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   [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" -- What are your goals or resolutions for 2016? I think this is third time that I'm writing about goals and resolutions of 2016 in the past few weeks. I don't make resolutions and I don't set any kind of goals regarding New Year. I'm just going to live it like 2015 and all other past years I guess. I never plan things in any stage of my life. I just go with the flow of life. Like the river.  Sometimes I loose things because I want someone else to find them,because I know they will serve better to them than to me. Goodbye my star.  Heaven is in riot for one star is missing from his gracious sky no one would even notice if 'twas not the brightest stars of all As the other stars cried in dismay Gods have promised a reward to anyone who find even her glittering way Every creature quested each corner of divine garden- Milky Way yet no one knew where the brightest star rests her shine they were all looking in the wrong places they couldn't know that the brightest star in the night's sky rest her spark in the darkest corners of the universe not because she wants to hide but because she knows she can't live without darkness for the darkness she exist and the darkness she light ~~"Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" -- Books affect us in profound ways, don't you agree? Tell us about a book that struck a chord with you, was it in a good way or a not so good way? Books does affect in both ways. The thing is, there is no bad book. There is only book that you like and book that you don't like. Those that you don't like will affect you in a bad way. I've read books like that and there is one book so disgusting to me that I was reading a page per day so I don't give up totally. It's Naked Lunch by William S. Burroughs . I felt horrible when I finished it but I know some friends of mine who liked it, too.There are a lot of books that left an impact on me: Pride & Prejudice, One Hundred Years of Solitude, Process, The Red and The Black, The Little Prince, The Secret and many more. All of them has something that you grow into, something to teach you and something to keep you wander. Every book affect a person in a different ways, depend how we take it to the heart. |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" -- Where would you most like to visit in 2016 and why? I would love to visit Pandora  . Haha, just kidding. No really though, can you imagine if such place really exist somewhere except on the online site Pandorapedia ? I watched 'Avatar' movie for million times and I can never get bored with it. Those colors, nature, flora and fauna, forest, creatures...simply amazing, my favorite fictional universe of all times. It would be great if the movie set is real place. Written and produced by James Cameron movie surpassed all expectations I believe since he wrote it on the 80-page treatment for a movie. I've read somewhere that he is planning three more sequels in the close future and I only can imagine how it's going to look like. Since Avatar has been released in 2009 and the next sequel should be out the next year, can you imagine how much technology moved on since then and how all that will look like?  I know I'll be in the first row in the theater.On the side note, I would love to visit Australia again and also Norway. I was amazed by Sydney and people there when we sailed to New Caledonia back in uhm..2013 I think. Norway is on my 'places to visit' list since forever. I don't really know why, I just want to see Scandinavia and this phenomenon that Norway has- Aurora, polar light. I would love to take the blanket with me, drive to the top of some hill and just lay down on the ground and watch how the sky colors bleed into each other. That's one of my biggest dreams I ever have. I'm trying to be on time as much as I can because I hate to be late and I hate when the other people are late, too. I can't stand someone to be so irresponsible constantly, especially if you said to him exact time of meeting or something. I mean, I understand if you're late somewhere sometimes but every single time is just sooo annoying. For example my sister. If we wanna go out I tell her in the morning that we will go out so, I give her a whole day to think about what she's going to wear, makeup and just girly stuff, you know. However, she is born five minutes to midnight and everything that she is doing in her life she is doing it in the last minutes. If I'm going out with her I know I'll be late every time even though she had a whole day to do things. It happened so many times that I just give up and don't go out at all because she 'never have anything to wear'!  