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Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance like the others. You earn pretty medallions gallantly while other players buy, sell and trade at market to get ahead without moving an inch. Slow burn…hey? You’d rather keep your dignity, or try to figure out their game. That’s where you really get lost. Game full of misdirects leads right back to start over and over. You could have stayed on your quest. Now, you have this.

Redacted, censored, gaslighted…must be doing something right, my old boss would say. I’m not a sociopath, he tells himself. Equal parts, then? Mom should have had me tested. Because, life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit ugly.Tap on them. It’s part of the quest…see where I’ve been; see who I am:


         
                   
                                       
                   
                   
        
         


Right. I redact myself. The beautiful mess you made. Who are you?
If I’ve been denied the right of knowledge, I’ve earned the right to judge.
         |
Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
         |
No gavel; no voice.

"...politely reedy but ambitiously eclectic—moving effortlessly from hen-picking and bottleneck slides to a full deck of chucka-chucka rhythm figures."

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle.

*Neurodivergent poet.
*Don’t judge/hate. I love.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Dump your prejudice outside my door. Hope you leave it on the way out.
*Nothing to fear but people who surround themselves with rules, can’t be touched.
*Real dialogue accepted.

My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both.

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons to find boundaries, having no clue or told where they lie, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed. (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical lawyer up?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. But, I get it. You're sick of me. It's how I feel about myself when I dig deeper, push boundaries. Don’t care my words that aim for honesty, either brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit a target. Get a back off shoulder shot for asking your motivations to write…won’t get me to bend over backwards to appease, again.

There’s no prize to eye, not properly incentivized. So, does it mean when dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got? Yeah, rigged. Yeah, other tables — other ‘games’. But, something in my gut I’ll never be rid.



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Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
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No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



What Was NEW

Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

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Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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September 30, 2022 at 11:24pm
September 30, 2022 at 11:24pm
#1038400
I grew concerned
she would send slivers to my hand
if I touched - eventually -
my skin became rough
from handling lumber

long after she became sawdust
her timber harvested and sold
to a craftsman who deftly hewed
and hammered together her pieces,
showcased in his home

I stand in forest - try, remember -
where her vision appeared. saplings
root to tower toward that dream
of heaven. experience taught
true vision is in her soil

I no longer don gloves, caress
smooth life, moisture for brittle,
chapped skin weathered red and
frail bones within breaking, crumbling
as those towers do, on my heart.



9.30.22
10.4.22 extra 10 lines added
10.5.22 3 lines added

I could add to this, continuing metaphor naming various species of trees
from an innocent cherry to the mossy oak. Perhaps, she did not lie in good soil…
blah. I’m sick of myself.
September 29, 2022 at 10:21pm
September 29, 2022 at 10:21pm
#1038352
…at any given moment…

The medication will kick in shortly now…mindfulness, don’t
forget…it’s a tireless treadmill we’re on…the sky is a maw
swallowing colors…if you look to the East…log on…don’t forget
to pick up…what’s so funny?…your meds…waiting…laughing boy…
is a tireless treadmill…with waves higher than the Empire State Building…
hey, there…get in the fox hole!….Arrrggghhhh!!!…tireless…waiting…
are you listening?…look to the North…polar ice caps melt…
did you take your meds today???…wait, what time am I supposed
to be there?…mail, did you get the mail?…tireless…treading…hear…
what I…just said?helloooo…meds?…super position…echoing…
repeating…new location…same…in the South…hurricane surge
is ripping into the coastal region…area…no, region…correct!…
your prescription is ready for pickup…Ding! Ding! Ding!…
did you get all of that?…your Zoom conference begins in
four minutes…take cover! Hide!!…it’s okay, honey, I’m here
now
…incipient..void…why did he walk two miles in the dark?…
         don’t leave me here!…looking to the West…
does auntie know you left?
…the horizon peaks like
the plumage of an atom bomb blast…nu-nu-nuclear Winter…he’s
running a fever…discontent..of…I ate all the cherry pills…
freezing…tireless treadmill…woozy…catching a train on the fly…
haul it in the yard…he’s coming to!…America Wins The War?…
concentrate…only a minute left…Just need that billing address…
perfect…what? what’s perfect?….I remember you and you…but, I
wasn’t there?…don’t hang up…lines crossed…treadmill 0:00…yes,
         I’m here now
…how are you doing?…loaded gun…question…hope
I didn’t keep you waiting…ground zero…I’m fine…namaste.

