Seasons of my life

Married Tommy at age eighteen
Treated me as if I were a queen
Innocent- immature- naive, we were
And smoked way too much reefer

Together during a tumultuous time
Broke- busted- without a dime
I cry out loud, what went wrong?
As I recall the end of our song.

Then came Mr. Tricky Tim
Jumped on him ~ in a whim
He stayed until the party ended
I have to admit ~ it was splendid

Always eager to remove my blouse
Oh so easy to get aroused
His love for me he couldn’t deny
Until the lil’ cute blondie walked by

I chased down crazy Kelly
Let him hang till full in the belly
He contributed so much to my life
Booze, violence, anger and strife

He made me cry more then anyone alive
When over, my desire was to simply survive
He punched holes in my self-esteem
But I’ll be damned if he killed my dream!

Then backward Brian stepped into the scene
He and his psycho ex, he placed me between
It didn’t take long for me to learn
I was his tool to make her return

He was considered a talented builder
Crowds watched in bewilder
He was just as good at tearing down
In my tears, he left me to drown

Talking to Charlie on the net
Made our minds up, we met
He was everything I wanted him to be
Well, at least that was his plea

I moved fourteen hundred miles away
To be with the image he portrayed
All the sudden things had changed
I discovered the man was deranged

Stopped in a tavern for a drink
Raging Robby shot me a wink
My scornful behavior made me his quest
I was his challenge ~ he was obsessed

With some time, I began to care
Of his violent nature, I then came aware
First and last time a man left a bruise
Out the balcony flew his shoes.

Tragic Travis came in to play
Throwing my world into disarray
His body withdrawing from crack
On me, He proposed an attack

Consider the past, my emotions ignite
My fists up, I’m ready to fight
Seeing my fury he then vanished
From my life, he was banished

Bingeing Bobby tried to play the part
Until it required anything from the heart
I really wanted this one, had so much hope
I asked for sobriety, he couldn’t cope

Affection from him was like from a brick wall
In frustration I verbally mauled
I offered remorse, he chose not to forgive
To his surprise I continue to live ~

Barry, Dave, Joey and Daniel
Thomas, Kenneth, Bill and Nathaniel
James, Robert, Mike and Paul
And several others I don’t recall

Have all come and gone with the days
Possible they were just a phase
Some left with my heart ablaze
Others I made leave in a craze

Could it be I should consider my ways?
And step outside this tangled maze.
Oh My…Who is that guy? I fix my gaze
As I whisper softly in a haze.