The young lady seems rather torn inside, between care and indifference, between anger and happiness, between desire and disgust, between fear of being left and wanting to be alone. Her mood switches from one moment to the next. However although she addresses her unknown lover I think this all about her.

She falls from being content with herself into hating herself as easily as from desire to frigidity. The tension inside can indeed express itself by wanting to be hurt or hurting someone else. When one lost control over oneself one often needs to dominate and sometimes even go farther in order to get back the feeling to be oneself and have control over oneself. Of course it doesn't go to extremes always, but sometimes it does.

While we have the little love-hate driven narcisisst in stanza one the lady I just pictured above dominates the second. In the third and first two lines of the fourth we have the passionate romantic needing contact and passion while in the same stanza she again falls victim to the dark feelings lurking close beneath the surface that make her want to get rid probably of him but more of herself.

Then comes the caring childwoman worrying about his wellbeing. But the last lines in the fifth stanza shows clearly that it is at least partly faked. She doesn't want to be left alone and tries anything to hold him. When she manages that then she also holds herself together. Of course she feeling so is only his fault and she genrously grants him forgiveness when he only follows her seductive command and comes back. Here a control issue basing on insecurity and doubt shines through again.

The first two lines of the last stanza again probably aren't gained so much at him, although she openly scolds him, but more to herself. I guess she's afraid of her own fantasies and desires and to deal better with that and being able to express them she transfers this fear on him because he's such an animal wanting such things from her.

It takes a lot from a guy to live with someone as mental and self-related as her and that he stays as the next-to-last line suggest says a lot about him. He knows her well and takes her as she is with all her flaws she isn't able to recognize and accept of course.

Maybe I only read things into this but when you intended to create this rather multiple-personal mood with the different mental deviances you did well.

Of course we all sometimes are angry about and want to smack or worse our most beloved as sick as it sounds those feelings also underline our connection to them. When we wouldn't truly love them we wouldn't muster the energy for all emotional interaction - not even as extreme as pictured here - towards them and especially our partners. So this was indeed quite a special declaration of love since it came from someone definitely outside societal mainstream.

Strangely enough I found myself in those lines. I'm bipolar and moods come and go, sometimes extreme, sometimes not and worse they could change in no time sometimes. It's hard for people not familiar with it to live with that and I lost already three partners to not being able to deal with it. And I really take great effort into trying to control myself and trying to dampen the disorder as good as I can via meds, sports and other things that keep me stable.

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