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Sigh! Here is me! Enjoy! The blog will contain anything and everything on my mind at the very moment I am writing. Note: You may not like or agree with the things I write.. You have a right to your opinions as I have a right to my own. I do expect that others have a very different point of view than I do. Please feel free to leave comments. |
| There is nothing about Big Brother that was unexpected Jenn was voted out tonight and Beau became HOH this week. What that leads to is that the other faction, The Fabulous group will have a member voted out this Thursday. The game is so predictable at this stage. I have a feeling that Janelle will be targeted this week as she is hated by Beau's faction, the Friendship. I have a feeling that the may put up James or maybe Howie as the other person. Or better yet they should put up James and Howie or Rachel as the pawns and then put Janelle up after the veto competition and ceremony. In doing that they could assure themselves that Janelle will get voted out this next Thursday. I am not sure that Beau is that smart though. He seems to need his Frienship to lean on to think for him. I really do hope that Janelle does not leave but I think she is a plant or mole and will have to leave soon. I think that if she is a plant though she is going to be despised by not only those who are playing but those in the house as well. OK, so that is enough for now. I need to go see what is happening, if anything, in the BB house. |
| I wonder...Is Janelle a planted player in the Big brother 6 Game! -- She should have lost tonights Head of Household game as she originally wrote down 300 bulbs on the card in the game as being her answer of the question: How many lightbulbs were used to spell out 'sold out' in the luxury competition? Then when she was told that the card was upside down she quickly flipped over the card and changed her answer to 275.. Hmm..that gave her the HOH title for the next three days or until Saturday evening. I really could imagine Big Brother doing something like that as she does look like a model and whatnot. I also would have sworn she was voted out this time around but then again who really knows but CBS and the producers etctera of the show. |
| Ack! I need some readers. I do not want to have to tame my blog down just to get others to read this damn blog. I will try to put it in my portfolio's highligthed items area so that others can see it right away when they open my port. I am really looking forward to seeing who gets evicted on Big Brother tonight. Will it be Janelle or Kaysar? Or will there be another twist to the game? I wish that somehow Jen would have to go home or get sequestered but I think that is nearly impossible the way the game is played she is sfe this week but next week is another story as she is very much disliked in the house and around America. God, I don't know who I would rather have stay but I think Janelle plays a better game and could fool the house by winning in the end. We shall see. Later tonight if I feel like writing more. |
| I'm talking of James's face on Big Brother at the veto meeting when Kaysar was put on the chopping block. James expected as everyone in the house expected James to be put up but Jen was her evil self and did the unexpected in terms of the houses wishes. She is a wench. Sigh more to come. I cannot wait until tomorrow evening. |
| Haha! That is right I said get a life to me and all the others that have sat around their computers begging for more damn information and secrets that we had hoped for in getting the live feed for Big Brother 6. I am so needing of a more eventful life that it is funny. I do know some secrets one of which I told you about the other day...Rachel got the power of veto. Well, today they had the meeting and Rachel took herself off and Jenn put Kaysar up or so the talk goes. The chat rooms are filled with those that believe that it is unfair and they will stop watching Big Brother if Kaysar gets evicted. All I can say is he bit himself in the bum by believing in Jenn in the first place. He should have made the deal with Jenn and he would have been HOH this last week. He fucking deserves to be kicked out if he thought that they would keep him in if he was not to get HOH. They already voted him out once. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Now for something about me personally. I got a new monitor today because mine finally blew chunks. My husband did not want to believe me at first -- like all men. Well, again I was right because he went and got a new monitor and it now works. hahahaha. Now give me a god damn night I will never forget...please? (I plead!) |
| I can't get enough even when I think I have I am still hungry for more. I am getting a free trial of the live feed and such and thus I know things that the rest of you do not like the HOH- is Jenn and The veto was probably won by Rachel. The HOH competition went for almost fourteen hours and the last two standing were Kaysatr and Jenn. Why Kaysar gave in is clueless to me. I really thought Kaysar was smarter than that. I do wish someone would put Ivette on the damn chopping block as I cannot take her fucking voice any longer. Then go towards Jenn and April as I think they are smarter than anyone thinks they are and are flying under the radar but what do I know, hehe. In the end I would like to see Kaysar and James because I may hate James personally and morally but he plays the game well. I believe Kaysar got unfairly targetted the week before. OK, so that is what I know or think I know for now. More to come after I watch tonights episode of Big Brother. |