I really have no idea how she is doing now when she is working because she also is not a morning person. The only time I used to be late somewhere is at the end of my ship contract, after eight months spent at sea. I just..can't even and I'm not the only one. I remember one time I was late at work for two hours and totally fucked up my schedule and when I came to deck 9 my boss just looked at me (I just woke up and run up only to brush my teeth and tie my hair, I had those pillow lines all over my face  ) and he said: "How many more cruises you still have till your vacation?" I told him that was my last cruise and he just said: "I understand" and went to mind his own business instead of giving me some shit . This happened to me again, I used to be late at the end of my contract but then, when I see I'm late I won't rush anymore to brush my teeth only. I would dress up slowly, take time to have a coffee and wait pillow lines disappear before I show up on check in, anyway I'm late, right? The world will still wait for me. But overall I always try to be on time. And sometimes I set my watch fifteen minutes back so I can show up somewhere on time or even fifteen minutes earlier. ~~"Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" --Do you feel you have to be available at all times? How has this affected your down time?I do feel that I have to be available for people who mean something to me in my life. I started to feel like this because I dealt with some serious shit in my life all alone and it was horrible. I even closed myself after that so those who tried to get in for some reason I didn't allow them because they were not there when I needed it more than I need it now. I say to people that I love to be alone but that's not true. I hate it, I really do. I never wanted to be alone for even a second, I can't be alone in the room, I can't be alone in chat, I can't be alone in a car. I'm so scared of that feeling. Not scared like I would panic or anything because it happens so many times that I am in a car alone or in a room, it's inevitable sometimes, I just need to know there's someone breathing the same air with me. I've got this breakdown back in 2012 and I feel it since then. Sometimes I lock myself in a room and I cry without any specific reason. I lock myself not because I want to be alone but because I don't want wrong person stand beside me then. I'm afraid that some people don't understand my sadness and then they offer help in a wrong ways so I'd rather lock myself and be away from them. I have a few people in my life who knows that I will always be there with them anyhow, it doesn't need to be by presence. You just feel that connection even if you're miles away. I wish that everyone has someone in life who will be available all the time for them, someone with who you would share not just bad and sad thing but also someone who will share happiness with you as well. People who are important to me can never affect my downtime because I'd rather enjoy in their company every time than in time I chose to spend on myself only. I hate loneliness of any kind. |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" -- Read a new book lately? Write a review and tell us what you liked/disliked about it. I saw this prompt this morning and when I went outside the house to throw the garbage I saw a package from Amazon and I snail mail letter from Jenny. I ordered two books from Amazon a while ago and they arrived today. Those are just two poetry books from Lang Leav- Love & Misadventure and Lullabies . I've found Lang Leav on Facebook and I loved her little poems she shared on her page. She has one more book called Memories and another one coming this year in June I think. I bought 'Memories' for my sister because she read the first two and liked it also. She wrote Charlie's Widow , a handcraft book with only few editions which one of it finished in hands of famous director Tim Burton.So, anyway I received these books this morning and decided to read one so I can write today's WTMR prompt  . It's a 155 pages long and I read it within an hour because it was only poetry inside and just a few prose pieces. Lang Leav is not such an awesome poet even though she has a lot of followers all over the world. I just think that her poetry is simply beautuful, something you can't discuss about with someone or even at school. All her poems are dedicated to Michael- apparently a man of her life who is a poet himself. He has his own poetry book published as well- Dirty Pretty Things . But I do love her poetry because it's relaxing and I have a feeling I can read it every time I'm tired or upset. It has some kind of calming effect on me. Most of the people in reviews that I've read said how she is better in writing prose than poetry and I can agree with them, too. Her upcoming book is called 'Sad Girls' and there won't be any poetry at all so I can't wait to read it. I'm sharing with you one of her prose pieces from the book I've read today, 'Love & Misadventure'. “It happens like this. "One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else--closer to them than your closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel--one sent to you for some higher purpose; to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do is trust in them--even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering--the reason for their presence will become clear in due time." Though here is a word of warning--you may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isn't to save you but to show you how to save yourself. And once this is fulfilled; the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exits your life. They will be a stranger to you once more. ------------------------------------------------- It's so dark right now, I can't see any light around me. That's because the light is coming from you. You can't see it but everyone else can.”
