Specter

-Specter-
by Keaton Foster



An intrusion
Appearing
Without warning
In this
A forest
Within this mind
Broken
Is the time
Unable to change
Unwilling to replace
A second
Of this existence
Deeper still
Behind
These troubled eyes
Devoid of parameters
Without limitations
An uninspired idea
Placed there
Long before
All others
Specter
The ghost of a past
That cannot
Be hidden away
One that
Must be faced
One that
Must be embraced
No matter the price
Regardless of
This present life
It is always there
And if for a moment
Forgotten
It reappears
A terrible remembrance
Of a horrifying point
When I was reduced
To less than a being
Taken down
Raped
Into the ground
Beaten near death
Told it was all my fault
That I held the blame
For the problems
Of so many others
And that I had to pay
For the sins of the same
While in the midst
Of committing them
Specter
A creation of darkness
Within
An oblique wilderness
Of abominations
Left to their own defenses
A ghostly aberration
Of another who once lived
Until of course the day
When I stood up and said
No more
On that day he died
And in many ways
So did who I was
And what I have become
Deeper is the truth
As far as I go
As much as I run
Whatever I do to escape
I just end back here
Afraid of what lives
Within the deepest
Darkness of who I am
And what I’ve done
Specter
Not of my creation
But rather a provocation
To remind me
Of all that was done
By the hands of others
As well as myself
I will never be free
No matter how much
I fight to escape
That which is
Inescapable…


Specter
Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2016.