Just luggin’ that big ole brain like a gun, hey son?…If I die
before I’m born…here, burn the manuscript…postscript…re…
re…that’s supposed to go first…can’t kill what’s already dead.



9.29.22
30 lines … to here … *Smirk*

can’t { justify} … oops!
got left out — Maa-omm!!

running it all back between two atoms
human formatting can be a bitch
keeps you up to 2 am when you gotta be to work by 5

still aiming for a bullseye, when it gets dark
fling the arrow
let’s go home

when did the ‘po-em’ end? begin??
it’s always running


40 lines … to here
Free verse

P.s. for real now:
This is the stuff I wanted to write, experiment with, (still do) when I was discouraged by my writing instructor, who would go on to be a poet laureate and have a poetry prize named in her honor.
I know about all the don’t listen to critics stuff, now. I was young and hung on every word of feedback I could get. It’s what jams my gun, sometimes.
Words could be weapons
I could be using them wrong
How am I to know the difference, then?
Than?
No, then.
Correct!
September 29, 2022 at 8:21pm
September 29, 2022 at 8:21pm
#1038343
Heaves words like logs into a fire
Feels the warmth, hears a crackle
Smell piney, smoldering ash
stoked, glowing
yellow, red, blue, orange
chilling, retiring
gray and black, hissing
at the last of a drink flung

Scoop the remainder up again
start fresh tomorrow
Drawn into lungs
under stars glimpsed
Such a dreamer

Burn through so much wood
bountiful, wonderful, burnable wood
sectioned, split and stacked

Pull up a camp chair and join in



9.29.22

I really write for me. Contests, etc. do little lately to fuel me. Not that I don’t try.
Have to heft that wood to get it going.
September 17, 2022 at 4:34pm
September 17, 2022 at 4:34pm
#1037812
She made a face
The queen said she was about to rule
that no more bacon be made in the air fryer
because she can't get rid of the rancid smell
in her house
What? I don't smell it
Sovereign rule rears its misaligned,
ugly tiara once again.
Maybe, I'll buy and eat cake --
the whole thing -- and not share.
*Pthb*

9.17.22

It's my brother's birthday. Hold you applause...he's a Jehovah. Okay, noted.
September 14, 2022 at 8:30pm
September 14, 2022 at 8:30pm
#1037700
take a deep breath before you go down…

too loud for you, you say.
not loud enough for me,
in our shared space, lowering
the volume, diminishing a vision.
dreams chased, uncaptured when
you enter the aural blue room, claim
the neural space going right through
brain in decay, dying from resistance
in lonely reminiscence, recapturing just one
happy moment building to help soar away
from this hole in my head, filling lately
with silence. I click keys, tap lightly,
not to bother you. I look into a sea
of pixels still gleaming. down I go
into the belly beneath your level.

No idea what it's like to be me?

horizons swum unseen by
your eyes that thrive
in bobbing images connected
to words surfacing, soundless until
when submerged to ocean floor, leave wonder above --
find another life amid waving anemone,
dreams of gilled fish breathing.
Oscillation fills dry ears,
their bubbles bein blown
full of love, heart
and eternal rhyme.

I have no idea either, but still I wonder.


9.14.22
1.10.23 edited second stanza, still working on.

dream-like words, capture wonder and create a mind palace all my own to subside in someone else's world.
September 10, 2022 at 1:34pm
September 10, 2022 at 1:34pm
#1037580
At least she had the decency to run after him with palette knife to express her passionate plea.
I get 30 years of whittled bone from carving words sinking deep beneath my brow producing a Poe-pendulum fate.


9.10.22
September 10, 2022 at 11:48am
September 10, 2022 at 11:48am
#1037573
"There's no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you." --Maya Angelou

and it won’t be told
today
agony snowballing
in gut
knows the void
expressed
and never understood
story isn’t truth
retold
no words capture
this void
shaded by elms
cooled
hovering above roofs
untethered
ghosting your walls
Impenetrable
feint horizontal flecks
unwitnessed

it won’t ever be told
to a soul
risk the misunderstanding
of black
illuminating only within
no suffering
inescapable
blanketed dark dreams
unfolding
refolding in cavern
just echoes
painted on a canvas
you pass
in narrow passage
between
two indifferent hearts

one bleeds
just, not for you


9.10.22

21 years tomorrow — a misdirect, I confess
September 8, 2022 at 2:47pm
September 8, 2022 at 2:47pm
#1037504
8 by 10

yellow waves ripple an ocean sunset.
eyes stray into glass-field gleaming.
heart bounds toward a clear vision.
if I stray, fear I'll fade forever.

