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by Emily
Rated: 18+ · Book · Personal · #2166092
A blog to house my musings, curiosities, and fascinations.
When it came time for me to start blogging again, I found myself paralyzed. I was trapped by the belief that my blog had to be unique, that it had to have a defined theme, and that it had to be appealing to everyone. After some time scouring Google for advice, I realized that if all I did was worry and plan, I would spend forever worrying and planning and never get to writing.

From that realization, I've decided to display my blog writing guidelines here for everyone to see, but especially for me to see when I come here to write.

~1~
Blog about what is appealing to YOU.
Don't worry about anyone else.


~2~
Allow yourself to WRITE!
Don't restrain yourself to one voice, one writing style, one genre, or one topic area.


~3~
Throw out the fear of maintaining a consistent theme.
Blog about your passions, interests, fancies, inspirations, opinions, musings, curiosities, ramblings, and loves.


~4~
Explore, experiment, and have fun!


So, this is my solution. A blog about anything and everything that sparks my interest. *BigSmile*

The title is inspired by the quote at the bottom of this introduction. Everything you love, even for a short time, becomes part of you. Our experiences and perception of the world is colored by those things we love and have loved, whether those things are *Paw* or not. This blog will be a place to house those passions and curiosities. Please enjoy!


In memory - 8/15/2017

"It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them, and every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are."
-Anonymous


Merit Badge in Aloha
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Only the most selfless, dedicated person would come up with an idea like an Aloha MB. But then, from all those  things you do on WDC and we know you're doing out in the world, it's what we should have known you'd do. You've always been working to make things better and help people, animals, and places. Maybe the badge should have your picture so everyone knows a real example of Aloha.


Cover image by Jessica Woulfe
February 26, 2019 at 4:50pm
February 26, 2019 at 4:50pm
#953220
Discuss some victories you’ve had this month, no matter how big or small. What are some goals you have going into March?

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What a perfect prompt! *Bigsmile* The last two months I’ve done a bit of a blog post about goals for the next month, and it has worked fairly well for me, so I might as well tie it in to this prompt and do it again! *Proud*

Victories, let’s see. February was a solid month for me, nothing too crazy stressful which was nice. I felt underproductive at work, but then a coworker I disliked got fired, so that was a breath of fresh air. *Laugh* Writing wise, I kept at it with 26 reviews, 3 new poems, and 1 new non-fiction essay. I also created two new fun games I’ve never done before on this site, even after all these years: 1 crossword and 1 word search. It was also my first time challenging myself to do the "Invalid Item tasks, and (after this entry) I’ll have done 20! Woohoo! I consider that an accomplishment *Smile* From the task prompts, I wrote 6 blog posts which I am quite proud of and might work to expand in the future (especially the one about public speaking and the one that is currently secured behind a passcode about crimes committed by the mentally ill). I liked the feeling of blogging to prompts again. I get so stressed having to give the prompts for the "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS that I don’t like also writing for them *Pthb* The prompts for the "Invalid Item though were really thought-provoking. *Thumbsupl* I read 6 books and wrote reviews for them, kept up with my "WdC SuperPower Reviewers Group guardian duties, and my sleep tracking over at the "Habit Heroes as well.

Writings:
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Vestiges of Life  (13+)
The unexpected vibrancy of color in winter - Includes Reading
#2182074 by Emily

 
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Kona Coffee  (E)
Coffee begins not in the bag, but in the belly of the earth
#2182207 by Emily

 
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The Symptoms of Repression  (ASR)
How do repressed emotions affect the emergence of mental health symptoms?
#2182897 by Emily

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Follow Me to the Horizon  (ASR)
Follow me through the curtain, to the place where water cascades over the edge.
#2182980 by Emily


Fun Stuff:
 
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Kona Coffee Crossword  (E)
Take a sip and relax with some warm coffee from my home to yours
#2182171 by Emily

SEARCH
It's a Journey  (18+)
Sometimes you find yourself desperately searching for the right words
#2183567 by Emily


As for goals, pretty similar to last month. I’m going to try to get more MHWA tasks done and go a little easier on the contests:

