remnants of this life
to the black light.

To have been brave
to be a friend...
if I'm to have one regret.


5.20.21


I shudder to demonstrate that even in death we bargain for something to appease the dark shadows hovering over us. (like one who could be a friend)

Unrelated: I discover sometimes those who speak out of both sides of their mouth, like I did yesterday. Just something related but unrelated to the inception of this piece.

I feel my punctuation as it related to expression is vastly improved.
May 20, 2021 at 8:05am
May 20, 2021 at 8:05am
#1010470
Something I'm still working on...comments welcome...

Ignorant Hope Of Yarn

A neglected ball of yarn,
Don't know where to begin
Unravel the thing,
Or how it got so inconceivably tangled,
As frustration overrides fading hope
For symmetry of material that defines;
Could redefine a lifetime
         Of wayward rolling behind
Couch and chair,
         Eyed by eager felines
And claws at play

         to become forgotten.

A dull ball -- purposeless,
Twined cotton Mother brought home
From the store, radiant and hopeful
This DNA, reconstructed,
Would, one day,
Amaze, but she
Dropped the ball
And here I stay --
Knotting and unknotting
And divining a way
For you to have purpose
Someday, once
I get out of your way.

Never mind now;
No shining needle
Could save the day.


5.20.21

Twist at end -- play on words/metaphor intended.
May 19, 2021 at 1:21pm
May 19, 2021 at 1:21pm
#1010430
No parachutes provided, bail out before you get too deep?


My head is its own solar system
on a spatial highway
with other solar systems like yours.
My laws for physics equate only to me,
in as much, as its parts (or sum of parts)
might jibe with yours, drawing us out together
on some equatorial plane (shared and appreciated)
in a widening sea of black and light with fuzzy nebulous creatures
roaming in the distance, striking awe and wonder (and concern)
should our universe merge in a broader, deeper sea of solar systems
(like a black hole enveloping) we can't equate apart or together
in a measurable, linear journey through time,
equally as widening, or shrinking, by response and rationale,
as events that occur will allow for our time spent together
and apart.

Each operating thing inside my system
has grown and been shaped to be assigned
formidable equations that can go from acceptance
to indifference to rejection of their worth (by me, by you,
by others). Some have parallel equations or un-equaling
impossibilities when paired with subsets
from another system near or far from mine (as I model).
It keeps me off balance and constantly
questioning what is the point of putting all
into words and metaphors with numbers and shapes
in fuzzily drawn and conceptualized solar systems in black space;
when I could just accept I play a simple game of handball
off an uneven wall inside my anatomically correct head
for life.

No possible way to score or equate, or even try.
Anxiety and insecurity knee-jerk inform me to do this.


5.19.21

Just babbling after thinking a little about Inception and mostly about my logic.
Words may or may not have been correctly associated or termed to properly equate what I attempt to convey in a rambling journey to self-satisfy the insufficiencies of a mind ever-equating how it 'jibes' within a world it toddles about like a small child...or it could be about trying to write grown up poetry in a finger painting class to be the best student and impress teacher who only wants to know why my hands aren't dirty with work and I assume that is my genius on display.

According to Hemingway Editor, this is grade level 5. No sentences considered difficult to read. *Think*
May 14, 2021 at 1:11am
May 14, 2021 at 1:11am
#1010158
Cool
White
Dawn

We were looking at charred remains,
embers not as bright since a chill dawn --
still
white
smoldering --
nothing compared to the colors sparking a black night.

A fuel-soaked concoction enflamed —
glowing romance softened eyes,
brushed hues on two pale faces —
rose-boned skin inspired
by wood,
used
up.

We lingered too long.
Now this thing
is ash.


5.14.21
final edit: 6.22.21 (I hope)


Entered in May Shadows and Light and Stormy's Potry Newsletter Contest

May 13, 2021 at 2:33pm
May 13, 2021 at 2:33pm
#1010136
Jotting
         numbers
                   unequated,
                             yet subscribed
                                       to define,
                             refine an ordinary,
                   imperfect world
         spinning circular, linear
throughout time --
codified by some, where I

fear the sun but
cherish the stars.

Columns and margins' scrawling combine
until I
cannot cosine,
compare to words angling away
from my mind.
I'll not find
equatorial sunshine sublime.

A burning horizon nears,
my only true outcome.

Solve for x, at least?


5.12.21

another poem off the cuff...
May 9, 2021 at 10:55am
May 9, 2021 at 10:55am
#1009912
I know summer nears,
despite lurksome clouds
filtering raindrops faintly heard,
muffled by the stoic umbrella.

A hint of hues above obedient trees
glimmer dull roof tops,
bedazzle rusted eaves.
A horizon warning before

gentle-blued black brightened,
ceded to
selected swashes of a spectrum
penetrating my vision.

Dry eyes couldn't imagine colors prettier,
knowing, if I didn't watch
I'd lose them
in the brevity of a season
rushed into darkness,
quicker as days bleed out --

remind a rushed soul, elapsing time
must escape, leave me
with a stare that won't chase
the petulant purview anymore.

Too many seasons of,
'I'll see you tomorrow,'
just as blue, always blue,
to greet aging eyes.

I see it more than I should.
Tiny glimpses in these mornings stolen,
where I envision a view burgeoning
of blossomed evening lights.

Renewed days' colors could
fill any blood heart and bright soul.
But, science serves no purpose to the romantic,
to explain why we're not lovers anymore.


5.9.21
34 lines, freeverse

Stormy Poetry Contest:
use words: clouds raindrops umbrella summer gentle lights evening lovers


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May 8, 2021 at 10:25pm
May 8, 2021 at 10:25pm
#1009893
I opine about sadness enough...let's give the experts a crack at expressing and how we can move beyond (learn from) it, perhaps?

https://bookriot.com/depression-poems/


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