Running Water

The sound of running water drowns the thoughts in my head
It reminds me of times we never had
The waterfalls we never saw
That cabin we never shared

I’m saturated with remorse
Your eyes reflect the same sorrow as mine
Full of regret
Mournful for things that we never could find

I’ve been planning this talk for months on end
You penetrate every step I’ve taken
You’re all I’ve thought about
Still my love for you remains unshaken

I see caution in your smile
My teeth start to chatter
“I miss you”
That’s the only thought that matters

You’re looking at your feet
Ready to walk away
Posed to leave me
Prepared to leave like I did that day

“I’m sorry”
I don’t know how to fix you
Your silence fills my blood with a chill
I know you hurt just like I do

“I always did everything wrong
I was reckless with how you feel.
But I still think of you
I still love you and always will”

“I still want what I wanted that day.
Two people love each other
They don’t think about anyone else
They build a life together”

I’ve said it
I feel frozen inside
It’s out in the open
You still don’t reply

“I would do anything for you
I would cheat, lie, steal
I would move countries
To prove how I feel”

I try to make eye contact
I try to read your expression
But your face says nothing
You still hold on to your repression

“I’m not just saying these things
I’m not just trying to please you
I’m trying to make a promise
I’m telling you someone loves you”

“You could have it all you know.
Just give me an indication that you care
The only thing I want anymore
is to build a life we can share”

“Just say anything, and it’s all yours.
Let me feed your hunger.
Let me grow with you.
Let me protect you while you slumber.”

You don’t hear it
You never really could
That’s why I left
I loved you like you never would

As your eyes fog over I remember
You never allowed me to love you
You never would have me
You never told me what I was to do

I always did the talking
I never wanted anyone else
I only wanted what was best for us
I only thought of myself

I turn away and step into the stream
Hoping it will wash the thoughts away
I know they won’t stop
Not until you talk to me someday