Review:
15 for "Anniversary Reviews:
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12 for "SuperTower Review Room MB Rewards:
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Read:
For "CLOSED!The Monthly Reading Challenge and "Invalid Item
*Boxcheck* "The Nature Principle” by Richard Louv
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "The Nature Principle: Reconnecting with Life in a Virtual Age"  
*Boxcheck* "The Universe in a Nutshell" by Stephen Hawking
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "The Universe in a Nutshell"  
*Boxcheck* "The Fact of a Body" by Alexandria Marzano-Lesnevich
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "The Fact of a Body: A Murder and a Memoir"  
*Boxcheck* "Why is the Penis Shaped Like That?" by Jesse Bering
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "Why Is the Penis Shaped Like That?: And Other Reflections on Being Human by Jesse Bering (2012-07-03)"  
*Boxcheck* "She has her Mother's Laugh" by Carl Zimmer
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "She Has Her Mother's Laugh: The Powers, Perversions, and Potential of Heredity"  

Mental Health Writer’s Alliance Challenge: (do at least 20 Tasks)
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Enter Contests:
*Boxcheck* "Verdant Poetry Contest - On Hiatus for "The Contest Challenge
*Boxcheck* "Rebel Poetry Contest
*Boxcheck* March "a very Wodehouse challenge
         *Boxcheck* Research and write blog or static <1000 words about "The Age of Enlightenment."
         *Boxcheck* Select one figure from each of the following eras: Pre-Socratic, Medieval, Renaissance, Modern, and Contemporary. Give summaries (<500 words each) on their contributions to Enlightenment.
         *Boxcheck* Write a story (<1000 words) or poem (<21 lines) that deals with enlightenment of some kind.
*Boxcheck* "The Prompt Me Contest
*Boxcheck* "SugarCube's Monthly Random Contest!!
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*Boxcheck* "Haiku Hunt Contest

Continue Regular Commitments:
*Boxcheck* Normal review crediting for "WdC SuperPower Reviewers Group
*Boxcheck* Sleep and update "Habit Heroes every morning
*Boxcheck* General administration, prompting, and judging for the "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS

See you in March! Take care,
Emily
February 23, 2019 at 1:56pm
February 23, 2019 at 1:56pm
#952963
An estimated 75% of people have glossophobia, which is a fear of public speaking. How comfortable are you speaking in public? Have you ever been in situations where you were forced to do public speaking? How did it go?

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Oooh, public speaking. If you had asked me this question just 3 or 4 years ago, I would have probably said it was my greatest fear. Now it ranks much lower on the fear scale, somewhere around nervous, but manageable. Let's see how I got here, shall we? *Bigsmile*

I was totally a shy kid. In grade school, I was taller and heavier than everyone in my class, which made me feel absolutely colossal. There's a picture of me at age 10 or so lined up next to two of my classmates when we received our "Perfect Attendance" certificates and I am a full head and a half taller than the boy on my left, and two heads taller than the girl on my right. A giant. Obese, I thought, even at that young age. There was a time in physical education class where we lined up and had to weigh ourselves one at a time and then tell the teacher out loud what the scale read. I was in the 5th grade, I think, and I weighed more than every other girl by a long shot, more than every boy, and as much as what everyone considered the "fat kid." (Michael was his name. I remember because in my shame I felt the need to tease him: "Michael, Michael, motorcycle!" It is foolish and nonsensical, something I'm ashamed of looking back, but at that time, I needed to do anything that would direct attention away from my massive, white, whale body.)

At the time, I could not understand this, but I was bigger than everyone in my class because I was Scandinavian. In Hawaii where I went to school, my classmates were Asian, Hawaiian, Portuguese, Filipino, and other pacific islander ethnicities. I was a different genetic make-up, which made me physically different from my classmates through no fault of my own. At that time, I did not understand this in the least, resulting in my thinking I was fat, fat, fat. On top of that, my eyesight was horrific so I wore thick glasses, and my teeth were a jumble, so I got braces early and wore them for nearly 4 years. My appearance screamed black sheep and did NOT fit in. All together, these insecurities with my appearance made speaking in public a nightmare. I wanted to sink into nothing, be nothing. I wanted to hide, and that feeling continues to persist to this day. I am overly aware of the space I take up and how to move so I don't accidentally knock into someone else or get in their personal space. But lest we get off-topic, let's get back to the topic of this post: public speaking.

