Pleading

Pleading

Finally, this moment is payback
We're on a ledge, each of us bound by our ankles with mental ropes. My decision is made.
Before I enact it,
Let's sit back,
Let's rewind
Let's see what you've done to me...

Sense the day I was born, I should have known I was another sea shell that happened to wash up on your erie shore.
You thought you were a criptic,
It didn't last.
You were too addicted,
To lying and hiding ...
But oh no, lo and behold, don't hide as your secrets unfold,
You were cold,
I was bold,
My bravado, you stole.
You told it that it would never come back,
You said I needed to learn,
That my existance was never stern,
It was only hurt and gore
My decisions were neither nor.
My brovado
You destroyed, remade it, reshaped it,
You played with it,
Named it,
Shamed it,
Disgraced it,
Misplaced it,
Found it,
Hid it...
By then you were growing bored,
You treated me as an item bought at the store,
I was yours, my knees scaped on the floor, my nails bent, fingers clawing into my core, searching for the source of the down pour.
Yes, my insides were sore, the pain starting to soar,
Into my heart, into my brain,
And I never knew what for.
I wished it would stop.
I was near giving up.
But you were in control, you made me crave for more
I dug deeper until I found the seed you implanted within me.
I took it out.
But that's not how your game went
With demented hands,
You replanted it...

So don't you dare cry
Don't you dare plead
The ropes that bind us,
They'll serve as my levy.
Fore when I jump,
I swear, life, you'll come crashing down behind me.