~~"Blogging Circle of Friends " -- What hobbies do you have other than writing? Is it important to have multiple hobbies or should you perfect one before moving on to another? Hobbies are for people who have time for them and that I do not have in past few years. Actually, right now I have time to do things other than writing but I just don't because I know when I leave again at some point this year I won't have chance to hang around in here so very often and I know how much I will miss it. It happened to me last year and I don't know how many of you believe me but I was really going crazy without writing or doing any kind of activities here. I was just working like crazy and was busy constantly. I don't want to complain because I was getting money for it but sometimes was just unbearable. So, I think now I just want to make up for everything I have missed while I was away and that's why I don't have any other hobbies in my life. I do watch a movies when I feel my finger hurts or if my friends wants to come over of course so if that counts as one then yeah...my hobby other than writing is watching a movies. There is nothing better than that at this time when we have over 30cm of snow outside. That and shopping. I love shopping because it makes me feel good when I buy things for myself or for someone else. Even here I love to buy MBes, awardicons etc. Even if the happiness when I purchase one lasts couple of minutes, hours. "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" -- Have you ever kept a New Years Resolution that you made? I don't remember that I really made New Years resolution ever, maybe because for me the New Year is not something I look at like any other normal person in the world. To me it's just an ordinary day in my life and I don't remember that I ever felt like I have to do something different with my goals and plans because it's a New Year for God sake. I don't know, to me everything looks like the same when I wake up on first cold January morning. I did make a list of things from WdC in my last December's entry so I can have an idea on what I've done and what I couldn't accomplish during 2016. so let's see. I did that because I saw some other people were doing it and I had to write something that doesn't sound sad in my last December's entry. I didn't set any goals for myself because I know I have to go back to the ship and there I don't have time for anything except work. |
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[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" - What happened today that made you feel good? I'm not positive sure if watching a movie made me feel good today but it did make me laugh. Is that a good thing? I didn't feel good after the movie was over, I was just feeling like whatever. The movie is hilarious. I watched it in cinema before but I had a friend calling me today to come over her place since she is on winter break and have nothing smarter to do. There's 30cm of snow that fell overnight here and it's really comfy to be stuck in warm house with coffee and friends . I bet most of you saw Dumb and Dumber , at least first movie, so you know basically what is going on here. It's just...I can't even.Nothing else happened to me today that is worth of mention. I was just relaxing and watching a movies all day long. I don't feel like writing anything today. I love movie Wednesdays. |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Blogging Circle of Friends " - Has technology helped you achieve better or worse work/life balance? Like everything else in life that requires balance the same is with technology. In some things it did help and also it didn't. It depend how everyone understand technology and its features. Technology itself is awesome if you take only the best out of it, if you know how to use it for some kind of good causes. And you don't need to be scientist to do it. Unfortunately there are those who are taking advantage of the same. I'm not too much into it anyway, I mean, I use it for some inevitable things. For example, almost a whole human popularity on Earth is using phone, right? The main purpose of phone is to call someone (that's how Alexander Graham Bell imagined it at first) but if we go back for at least 20. years from now we know that humans started to taking advantage of it by inventing other features that comes along when you buy a cellphone. I'm not saying that I have something against cameras and all kind of apps on my phone but the more choices you have the more it's getting worse. First because you cannot have all apps that you love on just one phone. Second because you overload it so much that it die after just one year and you will be going to buy another phone. Third, well..third thing I hate the most with phones is a fact that 7. years old child knows how to decode that shit or download app and all kind of, to me mysterious, tools. When I was a kid I was climbing the tree and was jumping in the mud puddles. I had my first phone when I finished elementary school and I had to share it with my sister. From my own perspective and experience I loved mud puddles and sledding because that's for kids and I know that you guys who are my ages or older will agree. All in good time. Before in my school you couldn't have situation where someone is beating a child while his friends are recording it with their cellphones and sharing it on social networks right away. Or, we never had situations where we would argue whose parents are more rich and who is having iPhone6 or Nokia 3310 in the class. We were't classifying each other while today that's such a common and normal thing. I use my laptop and internet for some kind of research, whether it's for job, activities or something third but there will always be those who will, instead of doing homework spend their time by playing Angry Birds or whatever. I got spanked by my mother every time I said no to homework and I'm glad I did .