05.08.08

I don't know how this works, but I think he's moving. He told me he's going to Virginia. -sigh- I care; I don't know if he cares. I was going to wait for him like Lee Ann said but sometimes it's just best to do me and not everyone else. There's only so much you can do for someone who cares only for pot, WoW, friends, and family. *I can't regret it*; I won't. Loving him felt good and being in his arms was the best thing I've ever felt. `Can't say that about Shawn, Tim, Eric, or any of the rest. This is the second year I've loved him. It's okay though because at least he didn't physically hurt me or abuse me emotionally.

I have this memory though. I guess I thought it'd always be like that. When DTR spent the night, he woke me in morning with kisses up and down my shoulder and arm. It was the sweetest way to wake up. Part of me wishes we had enough time together to share love making because I *know* it'd real sweet and beautiful. */Vulnerable\* I am grateful to have had the time with him. End of story.

Thank you, God
Amen.

What's my verdict? Love is worth it when it's true and it is not vile. Things just don't work out sometimes, and oftentimes the time is just not right.