My feelings about my husband being in the NAVY
|I'm the girl that wakes up in the morning
and tries to forget he's not there but
his side of the bed untouched and pillow cold
I'm the girl that gives a plastic smile
to anyone that looks my way
but my minds screaming, don't look my way...
you don't know me.
you don't know how i feel.
you don't know i'm crying inside.
I'm the girl that goes to her body combat gym class
the instructor says, pretend like your punching my face
i pretend i'm punching the Navy in the face.
sweat pours down my forehead, drips to the floor
and while everyone leaves refreshed and invigorated
i just leave angry and feeling defeated.
I'm the girl that tries to ignore when the door rings
and one of her kids call out, daddy!
it's just UPS...
my heart aches.
I'm the girl that's filled with jealousy
when i see a family eating in a restaurant together
and i'm sitting in the drive thru just getting food for
me and the kids.
I'm the girl looks at the clock
but for what?
time stands still.
i watch the world buzz around me
and i'm frozen
frozen in my world
I'm the girl that stares at the calendar
it brings no comfort.
i don't know when he'll come home.
i don't know how long he'll stay.