My Little Star

My dear Jaiden,

I want you to know that I never planned it this way,
And I had no choice but to walk away.
I refuse to bad mouth your father before your ears,
And I refuse to let you wipe away these tears.

My prayers were heard from afar,
When that little stick turned blue,
I knew God had plucked for me a star,
The day I found out about you.

My body changed and so did my heart,
and then I could never imagine a world where we were apart.
You spent 9 months wrapping me around you fingers,
The ones that I had yet to hold.
I prayed for your health, and to see your smile first.
Those hours in labor was the time I suffered the worst.

But I wouldn't trade it for the world
I would do it all again for my perfect little girl.
The fearful hours before you were placed in my arms,
Seemed to be erased the moment I looked into your eyes.
You smiled at me and melted my heart.


The past 18 months of my life -- your whole life,
has been the best for me
because you have brought out the best in me.
You brought to me what I was missing....

... My angel.
I will be here for you no matter what.
Even if the rest of the world turns against you....
You will always have mommy.