Message to you

Wishful Thinking

I miss you,
I wish you were here,
I need you.
Sometimes it’s hard to smile without you
I really really wish with all my heart and with every single cell in my body that you were here.
I wish that when I send this message you would actually be able to get it and reply
I hate that I only got to know you for a short time
I hate that you’re gone
I hate how I feel
And I hate how much it hurts
Though it’s not like it was in the beginning the pain is still there
The hurt, the hole in my heart;
The hard time I have breathing when I think of you is always here. There is not a single day that goes by that I don’t think of you;
Of what we could have had,
What feels like we should’ve had
It’s hard to say goodbye to my first love
Even harder when it was as sudden as your passing
I wish I would have never had to say goodbye
I know this is just wishful thinking that will get me no where
Because the truth is you are gone and that can never be changed...