My cruse

every one seeks..to know how girls think..and what to say and do to make them yours. To be able to make them fall in love with you..true its a gift. But there is a cruse to it. Knowing how a girl feels..knowing what she wants..being able to make her want you..its nothing but a fantasy? No..i know its not..because i have this gift, with it's cruse. The cruse is bound to you every time..your heart comes out in the open. You start falling for her..she begins to fall for you..and thats when it happens. Her ex..wants her back..or some one else wants her. She then chooses between you..its a war..you cant win. She will either tell you, or she wont say a word..till you find out yourself. This..happened to me..quite a few times..all diffrently..but all similar. When you have this gift..you are never meant to find love. I was never meant to lose a friend..or find a little bit of love..but i did. i truly wonder..what will happen if she finds me..one that doesn't have a ex..one that is pure of heart. What will happen..i can't put nothing into fates hands because it tests to much and i failed. How would life be..if love was within my reach..if my heart was alive and my soul wasn't gone. Would i be in heaven?..because im done with living in this hell. A demon has controled and ruled me, now he is gone..and only a angel will sprout in its place. In order to gain..you must give something up. I will give up this gift for real love..cuz in real love you dont need to know anything..you dont need to know if shes lying or cheating on you..no, so take this gift away.