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Coming soon: more work from someone creative, ambitious, and determined - often called a variant of insane/crazy. Notes: Genderfluid. Preferred pronouns (they/them) [& denotes married couples] Immediate Family: soon-to-be-ex-Dilbert, Tempest, Dogbert My Extended Family: (s)Dad, cousins (K, D, G, J, F, N) I guess it's good to be on speaking terms with someone. Voluntarily. AuntS Dilbert's Extended Family: SIL (+5 kids)& BIL, FIL's gf (only for holidays, mostly) Important People I Don't See Enough: Owl + Partner, Paradise ICON crew (which owl is a part of) People I've Known a Long Time/Long Distance: Doc & [husband], Sheer & DocSheer, Mrs. Light & [husband], Trillium & Diego (not married but close enough), Steph Local People: MotherDroid, Owl&Partner ... There are about to be new people on this list, because, well, I'm evolving. And it hurts. DnD: used letters, S (DM), D(doctor), Y(because I like him!), K(old RPGer friend who also attends church), P(church guy who does game night and is local and our families are also friends), A (went to church but moved back to Chicago, moved back locally then i moved) Tempest's friends: I don't know very many of her local friends. She's got an internet buddy who also talks to CousinK's younger daughter. the younger daughter is DRAMA. Dogbert's friends: Has a new group of friends based on a Pokemon thing and they have a DnD club at school and outside of school. Lucky kid! |
| Thinking hard. I never came out to my mother. Would she still have loved me? I'd like to think she'd have come around, but that's not an option anymore. A friend wrote out her traumas, and it's been an odd thing that I've been looking at mine. It's maybe something I shouldn't tackle all at once, especially when reading a memoir book where the author tackles her own demons. At least my kid trusts me enough to talk to me about her sexuality. Neither seems to have questioned their gender status. Puberty is really tough, though. All those ant metaphors about it's the issue with whomever shakes them up? We put all the ants in middle school and it's the hormones shaking them up. Survival is not a given. |
| I need to find my to-do list again. There's a lot of stuff I should be doing, and it isn't getting done. I'm healing, though it seems to take forever. https://www.patreon.com/RansomNoble This was scary, but I did it. I'm glad. Figuring out how all the things are going together at this point. Trying to seek out the resistance to finishing the things and push through. I went to DemiCon last weekend with my friend Owl. I consider us buddies, friends, but apparently I'm entering her inner circle of besties, so I'm working to find my path with that. We had a good time, and she was around doing family stuff while I did the con stuff with a few other writers. One of the authors who isn't in my cohort but is on her way to being a bigger deal was doing several panels, not just on her speculative fiction writing, but also on metaphysical topics. Lucid Dreaming and Past Lives. That makes me wonder, though, about how to get other people into a different mindset about that. L Ron Hubbard and Robert Heinlein created religions on a bet, and people followed them. While this author is using a pen name for these other books - I'm not sure she knows what she's getting into with a pen name. A lot of people don't. She's also very stuck on traditional publishing, and won't go any other path. But I'm starting to wonder about things. So I'm using part of her Past Lives game as a way to rally my Present Life into some ideas. We didn't get to finish the game, but its' an interesting concept, and I think it has other applications besides what she thinks it is. Past lives are one idea, but I asked Owl on the way home and it could lead to appropriation. I don't think a lot of people understand that obsession with a race or culture is not very far from racism. Yet I could put different pieces together and understand some ideas about myself better in the present tense. The priest's wife helped me with my meanderings to bringing in ministry of presence, and that is very much something I need to explore more. My writer friends believe my superpower is that I can talk to anyone - and they're not wrong. So what are the past lives to teach me, if I can use the same basis to learn about my present self and my path? Anyway. I have a lot to do, so back to the writing I go. Wish me luck. |
| I need to find my to-do list again. There's a lot of stuff I should be doing, and it isn't getting done. I'm healing, though it seems to take forever. https://www.patreon.com/RansomNoble This was scary, but I did it. I'm glad. Figuring out how all the things are going together at this point. Trying to seek out the resistance to finishing the things and push through. I went to DemiCon last weekend with my friend Owl. I consider us buddies, friends, but apparently I'm entering her inner circle of besties, so I'm working to find my path with that. We had a good time, and she was around doing family stuff while I did the con stuff with a few other writers. One of the authors who isn't in my cohort but is on her way to being a bigger deal was doing several panels, not just on her speculative fiction writing, but also on metaphysical topics. Lucid Dreaming and Past Lives. That makes me wonder, though, about how to get other people into a different mindset about that. L Ron Hubbard and Robert Heinlein created religions on a bet, and people followed them. While this author is using a pen name for these other books - I'm not sure she knows what she's getting into with a pen name. A lot of people don't. She's also very stuck on traditional publishing, and won't go any other path. But I'm starting to wonder about things. So I'm using part of her Past Lives game as a way to rally my Present Life into some ideas. We didn't get to finish the game, but its' an interesting concept, and I think it has other applications besides what she thinks it is. Past lives are one idea, but I asked Owl on the way home and it could lead to appropriation. I don't think a lot of people understand that obsession with a race or culture is not very far from racism. Yet I could put different pieces together and understand some ideas about myself better in the present tense. The priest's wife helped me with my meanderings to bringing in ministry of presence, and that is very much something I need to explore more. My writer friends believe my superpower is that I can talk to anyone - and they're not wrong. So what are the past lives to teach me, if I can use the same basis to learn about my present self and my path? Anyway. I have a lot to do, so back to the writing I go. Wish me luck. |
| If you've friended me on the book of evil faces, you may have seen pictures of my injury. About two weeks ago, I partially tore my gastrocnemius, then complicated the matter with acute compartment syndrome. The bruises have been so fantabulous, it's hard to think straight. Also, ACS hurts like it might actually be better to cut the leg off. Last week when I saw the PT, he was talking about how you go from two crutches to one, to none... Well, I pushed through something, likely mental and physical, last week. My best guess is I got the hematoma in my leg to move. Sunday it was excruciating to walk with two crutches on the floor (despite trying since Tuesday when the PT said that). Monday I could do it. Yesterday I walked a bit with a single crutch, though more often with two. Today I'm walking with none. I'm still limping to a degree; my left foot does not want to be behind my body yet. I'm not sure he's going to expect me to be this far. The bruises change daily, and this week seem to be moving upward on my leg (and also downward into my foot). I'm excited to be moving better with less pain. But occasionally have also been worried I made it worse. In news of the kids- Tempest got asked out by a boy but said she thinks she likes girls. I told her it was okay not to know yet and that's it's all right not to be ready for anything like that. Dogbert got an evaluation for dancing and they think he can do better than he's doing... Sigh. He's just having a rough time with something with the headaches. If only I could get my headache to disappear. It's probably time for more painkillers. I've had a lot on my mind, and I'm not achieving my goals at the moment. Time to shake something up and get back on the track to getting something accomplished. |
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