in wildflower an idle mind wades.
weightless, lifted higher, sunken
into that mahogany frame. horizon
nears in that lucid pane reforming.

rush of a dry, sage world arrives.
new silence escapes the heavy day.
in valley, vibrant voices beckon.
browned skin in dusty cotton dress

witnessed

in bittersweet isolation, happy
in love's desolation. blue eyes,
daisies adorn pale skin blushing.
red, a widening sea soon engulfs me.

sucked into time-paused eternity,
stolen moments break inside reality.
clocks realign, reawaken one redeemed.
it still does shine, now unconfined.

dreams tucked away, still at play.
a random view from that 8x10 hung
helped remember when, the sun, two
who were young, glowed on that horizon.


9.8.22

originally:
 
STATIC
8 x 10  (E)
The dreamer captured in a time and a place that no longer exist except in memory.
#1162128 by He’s Brian K Compton




more of a romantic tact for the old poem about memories inspired by a glass-framed photo

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September 6, 2022 at 4:42pm
September 6, 2022 at 4:42pm
#1037412
I.
the ocean came gently
Whispering, I love you
travell’d a long way
fear’d I might lose you

the last words dying
in the rolling ocean
like a single drop  “came”  miraculous

grateful to have last moments
part life and fear
entering into the afterlife

noiseless, patient
I mark’d a little promontory, isolated
Mark’d vacant, vast surrounding


II.
It launch’d forth unreeling
tirelessly speeding Noiseless
a spider on a rock small

It weaves a complex, beautiful web
pays close attention
completes its task

By the end importance clear
lines open-ended. its web
a metaphor for soul   but means
isn’t clear.


9.6.22
23 lines
Redaction Poetry
The Daily Poem



2-Time WDC Quill Winner: Best Poetry Collection, 2020 and 2021

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Redacted From:

Walt Whitman, From Poetry Analysis

Out of
the rolling ocean the crowd came a drop gently to me,
Whispering, I love you, before long I die,
I have
travell’d a long way merely to look on you to touch you,
For I could not die till I once look’d on you,
For I
fear’d I might afterward lose you.

In this lesser-known piece, Walt Whitman describes the last words of a narrator’s dying lover and his assurances they will find one another again in the rolling ocean. The poem begins with the speaker telling his reader that someone, like a single drop from the ocean, “came” to him. This is something that seems miraculous to the speaker. He is grateful to have found someone to spend his last moments with. He is part of the circle of life and death, and by the end of the poem, the fear associated with entering into the afterlife has dissipated.

A
noiseless, patient spider,
I mark’d, where, on a little promontory, it stood, isolated;
Mark’d how, to explore the vacant, vast surrounding,
It launch’d forth filament, filament, filament, out of itself;
Ever
unreeling them—ever tirelessly speeding them.

In ‘A
Noiseless Patient Spider,’ the speaker spends the poem watching a spider. It is on a rock overlooking the ocean. Although it is small, the impact on the area and the speaker is clear. It weaves a complex, beautiful web. The speaker pays close attention to how, string by string, the spider completes its task.

By the end of the poem, the larger importance of the text as a metaphor is made clear. The final lines conclude the poem, but they are very open-ended. He says that he sees the spider and its web as a metaphor for his soul, but what exactly he means by this isn’t clear.
September 4, 2022 at 9:21pm
September 4, 2022 at 9:21pm
#1037322
Actors like to pronounce their Gs



at the end of words-sah

They pronounce them so hard-dah
they sound like a lilting syllabah-lahs



I’m gonna need you to try that again.
Sylla-bubbles
Again?
Sylla-buses
One more time! Keep it rollin’.
Sylla-bulls
Print it!


No-ah

Yes-sah,

and don’t call me Noah.


Now, you gotta hit it hard …
Like we rehearsed …

Take, in 5 4 3 2 …


Your socks are swing-ging sing-gles.
They don’t seem to want to ming-gle.
Your laundry basket should be a mag-gnet.
The dryer trap is your only drag-gnet.


Cut!
That’s a wrap!



9.4.22

Unless uncommon mates scrubbed in the tub
clung where they hung with a casual tee,
you see?

geez-ah!

