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** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Life has shifted and minds shift with it. My reflection changes, sometimes the culprit of erratic thought and garbled words, but sun and sanity is for the birds. Care to follow along when the Queen of Darkness dares share a bit of the shadows reflected upon these pages? {image:2066112} ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
| Good Afternoon All who have come to wander here. My blog needed a new entry and one not so negative. It's a new year! So Happy New Year everyone! Mine didn't start out so great but good things came of it so I'm not going to complain about my freak out of the New Year. But I will tell you about it. As most of you know, I'm a stay at home of three wonderful boys. I may need to update my bio but my oldest is about to be 9 years old on Feb 1, and I have 5 year old twin boys as well. I worked full time until my first son, then I went to working weekends understandably because I had no sitter and I was lucky enough to have a job that allowed me to do so. Then 4 years ago going on 5, my father passed away and me and my family moved from WA state back to CA to live with my mother. I then had no job. Besides the wonderful but poorly paying job of being a mommy. My mother has been saying she's ready to retire. So she said hey, look for a state job and when you get in I'll retire. That was last August. I begun the arduous task of applying for state jobs as office assistant's everywhere and as a Motor Vehicle Rep for the DMV (Department of Motor Vehicles--where both my mother and my husband work.) I had everything in order, my references, my application, my typing certificate, and a great attitude (filled with anxiety admittedly--I'm trying to change careers with nothing but 10 years of Pharmacy Tech experience under my belt). Months go by, get a few interviews, they go okay... I'm intimidated. The competition for a state job is fierce and applying for entry level positions with odd experience. But I stay positive. The New Year comes around and I have two FANTASTIC interviews. The best to date. I walk out feeling great about how I turned my experience in a pharmacy to match an office assistant position. I had them laughing! I go out to lunch with my husband and mother and she mentions that I should check up on my references. So I did. Come to find out my boss's number had changed and my other two references quit working for the company and moved out of state. You can't apply for a state job without three references, it's just unheard of. So I freak out. I just had two great interviews, the references are out of date, and although my boss can update her phone number with me, I still have to find two more business references. The next day I just so happened to find my second references cell phone number in my phone. I haven't talked to him in 5 years and he's moved out of state what are the chances he'll answer. I text him anyway, what can it hurt. He actually texts me back saying he'd be happy to remain my reference and put in a good word for me. Then I have a friend who's kids I watched over the summer and decided just to use her as a business reference too. Why not? So I decided to email the the jobs I interviewed with back and tell them what happened. ~ that my references were out of date but that I had new ones. What could it hurt right? Only one of them responds and thanks me for the update. Turns out the one that thanked me for the update loved me, and called my references...the new ones I emailed them even though I screwed up, and then gave me a tentative job offer. Which means they're offering me the job as long as I clear through all the HR stuff first. So here I am in limbo still, waiting to clear through HR. Oh, and I had an adventure with that because they want your social security card and I had mine in my wallet (I know they tell you not to but I play bingo occasionally and you need it if you win big!) and low and behold I lost my wallet. So I had to run down to the Social Security office and apply for another one, but apparently the job accepts the notice of applying for one as a legal document so I skated by there again. But it all makes me paranoid if it'll affect the whole HR process or not. Ah! I'm pulling my hair out waiting for the official job offer! And my mom is officially retired as of tomorrow so she can take the boys back and forth to school for me. We're paying her $500 a month to do it though. Grandma gets a tip for helping us out. It's a lot less then I'd pay for daycare so I'm thankful there. I've had the pleasure of turning down some newly offered interviews, it hurts without the official offer but gives me a positive action to look forward to and hold onto this tentative offer. No news from them is good news that everything is going smoothly I guess, They say it takes 1-2 weeks. So I'll let you guys know when it's official and when I start work again after so long! So despite that I have to live through Trump ( yeah I had to make one little jab) I have high hopes for 2017. This is going to be my year! |
| ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Days 42 & 43 Both days I worked on my new romance story for Breakthrough. Time spent day 42: 1 hour Time spent day 43: 1.5 hours |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Day 22 [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Dr. Dre and more - Chronic 2001 (Extreme Lyrics!!) This is a big album in my life because it opened the door to enjoying some rap music. Funny enough I am the rock lover and my husband is the rap lover. I never cared much for it until Eminem came around and then my husband introduced me to Dr. Dre, Snoop Dogg, and some others. The beats drew me in and the lyrics in most, make me laugh. Even Eddie Griffin makes a comedic appearance on a track that makes me howl every time. Now I'm a bit more open, though most of it still makes me cringe, some of it eventually grows on me (starting to like Nicki Minaj) EEK! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Worked for a total of two hours on short story projects; completed 3 intros ("Portals"/"Gamer"/"In Your Head") and editing of my second draft of "Doppelganger". Worked 30 min on blogging and 1 hour on answering emails. Feb 23 Daily Total: 3.5 hours writing |
Today is my One Year Anniversary here on Writing.com! That is exciting news for me. One year ago today I felt stuck, sad, depressed, and overcome by anxiety that I didn't feel like I could go on. I was missing my dad, my mom and I were fighting so bad that I felt like I was worthless to my family and not worth living at all. Whenever I felt like this when I was younger I would write poetry. But ever since my dad had died I couldn't write a thing. I decided I would try and write stories again and I searched the internet for days on end for something inspiring. I found the Nanowrimo site in my search. Well that was wonderful but it seemed like a huge undertaking and I didn't think I could do it by myself, so I searched for way to prepare for it and came across "October Nano Prep: 2014 Calendar"  two days before it began. It seemed like kizmit. And boy was it ever. I met wonderfully supportive people, like Rhonda and my 2013 Nano teammate 💙 Carly (Go team Green!) among a ton of others. I dove right in and prepared my butt off. Little did I know that my love and passion for writing would soon become full bloom. Not only that but my life would change completely. Thanks to all the love and support I have received here I went out got help for my depression, for my health issues and turned to mental health to take care of severe anxiety levels that had nearly stopped me from leaving my house again. Now, I'm happier and healthier than I have ever been and not a day goes by that I'm not checking in here (Facebook what's that?) to see what's going with the people I truly consider friends. Despite the fact that I've found myself so busy lately that I don't email you guys as much as I used to, (Hey Nano is coming, what a way to celebrate!), I love you all more than you could possibly know and look forward to everyday living and learning and WRITING with each and every one of you! Thank you for being such a huge part of my life and I look forward to many more years here with all of you! Thank you The StoryMaster & The StoryMistress for creating such a wonderful home for us misfits of the world to gather and share a passion that improves our lives and the lives of others simply by sharing our imaginations and thank you to all of my friends who make each day beautiful. (I couldn't possibly list you all!  |
| Prompt: What scents bring back vivid memories for you? Vick's Vapor Rub always brings back memories of my Great-Grandmother. She used that for everything. Old Spice brings my grandfather back in full color. That's all he ever wore. Love it... just cant have my husband wear it, it's too creepy. Black Leather cologne from Avon and CG Bigelow Body Wash from Bath & Body remind of my dad. Hubs can wear the Bigelow because they have new scents now, thank the Gods, cause he smells delicious in them. My grandmother unfortunately it's a bad smell that reminds me of her because I have her old suitcase, and every time I open it it smells like old stale pills. I've febrezed it, sprayed it with perfume everything else. She's been gone 20 years and the damn thing still stinks like medicine. But it's a great suitcase. Mom has scents too but I just don't know the names because we have way different body chemistry when it comes to scents, we can't wear each others perfumes. I wear musky scents well, while she like fruity and floral. Although Japanese Cherry Blossom is awesome... Hmm, now I wanna go shopping at Bath & Body. |
| DAY 49 - April 22, 2014: List ten things that make you smile. DOH I missed yesterdays blog. Ah well, it was worth it. I was spending time with my husband catching up on TV shows we started recording during NaNoWriMo Prep last October. I haven't stopped writing since and now our DVR is 82% Full, so I figured we should start trying to catch up at least a little bit. It cuts into my production time and I may not complete my stories I'm writing in time to enter the contests I want to but I over extended myself this month so I forgive myself this one time... though I haven't failed YET. I'm still trying! Anyhow, on with the blog prompt. Ten things that make me smile in no particular order 1) My children 2) My husband 3) My Best Friend 4) WDC (Duh) 5) Creative Rushes 6) Various forms of visual entertainment (Movies, TV, Video Games, etc.) 7) My Druid Grove/Spiritual Family 8) Myself (Yes I make myself smile all the time) 9) Music that touches that special place 10)  I'll keep this one private These may not be very creative within themselves but you know what, if you would've asked me this question a mere 6 month ago or so, I wouldn't have been able to give you 3. So I'm proud of this list. |
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