My insecurities as a kid contributed to my fear of being in front of other people. It was not just public speaking, but I was afraid of doing anything where other people would be watching me or where I would draw unnecessary attention to myself: playing sports, raising my hand in class, walking across the stage to accept an award, coughing in a public place, going to the bathroom when other people could hear me. This fear nestled deep in my subconscious, and it's been hard to shake. But I did start off this entry by saying that public speaking is something I'm not as afraid of now as I was in the past, so how did that happen?

I still felt the fear of being the center of attention through most of college, but I think after I presented my final honors thesis in front of all the other Bio majors, it was the last hurdle and the time I finally let go of some of the fear I had held onto for so long. The way I said that might make you think my presentation was phenomenal, but the reality was that it was not. I had spent months and months preparing my presentation, my powerpoint, my speech, my outfit, but when I got to the podium to begin, all of my slides were fucked up (something to do with the moderator transferring them onto his computer from my flash drive). At that point, there was nothing I could do, so I gave the presentation I had practiced so long for, accompanied by the slides I knew looked horrible, and when it was over, everyone clapped just the same as they would have if everything was perfect, I received an A grade, and then it was over. In that moment, I recognized how pointless it was to harbor all that stress over presenting when things will go wrong anyway. That's something that has stuck with me ever since.

I speak in public all the time now for work. Less formal presentations, but a lot of presenting in meetings, giving lessons for students, and staffing booths at events where I speak with the public. I still feel the nerves, but those are normal and natural and a strong motivator to do a good job. But I am no longer petrified of speaking in public or being the center of attention. This might also have to do with the fact that I have grown into my body and am more adult in carrying myself. Part of that too is realizing that everyone is more concerned with how they look than with how you look.

I think the moral of the story is that public speaking is about having just the right dose of nerves to motivate your performance, mixed with the acknowledgement that no one, including yourself, is perfect. Mistakes happen, and that's okay - they're what make us human.
February 21, 2019 at 11:40am
February 21, 2019 at 11:40am
#952640
Do you think or notice that getting older has an effect on mental illness?

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This is an interesting question that I don’t think I’ve ever considered. Perhaps because I have not yet experienced most of my life, the component of age hasn’t been much of a consideration. That said, I am beginning to mentally transition from a “young adult” to just a normal adult, so there are more responsibilities that I am now taking on. I think that’s where my mind is going with this entry, so let’s pursue it!

Responsibilities change as we get older. Becoming an adult means more responsibilities related to finances, a home, a car, a career, children, aging parents/grandparents, and more. Our lives progressively become more and more about providing for other people over ourselves. You may take on the responsibility of loving someone else, loving an animal, working a job, caring for a home and children, which will leave less time for caring for yourself. I am a big proponent of self-care, whatever that means to you. I am an introvert, so self-care to me means curling up alone with music, my writing, a book, and the dog curled nearby. I need this time to keep myself sane, but as we age and take on more responsibility, the time available for self-care becomes more limited.

However, I will say that as we age, we also build our support system. I mentioned intimate relationships, pets, and children as “responsibilities,” but they are also (of course) things we love and when the relationships are healthy, they help our mental state.

Another side of this though is that as we’ve grown up, we’ve also learned how to deal with more things because we’ve experienced more things. We understand that life has high points and low points, but the train will keep moving so long as we don’t jump off and the view is bound to change around the next bend. We have a longer history to compare our current hardships with. Young people, especially teenagers, get more agitated when confronted by something difficult because they do not have the life experience to see the end of the tunnel. This does affect their mental state, so in that way, age may alleviate some of those stressors, but then of course, others rise to take their place.

So far, I’ve only talked about the transition from youth to adulthood (because this is my only experience so far), but on the other end of the spectrum, there is aging into middle age and eventually old age. There are a whole suite of new stressors associated with this aging in our latter years including fears of retirement, an aging body, the compounded stresses of your children’s lives, and eminent death.

