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| We all have our ups and downs in life. Currently I am in a Valley season. In December we got a couple hundred dollars behind in rent. In January my roommate who I take care of and share a bank account with, tried to apply for a loan to make up what we were behind and to catch up. Well.... That didn't go so well. She applied for a loan online and it ended up being a scam. That put us even deeper into the financial hole. We ended up getting further and further behind on our rent among other issues. We are continuing to deal with fraudulent charges from the scam. Another $1,500 was taken out of our account this month even though we closed out the other account, the bank keeps transferring charges to our new one. When does the bleeding stop? I didn't ever realize you could steal from people what they didn't even have, but apparently these scammers did. So far we have lost around $3,000 from a bank account with a 0-dollar balance. We have had to keep breaking our payment arrangements and as a result our landlord is evicting us this month. We are having to go stay with my roommate's brother until we can get all this sorted out and find another place to go. I could cry, but it wouldn't do any good. There have been a few other issues that have come from this one as you can only imagine. Don't try to get a loan online people. It has been a nightmare for us. They go in dispute legit charges which mess up your credit with other places. Then they do money transfers with cash app under other people's names and end up scamming multiple people at the same time. The bank is aware of it, and still requiring us to pay the extra charges. We are also looking at possibly having to put down our dog who is 15 years old. She has gotten aggressive and doesn't let anyone touch her. We assume it's because she is in pain. Obviously, with everything else going on, we have not had the money to take her to the vet. |
With the beginning of the new year, we always hope for a better year especially when the old one was a hard one. Well, I had that hope for this year, but life is being a big bully right now and keeps kicking me while I am down. However, God is faithful and has been providing our needs. I have no desire to go into details of my big sob-sob story but can definitely use a whole lot of prayers. Maybe I can go into more details later on, but for now I don't want to go there. I am going to try to get back on track and back on here more regularly in the meantime. It's good to have this creative outlet and I enjoy sharing my faith. I will admit, I have been fighting some depression which tends to make me want to withdraw (one of my coping mechanisms). |
 Since November is the month of Thanksgiving, we are writing about gratitude today. There are so many things we can choose to say about gratitude. Today, gratitude is helping me make it through the day. As we are entering the holiday season, I am struggling a bit emotionally. I am feeling the loss of so many of the people that I have loved in my life, family and friends. It's just not the same without them. Each year, I try to make the most of it. I try to focus on what I have and not what I have lost. Sometimes, this is easier said than done. Just having lost the lady I was taking care of brings all those emotions back to the forefront of my heart. I have had to say many prayers of gratitude today. I thank God for the time I was able to have with them. I thank Him for what I do have. I try to stay positive. Gratitude puts things in perspective. It keeps us from taking things for granted. Everything and anything, people and things, that we have today are not guaranteed to be here tomorrow. Life and circumstances can change in a moment. The Bible tells us we should give thanks in all things. (1 Thes. 5:18) Of course, when I remember that all things work together for my good (Romans 8:28) and that God has only good plans for me (Jeremiah 29:11), then it makes it a lot easier to be thankful when things don't go the way I want them too. Knowing that God has only my best interest at heart makes it easier to be thankful even when things go wrong.  |
My thoughts on if a Christian should celebrate Halloween: If you can do it to glorify God, I believe it is ok. However, everything about Halloween in my opinion screams evil and fear. God doesn't give us the spirit of fear. So, where does fear come from? That's something to consider. Although, I believe to everything there is a time and purpose, therefore, follow the Holy Spirit's leading and you will never go wrong. |
| The elderly lady I had been caring for passed away September 7th. I ended up cleaning a lot of her belongings out of her apartment. My living room looks like a storage unit. I will be working on that hopefully over the next couple of weeks. Shortly after I had got stuff moved out of her apartment, I became ill. I went through a round of COVID, got over it and a couple days later got sick again. I ran a fever for 4 or 5 days, it broke, then came back a few days later. I am still waiting for it to go away again. I have never had a fever this many days in a row in my life. Needless to say I have a doctor's appointment scheduled. |