| Last night my three-year-old daughter was great but tonight it is a different story as her brother is home from his sleep over at a friend's house that he was on last night. Boy it makes me think that maybe getting my son to skip a few grades might be a great idea. Of course I am kidding. He is rather smart though but we are still having to work on his attitude and a lack of acting his age. I am hoping with the fact that we are done adding to the family in terms of human members that he will be able to settle down a whole lot. He is nine and I really want him to act his age not like the seven-year-old that he does now. For now though I will just enjoy not know what mood my daughter will ber in from second to second. Usually it all depends on the moods of my other two kids but that is not unusual it is just rather frustrating. |
| There are times like today if I really fit in here, at writing.com. I would do better if I just hid in a corner and simply fell into the ether and did my writing and stayed with that rather than trying to be a damn community member. I realize now why I am scared to even go out of my house. This is so fucked I know but communities suck the big one. There is nothing I can say or any one person can say to make me believe otherwise. I have always been an outcast and will always be an outcast and I guess that is just how the hell it is going to be. Heck I always liked nerds, I married a nerd although a very different type of nerd as he liked industrial and grunge music when I met him and now listens to acid jazz but he is a nerd needless to say. He always has his head in a book but wears t-shirts and no pocket protectors. So if you do not see me for a very long time on scroll or elsewhere know that I am truly okay I just need time to re-find myself and be who I am and feel comfortable being. I have a quiet personal life that is important to me and I know who loves me and those closest to mew mean more than full membership into this community ever has been. I will thus fade off into the moonlight and drift into my true self. If you want to get to know me better come to my port and take a look at my various writings and come to my blog often. Trust me as I sign off today saying that I am better of alone in my thoughts. I will be ok I just need a chance to find who I am and thus maybe get something done beyond trying to become someone I already know I am not. I am a vulgar daughter of a son of a bitch...Think about that for a second and you will understand that I am talking about my Dad being the son of my grandmother the bitch. Goo night all and be careful with this post and please don't take it to mean I am mad at anyone in particular. I am more mad at me trying to fit into a crowd I never want to join in the first place, where I am is fine and dandy with me, thank you. |
| My three-year-old daughter is now starting power struggles with her Daddy that I have to step in the middle and seperate the two of them for periods at a time. I have a feeling she is trying to figure out where she fits in as a middle child. I can sort of understand because even though I was the youngest child in my family I always felt like I was like the black sheep that nobody knew what to do with because I had a strong willed temperament. I often felt that I did not get the attention I needed and wanted from my Mom until my sister married when I was almost sixteen-years-old. Before then I felt my Mom liked my sister more then me and shuffled me off to the side, of course she feels otherwise because of all the time she had to spend taking me to physical and occupational therapy and doctors' appointments for my disability, cerebral palsy. The thing that about it was that I thought of this as a mandatory thing that was no fun and spent very little time just us two together. Anyway, my husband and daughter have fought and fought and it comes a time in which I cannot take it any longer. I know she is looking for attention from him especially with the new baby sister in the house. I may have to get my husband to spend more time with his daughter and less time with his baby daughter. Sigh, my life is chaotic. Would you like to step in my shoes for awhile? |
| Well it was a nightmare for my husband and I that is for sure. Our three-year-old decided to get up and find the black shapie permanent marker and write all over herself and on my mousepad and mouse. The clean up was even more of a disaster as it does not come off so she is still black and the mouse and mousepad are permanently blackened. Of course this is not the first time she has destroyed a mousepad as she distroyed my last writing.com mousepad in the same way. I guess the good news is that I do not have to worry about getting my pad dirty anymore because it is no longer white. I think my husband is right in jokingly calling her (and the other two children) his pet devil. She certainly does have a falling halo and a torn wing. She is also now dressed in black, so to speak. Sigh, I love her dearly but I think she is trying to give me a heart attack. |
| Oh my fucking god it is hurting badly. I feel a need to lay down before I scream bloody murder. I think I am going to make my husband take care of the two awake kids. It is not that I hate my husband I am just enjoying my husban while he is home. I only have him for another two weeks and then school starts again for him. My son starts school on MondaY the fifteenth of August. I am really looking forward to that day. A week after my son starts schoo I will start potty training my three-year-old as I am hoping it will be easier if it is only myself and the two girls. |