I apologize for the “all over the place” entry. I think this topic itself is “all over the place” because there are so many different angles it could be discussed from. The stresses through our lives change, and thus our mental state is affected differently throughout our aging. People deal with different stresses differently, so where someone’s mental health may be more affected by the stresses in youth, another may be more affected by the stresses that accompany old age. Our path through life is never exactly the same as anyone else’s, so I think the answer of whether age affects mental health will depend on the person.

February 18, 2019 at 9:38am
February 18, 2019 at 9:38am
#952343
Recent studies have shown that your brain can form good habits through repetitive actions, whether or not you derive any satisfaction from the actions. Do you think you can form good habits such as eating healthy or exercising simply by repeatedly doing the action? Do you have any experience with forming habits this way? Are there any other methods of forming good habits that you’ve tried?

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I have heard this habit-forming technique several times before. "Fake it 'til you make it," right? And I think there is a lot of truth in it actually. It's a bit like muscle memory - doing something regularly will improve your skill at it and it will become easier and easier over time, eventually becoming a habit. There are some things, like exercising or writing, where our proficiency will increase the more you do them. Often, these are habits that are harder to start forming because we feel incompetent at doing them or embarrassed, which dissuades us from trying in the first place. Then there are other things, like eating healthy or brushing your teeth, where it isn't so much about improving your skill as about feeling and seeing the positive results.

"Do you think you can form good habits ... simply by repeatedly doing the action?" Yes, and no. I think to say "repeatedly doing the action" is not exactly specific enough. If I exercised repeatedly throughout the day/week/month on a whim without purpose, I do not think this would form a habit. I think the repetition needs to be done in a deliberate way. Perhaps the most important elements of forming a habit through repeated action are intention and timing. Knowing why you are doing an action, and doing it at a specific time of day is hugely important in forming that habit. In the beginning, you need to consciously think about repeating the action, but if the goal is for that action to become a habit, it needs to eventually be automatic. And the quickest way to make an action automatic is to trigger it with something external, such as the time of day. Rather than "exercising every day," decide instead to "exercise every morning." Rather than "write a poem once a week," find a time you are more creative and productive and say "write for one hour every Sunday night," for example.

Another hard part about forming a habit is that we often feel like we don't have enough time in our day to add anything else. This makes it really difficult to carve out time for a new habit, especially something that takes time like exercising or writing. If we are not intentional about setting aside time for our new habits, they will likely be pushed to the side very quickly. Tell your family and friends about your goal to form a new habit and block off that time on your calendar. You may also need to compromise a bit to find more time in your day to keep doing the things you want to do as well as add a new habit. Personally, I love to read and it is important for me to continue reading. However, sitting down to read a paper book makes me feel like I am wasting so much time that could be used doing other things. This may be because I'm a relatively slow reader and I need complete silence to read, so the appropriate conditions are rarely met. Now, what I have started doing is listening to audiobooks instead. I can read AND do other things! I can read and drive, read and clean, read and do laundry, read and cook, read and exercise. It's been revolutionary in my life! *HappyCry* By doing this, I feel like I have more time in my day, but I really haven't lost anything, AND I'm reading more than I was before. You may be able to find a similar way to carve out time in your day to add your new habit as well as continue doing the things that you love.

Finally, if you don't find joy in doing your habit at first (most common examples are eating healthy and exercising), give yourself time to ease into it. There is no reason to push yourself full force in the beginning because then you will learn to dread the time you set aside for your habit and it is more likely to be abandoned. Go slow at first. Maybe only 10 minutes exercising instead of a full 30. Maybe start your diet by adding a salad to your normal meal or alternating "normal" and "healthy" eating days. To help you learn to love your new habit, you may also be able to pair it with something you already love. If you love cooking, learn new recipes for your new healthy eating habit. If you like music, listen while you're exercising.

