One man's journey to find the way home
I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from. |
After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit.
I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY?
Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation....
|Making the plunge involves taking a risk and honest to God not knowing what will happen. I am willing to find out without putting false expectations on that other person. I can honestly only make myself happy.
1. Once I am responsible for my own sexuality, my orgasms and what not I can enjoy what I discover with another. So bottom line if something does not go right it is always on me! The greatest danger in sexual encounter is turning it into a performance. Both parties will be disappointed.
2. Showing up is half the battle. You show up and joy and happiness beyond measure can happen. You don't show up-i guess we'll never know.
3. Sex is never going to perfect no matter how perfect the people are involved. Once you get that sex can be perfected in union, two broken pieces become one.
4. My thought Tuesday night overnight till about 7am, just estimate. So where do we meet. How does it happen. I guess I will have to see. I hope you can expect there might be less texting up to the event. Bye for now.