I Am Sickened Beyond All Repair

-I Am Sickened Beyond All Repair-
by
Keaton Foster

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This mind
This brain
So much shame
Impossible weights
Pressure upon pressure
It just won’t relent
Someday soon
I will be deceased
But for now
I am very much alive
Living this life
Fighting a good fight
Giving everything hell
Taking in what I know
Decimating what I don’t
Expressing
Exposing
Feeling a bit chosen
Wondering is this my purpose
Why the God above created me
Just as quick I realize
That there is no god above
At least not one
That I am comfortable with
The poet that is in me
The man I truly seem
Is quite a clever lie
A made up story
An epic fantasy
I am just one character
There are many others
I am playing my heart
Hitting every mark
Delivering
The performance of my lifetime
I know
And up until now
You don’t
I am sickened beyond all repair
Reality is becoming quite unclear
Images scream on through
Scenes upon scenes
Each one bleeding into the next
I only sleep when I pass out
I am only able find relief in my dreams
My hellish nightmares of everything to be read
When I wake up I am ready to face the world
Not actual people of course
From a distance I act
From a distance I correspond
When I wake up I am ready to write
Ready to touch the souls
Of so many I don’t know
Some might become infected
Some but feel the symptoms
And in time, ache with the sickness
Others will be quite immune
They will suffer nothing because
They will never truly understand
I am sickened beyond all repair
There are others just as ill
There are many more infected
Some will live by these words
While others will die by their own…



I Am Sickened Beyond All Repair
Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2013