To break it down, here are the strategies I mentioned in this entry and have worked for me when forming new habits:

         1. Be deliberate in your intention
         2. Trigger your habits with a specific time of day
         3. Set aside designated time for your new habit
         4. Build up slowly to avoid burnout
         5. Pair your habit with something you already enjoy




By the way, I spelled exercising so many times in this entry that I finally trained myself to spell it right on the first try! Woop woop! Habit forming right there! *Proud*
February 17, 2019 at 3:57pm
February 17, 2019 at 3:57pm
#952230
I’m currently reading Reasons to Stay Alive by Matt Haig, which is a nonfiction memoir about the author’s struggle with depression.

Tell us about some of your favorite nonfiction mental health books. Have you ever thought about writing a nonfiction mental health memoir yourself? Why or why not?


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When I saw this prompt, I knew immediately the book I wanted to write about. I've been pouring myself into audiobooks recently, and this particular book is one that simply blew my socks off. I was not expecting to relate so much to the author, but her story is as real as it gets. She doesn't claim to be anything more than she is. She is imperfect, and that's ok. I wrote a more general book review linked here, but I'll take some time now to delve a little deeper into my thoughts on Hope Jahren's book, Lab Girl.

Lab Girl: A Memoir   (Rated: 18+)
ASIN: 1101873728
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Product Type: Book
Reviewer: Emily
Review Rated: E
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Amazon's Price: $ 9.99


I assume you clicked over to read the review, so I won't repeat the basic premise of the book here again. Jahren's writing style was so engrossing, it was easy to get pulled along by her tale and miss the subtle signs of her anxiety, panic, and manic depression emerging throughout the book. Jahren does a fabulous job telling her story. All of it. All of her joys. All of her fears. All of her accomplishments. And all of her struggles with mental health. At first, she does not directly call out these unhealthy emotions, choosing instead to let the reader feel them for themselves as a part of the complete story. This is not a book about mental health. It is a book about Hope Jahren. The whole of her being, including the parts that wouldn't normally make it into a book about a successful scientist.

I really appreciated how Jahren juxtaposed her analytical and obsessive passion for her work with soil and plants, with her aloof dismissal of her own psychology and the strain she was putting on herself. I related to her easily because she was afraid to seek help for fear of being shunned in the scientific community or further marginalized. Whatever problems she was having would simply have to take a back seat until the grant proposal was written, the spectrometer assembled, the research paper edited, etc. Her dedication to her work was humbling to witness, but so much more was revealed once the reader saw deeper into her pained psyche.

In addition to her wholehearted dedication to her work, I also related to Jahren for her distinct fears stemming from her gender. She was a young female scientist in a predominantly mans field. Her constant need to prove herself extended beyond her lab and into everything she did. Even when she was finally ready to start a family, she was plagued by the doubt of whether she would be a good mother. Would she be able to ever love her son as much as he deserved to be loved? Her recount of giving birth is one of the most personal and honest pieces of writing I have ever read. This is not a book full of happiness and rainbows. This is real life where things are messy. Things go wrong. And people make mistakes.

I do also have to comment on the fact that I listened to this as an audiobook where Hope Jahren herself was the narrator. I wouldn't recommend it any other way, to be honest. I do want to read the book again in paper form, but hearing it straight from the author's mouth is unlike anything. I also noticed that Matt Haig narrated the audiobook of his book as well, so I've put that on my list. I think I would probably listen to any memoir read by the author because it feels so much more intimate and personal to me. I could tell, for example, when Jahren was struggling to read the words she had written and even started tearing up. Absolutely gripping. Highly recommend. I'm excited to hear Haig tell his story.

If I were to one day write a memoir of my life, it would include elements of my mental health, but I don't believe I'm anywhere near the point in my life where I want or need to write that book. I have a lot more growth left to do and a lot more life to live. I don't know what mental health struggles are in my future, but reading the accomplishments of Jahren and her candid attitude about her mental health showed me that if and when I'm ready to write my own memoir, I'll be able to follow her lead and showcase how my mental health is a part of my life, not a director of it.
February 16, 2019 at 3:00pm
February 16, 2019 at 3:00pm
#952134
How do your surroundings affect your mental health? Does a clean or well-decorated home improve your mood at all? Are there any specific decorations in your home that lift your spirits?