~~"Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" - Some people blush very easily. What do you think blushing shows? Now, isn't this the most adorable thing you saw today?  When I read this prompt this morning I thought of it instantly. And my sister...because she blush a lot. I have no idea why people are blushing. I'm pale and I don't blush for almost any reason. The only time I get red in face is when it's exposed to sun for longer period or when I run a lot for some reason. Other than that I don't blush. My sister says, and I have noticed, that she blush when she feel embarrassed. She will blush if we're talking about something, and when someone says something inappropriate, she will blush for that person . It's so funny but she says she cannot help it. I think that if you blush because you're embarrassed for something you have personage. I'm not saying that other people who don't blush are senseless but those who blush are more sensitive. I always find it interesting, maybe cute act. |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" - Describe yourself in 5 words. Now, explain why you chose those particular words. STUBBORN  PALE CARRYING BLONDE CONFIDENT Stubborn- I don't give a shit about your advice on anything. If I hear someone sharing his/her opinion about my stuff I just switch of my mind and I let my thoughts sink into the green field of daisies. I even make a wreath there while you're talking  . I survive life by learning from my own mistakes and no one can do anything about that. Sometimes I repeat the same mistake just to make sure. Pale- This is not any kind of defect. I'm just pale person because I'm anemic since forever. I still remember when we were growing up, going to swim at lake and my friends were joking with me how they can never loose me in a crowd because I am the most whitest girl at the beach . My complexion is really white especially at sun rays and most of the time I look like I'm sick person if I don't wear enough makeup, liquid foundation for face or some kind of eye shadows. I swear I can get a role in some vampire movie.Carrying- Most of the time I look like I don't give a shit about you but that is so wrong. I'm not talkative person and since I don't like to share advice with the others people think that I don't care. The whole truth is that I do care, I only think that people are like me here, since I don't like when someone is giving me advice I always think that the others are the same. If I see that I'm misunderstood in someone's eyes I will do something immediately to show him different. I usually buy things to people who I really love and I don't expect anything like that in return. That is my way to show someone that there's a person in the world who think and care about you. And I just want friendship or love in return, depend who is the person. Blonde- I change the hair color a lot and at this time I'm blonde. Confident- I put this virtue here because it fits into Blog City prompt for today. I am one hella confident person. I don't remember how that happened since I was shy child but I really am. If I think that garbage bag looks good on me (and I usually have six sense for fashion) I will go out in it. Literally. I'm crazy, but don't be afraid because I'm not THAT crazy. I'm not Lady Gaga either. Better example, if I like the guy who I see the first time in my life I will tell him that right away. What happens after I say it to him? Well..I had all kind of situations  .~~"Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" - Do you believe confidence, even false confidence, can boost a person’s reputation? I believe that confidence CAN and do boost person's reputation but I don't think that false confidence boost person's reputation. Orrrr..yes, it does boost but bad reputation I believe. As I said above, I am really confident with stuff in my life and different kind of situations but I think I'm lucky little bit because I'm stubborn and I don't give a shit what someone says to or about me. Examples:  I have this yellow dress that I really like and I think that it looks perfect on me. However, some friends of mine (who happens that they doesn't like yellow or they just have different opinion) think I look like shit in it. If I don't have confidence I would take it out immediately. But I do have so I keep the dress because I also feel good in it and you can never go wrong with things that makes you feel good. I have this yellow dress that looks like shit on me and all other friends think that it looks perfect on me (they either don't have any sense for fashion or they are evil). Anyway, they are boosting my confidence, telling to me that it looks perfect so, me (who is not stubborn and who is listening whatever someone else says) keep the dress and go into public with it. As soon as I show up at the party I am lynched by the other girls and especially guys. False confidence doesn't make any good, it just makes you look like stupid. I really have one yellow dress that I love and people say that I look cute in it. It boost my confidence to another level. ~~ "Blogging Circle of Friends " - Write a story or poem containing the following words: sandwich, force, fat, attic, abolish, chubby, pipe, contest Willie was known as a chubby fella who couldn't go day without sandwich not even when his mom forced him to reduce fat and abolish his eating habits. She registered him in national contest of changing pipes it was one hella competition where you would usually get gripes. Since Willie couldn't get thin in one day and win the contest of changing pipes he then run in nearest attic so no one could see his tears as the whole situation became too dramatic. whateva |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" - What