| I gave the elderly neighbor notice that on August first I would stop providing care. It was hard at first, because I had to say, "No" when asked to do things after August 1st. Finally, a little over a week later, Hospice finally placed her in a facility. It was about 6 days after that before we knew if it was a permanent placement or not. In the meantime, I took care of her little Yorkie. It has been determined that since the dog had already bonded with me that I would take possession of her. The neighbor's daughter also gave me the title to her car. It needs some work and has high milage, but it runs. God continues to provide my needs. Another thing that has been up in the air is if we are moving or not. Our lease is up for renewal and rent is going up another $65 per month. So, this has been a tough decision to make as my roommate and I like living where we are. I think we are going to stay put, but their are still a couple of factors that could change that. So, continued prayers are appreciated. I have been spending a lot of time this month just trying to recover and rest. This whole ordeal really took a toll on me mentally, emotionally, and physically. Thank God ts is finally coming to an end. |
| As you know, I have been caring for my elderly neighbor. She is on hospice but has been relying heavily on me for care. It is just getting to be too much for me. I will be giving her a notice that I will no longer be her caregiver as of August first. Prayers for me as I deal with this situation, and prayers that she will accept it and get the proper care she needs and be placed in a long-term care facility are much needed. I have tried to avoid having to give up on her care until I knew someone else would care for her, but she has to make that decision for herself and by me giving her notice she will have time to get other arrangements set up. If she fails to do so, it's on her. It breaks my heart to have to do it this way. |
| Hi, It's been a while since I have been able to be as active as desired. Life got kind of crazy. I have been trying to run my own multi-level marketing businesses, take care of my roommate, take care of my elderly neighbor (who I might add is requiring more and more care), keep both households clean, run all the errands and make the doctor visits for everyone. Needless to say, after several months of this, I am worn out. Plus, also consider that I have my own health issues. I am in the process of making personal adjustments to get my life back on track and more manageable. I have learned that I am not Super Woman, or I need a new cape because the one I currently have is no longer working. (ha-ha) Anyway, the elderly lady is on at-home hospice care which is pretty similar to home health care only it's hospice. Tomorrow, she is supposed to go to a facility for respite care. I am hoping they are able to evaluate her and realize that she does not need to be living by herself anymore. I just can no longer provide her with proper care that she needs. I am praying they keep her. I honestly don't think she will last much longer either way. She continues to grow weaker by the day. I hope I don't sound cold, but I honestly need someone to step up and take this responsibility off my shoulders. It's about knowing my limits. I plan to make a diet plan and schedule to hopefully help manage the rest of it. It may take me a little time to fully recover. I hope and pray after that I can spend more time on WDC again. Life just got to be overwhelming. I would appreciate the prayers. |
November 3rd prompt write about your favorite character in the Bible. I think my favorite character in the Bible has always been David. For some reason, I have always felt I could relate to him in some way, especially in the Psalms. November 4th prompt Choose 2 scripture verses that you like really well to write about. My favorite is Psalms 37:23-24 The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the Lord upholdeth him with his hand. What an awesome promise! The first scripture I ever learned when I was in kindergarten was Romans 3:23 For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. November 5th prompt Is it right to say, "No!" when someone ask for help? Why or why not? I struggle with this one personally. I desire to help everyone. It is hard for me to say no. I want to love everyone with the love of Jesus, but I cause myself to feel completely poored out because I need to learn to say no more often. November 7th prompt Do you fear God? Why or why not? The Fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom. Yes, I fear God in a reverential way. He gave me life and he can take it away. Like a child loves and adores their parent and wants to be just like them, is how I love God. I fear him enough to obey him. I don't want to offend him or hurt him because I love him. When you are in a relationship with anyone, you don't want to hurt or offend them. That can hurt your relationship with them. It is the same with God. I don't ever want him to be so angry at me that he turns his back on me, and that is Biblical. |
I believe in angels. Some people may think I am crazy when I tell them I have seen them more than once in my life. They are messengers and servants of God. There is a scripture where someone was going to worship the angel before them but they told them not to do so because they are fellow servant of God just as the man was. It is a beautiful thing if you ever get the experience to see an angel worship God. It is hard to put into words, but I have seen it. The love and true adoration the angel showed toward God completely changed the way I myself worship him. What a privalage for us to be able to enter into God's presence in praise and prayer. Yes, even while we are here on earth. He is here with us. Sometimes the experience with an angel can be so glorious and overwhelming, you can't even put it into words. However, I can say this. Know that God loves you. His love is overwhelming and overtaking. His love is glorious. His love is amazing and hard to comprehend. Angels are not to be worshipped. Angels are spiritual beings. They are real. They are helpers. They protect us. They watch over us. They are entertained by us. They stand before God daily. These are all the things that pop into my head at the moment. |
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