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Soooooo … sorry in advance for the stupidly domestic post *Laugh*

I am neither a very neat person nor a very messy person. I tend to let items accumulate or get stacked up, but I mostly always know where things are and can find them easily enough. I do get frustrated though when I can’t find something of mine when I thought I knew where it was. Maybe this is something to do with having a younger sister growing up and needing to be very possessive with my belongings. I’ve lived with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years now, and while I’m very thankful he does our laundry sometimes or puts things away in the kitchen (bless him), I get annoyed when something I use often is not returned to the place where I would have put it. I’ve become used to living alone, so I always knew where my things were. Not to mention that I’ve never had a lot of things to keep track of moving back and forth to Hawaii, but now that I’m “settling down,” I’ve had more time to accumulate more things and evidently lose track of more things.

Bf can tolerate a little more clutter than I can, and I can tolerate a little more dirt/dust than he can. It’s funny when we clean because he tends to do the sweeping, dusting, wiping, vacuuming, etc, while I tend to do the tidying up and putting clutter back where it belongs. Of course, it always happens that it’s mostly his things adding to the clutter, so I get frustrated by not knowing where to put them, knowing how upset I would get if he put my things away in places they didn’t go. So instead, we’re trying to be a good couple by switching cleaning priorities to satisfy the other person’s needs. Therefore, I do the dirt cleaning while he does the clutter cleaning. Any clutter of mine that he finds goes on my side of the bed so I can put it away myself, which works for me. However, all of his clutter he cleans up just ends up going in a random drawer or the back of the closet. *Laugh* He calls the drawers filled with random stuff his “time capsules.” Ugh … well, at least the clutter is off the counter *Wink*

Now, about these “time capsules” … It’s starting to get a bit too much for me. *Pthb* I get in these moods where I want to clean them out and donate everything or just throw it away, but I need his help to determine what is valuable to him and what isn’t. It doesn’t help that I moved into his house, so he had already been accumulating stuff before I was there and has a lot more of it. He had to build a shed for his shed since there wasn’t enough room in the first shed … Okay, point is (and I’m trying to get back to the prompt here) that clutter irks me. I get frustrated when I can’t find my stuff and when the clutter makes the house feel cramped. I get claustrophobic and have to watch something soothing like “Hoarders” to see someone else purge their stuff. I think I subconsciously feel that the space in which I live is a representation of my mind and the messiness in my house is mirrored in my mind. Cleaning up the clutter is a mental purge as well as a physical one and helps me feel calm.

I think my plan, that I just came up with right now, is to force the bf to do a spring cleaning with me. It will be too overwhelming to do the whole house at once, so we will focus on one room at a time. I’ll get out big bags for trash and donatables and we’ll work our way through the house and through every single time capsule. Like in the book The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, we will ask about each item: “Does it bring me joy?” If not, it goes away. The closet and bedroom are the most important to me, so we’ll probably start there. *Smile*

TLDR: For a short answer to the prompt – My surroundings, especially clutter in my house, 100% does affect my mental health as if my living space is a physical representation of my mental state. Purging clutter is cathartic. It’s not so much about the décor for me as about the accumulation of “stuff.”
February 1, 2019 at 10:56am
February 1, 2019 at 10:56am
#950895
Happy February 1st! We’ve made it through the first month of the 2019! *Bigsmile*

I had a surprisingly successful start to 2019 with regards to my writing. Before I left on my hiatus from WDC, I had been feeling a little stifled, and I wasn’t quite sure why. I’d been struggling with one story and trying to mold it into something, but it just wasn’t working for me. On WDC, I was trolling the Newsfeed, playing around on some forums, but not writing anything. My muse wasn’t fulfilled, and I felt like a writer who couldn’t write. So, when I did finally come back to WDC last August, I knew something had to change. I started slow, but then took on (and won) by first ever Nano, which really lit a fire under my ass. I was able to write something other than dry academic papers for school or reports for work. My creativity felt rejuvenated, and I was eager to keep writing after November. And the start of the new year was the perfect opportunity.

