A poetic journey through my life so far. |
Cocoon of Insecurity A young boy sits underneath the shade of an old oak tree looking out at the vast sea of smiling faces and joyful laughter. With a yearning to be a part of that society he sits alone concealed within a cocoon created from the restraint of insecurity he suffers from. Although he makes friends through his young life, he remains drowning in the abyss of trepidation. He decides to keep the voice of his heart hidden deep inside his cocoon of solitude. That young boy was me. A teen fifteen years age enters the world of high school to prepare for what life has to offer him, yet he still hides in his cocoon of insecurity. During his teenage life his grades are good and a crack starts to form along the outer layer of his thick shell as his once silent voice starts to resonate softly from his soul. Progressively he begins to walk into that sea of smiling faces and joyful laughter for which he yearned to join when he was young. That teen of fifteen years was me. A young man who has graduated from the life of high school into a world of reality begins his path of self-discovery. With a chance to continue his education and walk the road of higher education in the form of a scholarship, he willingly declines the opportunity. The choice is made when he learns of a loved one is stricken with the mental illness of dementia and he decides to become the caretaker of his grandmother. He feels this is the right decision, because he does not want to experience the feeling of putting her in a nursing home. That young man is me. The cocoon which has concealed the voice of this young man starts to open as he discovers the gift of poetry. A gift given to him from his creator, he takes his heart and pours it onto paper through his pen. The abyss of trepidation that once engulfed his soul succumbs to the light of empowerment he gains from writing. Poetry allows him to break free from his cocoon of insecurity and the voice of his heart is heard by those who travel along the words of his craft. As he travels along this path, he discovers he is a young man of unconditional love for his family and a young man who yearns for his voice to be heard one day by the world through his gift of poetry. He discovers that he is a poet. That poet is me. Written by: Jason Anderson |