| Geesh and I thought my words were tame until I tried to talk on scroll last night and a couple days ago. All I used were darn and heck and my head got bit off by a couple scrollies that were there. Oh well I am bad and thus I am sticking to bots and IM messages. Sorry to those who I like to talk to but I do not feel my wording is safe enough to be on scroll these days. My husband thinks that this is hilarious and wants me to go into scroll and say dagnamit as a joke but luckily he was only joking as I have a fear that my priviledge to talk would be taken away. God damn freaked out scrollers need a life. There are some that need more to do in their life than sit on scroll all day long waiting for someone to screw up. Enough ranting! |
| My husband bought us a digital camera this evening. I have been having fun with it but don't expect them to be published here or in my port here at writing.com because if I do put them on my port they will be private and only my friends and family will get the passkey to see them. I believe my children should not be stapled across the internet for all to see, especially while they are young. There are too many predators online for me to feel safe. I love my family dearly and I want to keep them as safe as possible. |
| Not really but the thought came to me when I brought the blog up on my screen. Of course, I could say I flirt with danger every day as I get on the internet. I never know who I might interact with or even what type of mood I will be in or they will be in. The fact is that we do not truly know the people on the other end neither can we seeif the comment was taken the way we intended it to be received. I personally have a very hard time getting others to take things the way I wish they would online and in real life. I am not sure what it is once though I was told I was curt and abrassve when really all I do is make a joke or pun in regards to something a person is saying or doing. I am who I am and for that I do not want to change or I would not be my true self. Anyway, enough word jumble for tonight. |
| I suggest you answer my convention pirate reviews I received while I was at the convention last week. I think I am a little over half way in answering them. Then again, I am only answering a few per day because too many at once is rather overwhelming for me. If you are a pirate thank you for visiting my port and taking part in the contest. Now, I really need to get back to writing and such. I am trying to develop a new contest
I need to also get back to editing my novel again. I have put it off so many a times as my pregnancy took most of my energy. Now my infant is taking over the time I spent resting. |
| I come home and my kids start ascting up after behaving well for Daddy the whole time I was in the Bethlehem, PA area. Geesh, I was hoping they would be glad I was home and start listening to me -- I was wrong, again. My son is back toi his old self and trying to weasle into doing more of this or that and such. I know he loves me but I wish he would respect me more. I guess this is in preparation for his teenage years. I am ready dang it I need no more tests. Do you hear me Lord? |
| I had a great time at the convention this year and such but I am so glad to be home again. I was gone from my home a week and that was quite enough to be gone from my family. I am finally unpacked, the suitcase is in the garage but the stuff is on my bed. I will get back to my normal, eventually. For right now though I need to recooperate by relaxing. I do miss the friends I made and the friends I had met the previous year though. |
| I am in excessive panic Mode I am going to scream and then not be able to stop. I leave for Oklahoma City tomorrow and then Bethlehem, PA on Tuiesday. I hate the fact that I am a procrastinator but hope that because I am I will get things done better and faster than I normally do. I still have so much to do. I am going to try my hardest to get my auction item done tonight. The bad thing is I am still trying to decide which crochetted afghan to bring. I have two in the almost finished mode but love them both so I hate to rid myself of them. I guess that is partly why I never have sold them. Last years convention auctioned afghan of mine was the first time I have sold one and the first time I have given one away other than to friends and family. I will be doing all my packing late this evening and tomorrow morning. It is better that way or I will get help from my three-year-old which is no fun at all. I will also need to pack a small suitcase for the kids as we will be spending Monday night in Oklahoma City or Norman that night and they will drop me off at the airport on Tuesday where I will meet Viv and Jacque. So much to do so why am I here? |
| The convention nears Great! I am going to have fun -- I know I will. Getting to the point where I can leave the house is going to be the challenge here. I still have shopping to do and then laundry and packing and getting things to a point where I can leave the kids with their Daddy for a whole week. I know I left him with two kids last year but then he had help from the grandparents. This year is different as he has three and no help. The infant is also in need of formula and other necessities that are only for infant care. I hope he gets through the week in one piece. Well, I need to go get dressed and get to Wal-Mart and then get back so I can start other things around the house. |
| The doctor says it is a birthmark or hemangioma and would go away in ten to fifteen years. Great so I must live with it for that long! I just hope that my baby learns to live with it for that length of time and does not obsess over it like I am doing at the moment. The good news is her hair will cover the fact that it is there and maybe she will be able to get through the teenage years without to much trouble and peer pressure or harrassment. I am just glad it is nothing to worry about for now -- unless it bleeds excessively or the like. |
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