were you like in school? Was there a certain clique or group you fit into? Oh which school? Elementary or highschool? There was slight difference between those. For example, I wasn't really popular in elementary school. I totally sucked, I was just ordinary kid, hiding in the corner. I wasn't shy or anything like that, I was just hard to notice. It's hard to explain actually. I wasn't that kid in a class that is sitting peaceful, listening every single word of teachers but I also wasn't loud kid so they can notice me in class. I was just...a kid going to school. I had really good grades all the time. My school mates and I didn't want to be popular then because we were starting school when we had war in my country. That was really tough period of life and during three years of it we were in and out of school all the time because the situation was dangerous constantly. After the war finished we, kids, were still recovering and no one really gave a shit about popularity. I think that we just wanted to go through it anyhow. However, somewhere in the middle of elementary school, I think I was in 5th grade, we had new pupils. During the war some families escaped to the other countries, especially Germany, and after the war was finished they came back home. These kids became more popular somehow but it was just because they were new and they saw something we didn't- they saw GERMANY while we were surviving the war. I think it was interesting for us to know someone who is different. When I say different it means that those kids adopted German's mentality, they had different clothes, they saw things that we only read in magazines etc. It is funny when I go back to it now because I wouldn't change my childhood for anything. Even we went to school while the outside was war zone we still had lots of fun. At school I was part of drama group where we learned everything about acting. I really enjoyed in it and I remember that I wanted to be an actress when I grow up. I have one memory from there that involves some of my friends that I grew up with. We were doing 'Wizard of Oz' once and I was Cowardly Lion . We also did Shakespeare's Hamlet and some popular books written in my native language, from our literature. Even then most of us didn't think about popularity, we just...went to school. We didn't have any kind of incidents because we were children of war and I think we were just too scared for anything like that.Highschool was different though. I started with it back in 2000. and I instantly found friends that has bad influence on me. That's what my mom thought. She even hired my older cousin to spy on me . I did all kind of stupid things- alcohol, drugs, fights haha yeah fights! I had some girl friends that were in some kind of gang or whatever. I remember how they wore those jeans with suspenders  and shitty buffalo sneakers  . They were always looking for some reasons to start fights. One time I had this guy and my best friend was his cousin. We were is some kind of scheme buuuuut one of these buffalo girls was his ex so when she heard all about us they were looking for me  . Ughhh, we just pushed each other a little bit after school because he threatened her that if she even try to touch me he will beat her up. It was so stupid all that, especially because we became friends few years after and when her buffalo gang split up. I had all kind of friends, I went through a lot of different and somehow dangerous situations but all that just built up person who I am today . |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Welcome To My Reality Forum" - What sort of background noise do you like to have when you're writing? What about when you're reading, relaxing or sleeping? I don't usually listen to music when I'm writing because it distracts me a lot. I don't know if it sounds weird to you but I can't write my own thoughts while listening to the others. Even if it's classical music that I really love I can't do it. And not just music, I can't stand any background noise if I sit and put my fingers on keyboards. You may wonder why I put this song in this entry but I assure you that I didn't listen to this song while I was writing this. I just remembered that I was crazy about Tom's voice a while ago. The same is with reading. Actually I can stand low music while reading or if the TV is on. When I was at the ship I had roommate all the time so we had to adjust to each other. My last roommate was pretty nice and we didn't complain on each other. We had our TV turned on all the time because both of us can't sleep in total silence and dark. So, even if I was reading something in my bed the TV was turned on for her if she watched some movie or something. She was cool and different than the other roommates I had. I remember one girl with who I lived at the ship when we were sailing in Alaska. She was craaaaazy. You know the little light lamp on the TV that switch to red when you turn it off? She was so annoyed by that light that I had to turn off the TV not just with remote but I had to press the button on the TV itself. Ughh..some people just overreact. She didn't even allow me to dry my hair with the dryer because she had to sleep or whatever. I was like- fuck you, I live here also and I will do whatever I wanna do. We usually had different schedules and my godness I had to take a shower and dry my hair before sleep. I hated her and she probably hated me because she moved out after few weeks. I was never happier in my life. Thank God I didn't need to live with her all my life. Poor husband of hers.  