In January I wrote 14 reviews, read and wrote product reviews of 3 books, completed one "a very Wodehouse challenge, entered "The Prompt Me Contest twice and won once ("Emily's "Prompt Me Contest" Entries), entered "Invalid Item once with "We Live As Snails, entered "Invalid Item once, reached Super Achiever status in the "Habit Heroes , fulfilled my review crediting duties for the "WdC SuperPower Reviewers Group, and administered the official month of the "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS. In addition, I surprised myself by writing three new pieces and entering them in contests:

On January 8th, I entered the "Plot Support - Results announced! with my short story "The Winning Color. To my surprise, it was awarded the Grand Prize and featured in the "For Authors Newsletter (January 23, 2019).

On January 17th, I entered "SugarCube's Monthly Random Contest!! with my poem "Anxiety where it won first place!

And on January 21st, I entered "Invalid Item with my poem "Red Wing and just found out this morning that it won as well. *Blush*

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The Winning Color  (ASR)
A defeated Queen attempts to bring a victory to her troops
#2179314 by Emily

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Anxiety  (18+)
Normal is sleepless nights, caffeine jitters, and a speeding heart ...
#2180075 by Emily

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Red Wing  (ASR)
Finding comfort in a solitary connection with nature. - Includes Reading
#2180434 by Emily


Umm, holy cow *Cow*. What?! I’m honestly dumbfounded. *Laugh* Extremely thankful and appreciative, but dumbfounded! I haven’t written anything for like 5 years! This must be beginner’s luck, surely. But I’m ready to keep going in February and beyond! *Star*

I think my checklist last month really helped me stay on track and be productive, even though I didn’t get everything done. I did like seeing the check boxes fill up though, so I think I’ll do the same thing again! Monthly goals seem to be just the length of time I like to think about. Yearly goals are too long and end up being procrastinated, while my weeks are too variable for weekly goals to be much use. So, monthly goals it is! Here are mine for February:

Review:
15 for "Anniversary Reviews:
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12 for "SuperTower Review Room MB Rewards:
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Read:
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*Boxcheck* "I've Got My Eyes On You" by Mary Higgins Clark
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "I've Got My Eyes on You"  
*Boxcheck* "Lab Girl" by Hope Jahren
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "Lab Girl"  
*Boxcheck* "The Sixth Extinction" by Elizabeth Kolbert
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "The Sixth Extinction: An Unnatural History"  
*Boxcheck* "Let's Explore Diabetes with Owls" by David Sedaris
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "Let's Explore Diabetes With Owls by Sedaris, David (2013) Paperback"  
*Boxcheck* "Inside of a Dog" by Alexandra Horowitz
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "Inside of a Dog: What Dogs See, Smell, and Know"  
*Boxcheck* "When You Are Engulfed in Flames" by David Sedaris
         *Boxcheck* Product Review: "When You Are Engulfed in Flames"  

Mental Health Writer’s Alliance Challenge: (do at least 20 Tasks)
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Enter Contests:
*Boxcheck* "The Taboo Words Contest ~ On Hiatus for "The Contest Challenge
*Boxcheck* "WDC Photo Contest "Something Wintry"
*Boxcheck* February "a very Wodehouse challenge
         *Boxcheck* Create a word search of 25 coffee-related words and post it the link in the newsfeed.
         *Boxcheck* Review 3 coffee-related items.
         *Boxcheck* Write a poem (12+ lines) about coffee or my favorite beverage.
         *Boxcheck* Purchase a raffle ticket for a Newbie and introduce myself.
         *Boxcheck* Perform one “random act of kindness” for a WDC member.
*Boxcheck**Box**Box* "The Prompt Me Contest at least 3 times
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*Boxcheck* "SugarCube's Monthly Random Contest!! at least once

Continue Regular Commitments:
*Boxcheck* Host February 14th Raid for "WdC SuperPower Reviewers Group
*Boxcheck* February 15-17th review crediting for "WdC SuperPower Reviewers Group
*Boxcheck* February 21-23rd review crediting for "WdC SuperPower Reviewers Group
*Box* Sleep and update "Habit Heroes every morning: "Emily - February Tracking"  

See you around! *Heart*
-Emily



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