I’ll allow it, my child.
September 3, 2022 at 4:52pm
September 3, 2022 at 4:52pm
#1037275
Madness, let me be.
This endlessness in reverie,
veins seep sadness.
Let me find some peace tonight.

In a second, empty comfort,
an angel. Sweet distraction twisting,
escaping with you, maybe.

That straight line keeps waiting —
cold brings me to my knees.

Fly away time; a chance break?
Beautiful release in dark veins building.
Easier in your arms this waiting.

Hard to make okay the reason.
In a second, feel good enough.
Empty, this weightless time tonight —
memory from that cold day.

Tired, silent vultures everywhere.
Fly away fear. The end I lack —
find storm wreckage of my reverie.

Believe me one last time, ok?
Inglorious madness, let me be.



9.4.22
21 lines, free verse
Daily Poem
Use only words from song Angel by Sarah McLachlan
Minimum 3 words per line

Lyrics:

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here



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September 2, 2022 at 7:23pm
September 2, 2022 at 7:23pm
#1037236
I carry my lunch pail
         swing the clasp box in tow, know
I carry you where I go

My coffee warm as your heart
         vigor consumed on dirt
at noon. Coming home soon.

The clock crows in my heart.

I’m coming home to you
         see cornbread consumed
on checkered cloth — stirring
our hearts with spoons.

We canoodle in the aroma
         of a plank-board room —
love hovers over our air.

The clock sings soon, too.

Last cup of strong Joe before
         rocks crushed and carried
to quarry to collect carats
for a ring banded so smooth.

I carry my box home fast,
         lighter, longing your heart
next to my heart — a soul of two.

Up the cool porch I bound.

Outstretched, I’m received
         above a firm clasp.
I really carry you now. Soft
in the parlor caress a prize.

From my box a box I carried
just for you, until this June.
         I crush rocks hard for you.
         Cradle a soft heart so tender.



9.2.22

31 lines
Free Verse

For The Daily Poem
Sampling some alliteration, also assonance with some consonance not so cautiously but casually.

September 2, 2022 at 8:11am
September 2, 2022 at 8:11am
#1037208
I live in a world unlike yours
Sorry for the intrusion
I’m a bit alien, don’t align…
Though I’m trying to.
Could you stay in one place long enough…
You’re gone.
Who was I talking to?
I crawl back into this bell tower…
Spin some gears, fidget…
Trying to attune.
Was that a perfect note?
Loud enough for any other
To see with ears…
I belong here, too.


9.2.22

Spontaneous write to ‘Forgive Me’ Sorry by that over-apologetic singer, Tiffany Thurston. Pretty tune.


September 1, 2022 at 2:17pm
September 1, 2022 at 2:17pm
#1037176
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How did it get so late so soon?

woke
under an avalanche pouring down time
on a well worn head, foggy

life: inevitable waiting
mysterious brown washing out ~~~
on a glass sea set on its side

inside it’s shapely bubble
  . . .slipping through

I lay at the bottom
remember you
on our beach
fire glowing ~~~ warmth of two souls

now darkness
fading

you woke before me
now, no vigor left for deeper diving
the last granule could fall
into this anticipant void ~~~

i’m not ready

but everything is wonderful
         if you’re asking
how did it get so late so soon?

we could tilt this bubble back
I’d show you what we missed ~~~
read to you from my notebook

wake slowly
my love.



9.1.22

How many lines was that? 29
What the hell do you call that god-forsaken poetry style? free verse

I did make a Nicholas Sparks reference, if ever so slightly.

For 9/2/21 Daily Poem (no show)


Brian is a legally blind individual on the spectrum (highly functioning, I swear: pending complete self-diagnosis) with ADHD, for reals. It makes remembering hard between vision loss and 10,000 thoughts and other triggers in your impulsive head all at once. Don’t worry. I’m under good supervision and medication. Beautiful mind - commence shut down. Sorry, it takes awhile to shut this thing off. It could be all night, a week or month.

By the way, I want to mention I’m using a tablet to write. This is the only portion where I used talk to text. By the way, if IQ were scored by an arcade game I’d have top score.

Wrote to this (good background vibe for read):


Personally, I feel I’m trapped in a bubble of time — lock into one memory and make it play out forever, nearing the end of the vinyl record. Our glass or snow globe, shaken.

Forgot my glasses. Squint. Got ‘em now. Impulsive, forgetful. Squint.
Went to make coffee before reading what was happening today on writing.com, before this poem created for contest. I look at the Keurig now on standby. Just imagine if I had had caffeine.


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