Despite hating any noise while writing I enjoy in music when I go to bed. I am so opposite here because I can't sleep without music. I don't usually have specific playlist that I put every time, any music fits before sleep as long as it's not too loud. When I had some kind of bf before most of them didn't complain on this. I mean, who doesn't like music before sleep? Probably only my ex roommate but I think she is not human Is it just me or you guys also noticed that today is evil day of blogging 666? Anyway, I think that I didn't have decent balance between life and work when I was working on a cruise ship. It was so crazy, I literally didn't have time to manage my eyebrows. I was working a whole day, every single day during the eight months of contract. I used to wake up for work at 8a.m. and finish with work at 10:30- 11p.m. I would go back to my cabin and just die on that bed if I didn't need to do my laundry or some additional work like cleaning cabin for the morning inspections. Of course that I had some sort of breaks during the day (usually half and hour or one hour) but they've been used for breakfast, lunch or fifteen minutes nap. In that one hour break I should be able to have breakfast where I would constantly look at my watch so I don't stay for too long. I was waiting in food line for ten minutes, I was eating in ten minutes, to reach my cabin on deck A from the dining area takes four minutes, to take out my clothes and lie down takes three minutes. So, as soon as I put my head on a pillow I fall a sleep for ten minutes. I would then run to get dressed and reach deck 9. with the elevator. The worse thing was that only one crew elevator worked properly and everyone is going up or down constantly, it was always full and most of the time we had to wait the next round. It was so...annoying when supervisor was giving you shit if you're late. If someone ever told me that I will be able to sleep 10 or 15 minutes in a day I would say that he is nuts. But I did. No wonder when I came on vacation I was seeping for two weeks straight, I didn't want to see anyone or do anything except sleeping. If you think this is insane I must agree with you because when you are looking at it from the side it sounds crazy. But at the end of the day you realize that it is just a job and you have to do your job. There were times when I even liked it, I liked the fact to be super busy with stuff so I don't need to think about anything else. I guess that some people would tell me how lucky I am for traveling the world, meeting so many people, getting to know different cultures, I have so many material to write about but trust me, all I was longing for was my comfy bed and the pleasure of killing the alarm clock everytime it goes off. |
| [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" - Every year has it's highs and it's lows, what was the best and the worst of 2015? Life is a balance of good and bad and no matter how it looks like to us sometimes you will never have all bads all the time and also you will never have all goods all the time. You will get each of it at some point. The only difference is that some people get bads and they last longer than goods and also some people get goods that last longer than bads. I belong to the first group of people. I hate to say that 2015. was year full of bads and nothingness because if you are reading the other people here or anywhere else, even if you ask your friends back home, everyone will say to you the same: this year was the worse I ever had, but then, they say that for every other that is already behind, right? Like, oh I wish you all more blessings in the New Year and let's never have repetitive 2015. because that was a really bad year. I don't know why everyone is saying similar things. It's so annoying to me. I don't give too much attention to New Years anyway since my friend died back in 2006. and hearing someone saying the same things constantly every year makes me feel like...blah. I am not going to say that 2015. was the worse ever and that I hope 2016. will be better because I am not looking forward to it. I mean, I do look forward some things in life but they are not too important to brag about it. I made a list of my CR from WdC yesterday because I wanna see where and how do I stand within this community and my goals as a writer. These things are just something on regular basis and they don't make too much difference in my life. Same is in real life. Some friend of mine be like- 2015. was the worse and I'm like- why, because you were going to college every day, you passed and failed exams, you still didn't learn how to make a good omelete etc. These are just things that you do daily and I don't know why someone feel need to say how last year was the worse when nothing really happened in their life. And lets be honest, no one will say- 2015. was really bad because there was terroristic attach to Paris, France if they were not affected anyhow by the same. On the other hand there are some drastic changes in some people's lives. Someone gets pregnant, someone bring a baby to life, someone gets married, someone gets engaged, someone gets a dream job, someone gets diploma and then someone loose someone in some way. These are the changes that leave imprints in person's life and they will remember that specific year forever. Then they will say, 2015. was the best year of my life because my son was born or 2015. was the worse year of my life because I lost my son then. I don't know if you understand me on this but I'm just trying to explain important things on why you could say that 2015. was the best of the worse. I was thinking a whole day about my ups from 2015. and I don't know if you believe me but there is NONE. Not a single good thing that I can single out to be proud of. I could maybe say that I have won first place in one or two contests here but that's not something that made my whole year. It only made my day when I found out. But, I will remember 2015. forever because I lost my dad that year and also because I quit of my job on that cruise line company after 4. long years. I didn't quit totally though, I am just trying to venture into some other adventure with another company but it is not sure yet. Time will tell. ~~"Welcome To My Reality Forum" How do you feel about getting older? Does it frighten you? Please you? Is there anything in particular that concerns you or that you look forward to? Since I am a woman I think about biological clock the most because I can't wait to have my own children. We all know that for such thing I need possible fool who is going to make things come true . And that I don't have yet. Most of the women starts to think about their look, or how their skin will look like once when they get old. I don't think about that though mostly because everyone is telling me that I look much younger than I really am so it doesn't concerns me . I also am not afraid of the things that the ages may bring, such as death. With certain period of your life comes certain things that you have to go through and these things should not frighten you or anything because they comes naturally. As a matter of fact we all should be able to bring out the best out of it because we will never be the same ages ever again and we should enjoy in life till its fullness if possible. I think I only feel concerned about the future when it comes about my life goals, I'm afraid I won't have chance to meet all of them not because I won't have time because I have goals for each stage of my life but because something may stop me, something that is stronger than myself and my plans. I'm trying to not think about it that way, I just live the best that I can and know. If its destinied to loose this battle there probably won't be anything that can be done and I know I have to make a peace with it. I just try to make each day counts for now. I'm not planning anything in deep future because we never know what can happen. I would be more disappointed if I know what kind of plans I have for my future and just watch them sinking if I won't be able to reach them somehow. It's better like that. |
BCOF- What do you hope people will remember about you after you die? I just hope I won't be forgotten actually. I watched Patch Adams movie, with Robin Williams, last night and it made me to think about him little bit. Everyone knows who Robin Williams was and that, despite his suffering and fighting depression due to his Parkinson's disease, he still had time and power to make people laugh or even smile till his last days. In one movie scene his girlfriend, who didn't know that he was in the mental hospital and was little bit shocked, asked him: "How did you survive in mental hospital and how much doctors helped you to survive?" He said: "No, not the doctors, the other patients there helped me to survive. There were few of them who required care and that's what I did, I tried to help them, because I realized if I occupy myself with their problems I forget about mine." If you never saw 'Patch Adams' I think you should, just in memory of Robin Williams if nothing else. The movie raised some great points when it comes about medicine overall. I think that movie was his help call when it comes about his own disease. I think also that he wanted to be treated the same way he treated the others around him which is also reasonable thing to do.Anyway, the point is, I think that everyone's actions during their lives reflects their life after death which is obvious, right? To answer your prompt now I won't say that I want to be remembered by kindness or that I was terrible person. I hope you will remember me for the way I treated each and every one of you separately. ~~BLOG CITY- Groucho Marx was known for his witty commentary, one of my favorites is "Die, my dear? Why, that's the last thing I'll do." What's the last thing you'll do? Have you stepped out of your comfort zone lately? Tell us about it. One of the quotes from the movie 'Patch Adams'- Hunter Patch Adams: [mis-remembering Fred's name] Hey, how are you feeling, Frank? You feel better? Fred Jarvis: Yeah, pretty good. Hunter Patch Adams: [referring to a Marx Brothers movie Fred is watching] Well, keep on your medication. You can never go wrong if you're a Marxist. Some people treat death different than the others. You know when someone is living his last breath he suddenly want redemption for all his life? I think that people should think about their actions while they are still vital and more alive. And at the end why we all treat death the same way, like we are all afraid of it? Why can't we treat it little bit different- as a salvation, dignity or even humour like Marx here? I would probably say the same things like in BCOF prompt here- your actions in this life reflects who you are and who you were actually. The last thing I would do is I will die, as everyone else of course, there is no more than that in this life probably (I don't think that anyone can die and resurrect anymore). However, I am not sure under which conditions I will die and what can happen till then. I never thought of my last words as well just because of that. But, now when we're on this theme already my last words would be: fuck you, I was worth it. I am sure that some people will relate to them. I'm sharing a link with you now about 35 Serial Killers and Their Creepy Last Words . Life is what we make out of it so, why don't make a good one? |
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But I would've been too embarrassed. 
I love this sentiment and this look into your mom and your own past. I bet it's crazy to have that money and means now not to limit yourself when you on in a store and I can see your mom grabbing what she pleases because she can. Having such a choke hold on your finances for necessity can make it a breath breathed to do what you want. Thank you for sharing this with us and I agree with 
