Just die!!

Dear Alys,

I question why and how you're alive
Why do you struggle to survive
Why do people care about you?
Why is it you can't stop failing them too!?

Girls like you do NOT belong
So just lay down and listen to your favorite suicide song.
Take the gun, go ahead
Just pull the trigger while pointed at your head

It's ok, no one will know, they'll just think you vanished, sure they'll worry but will now know
That you are nothing but show
You're a failure of a woman just as you were a man
Yet...why are you struggling? I don't understand!!

Alys, go to heaven, end it all!!
For you can finally fall!!
You'll never have that anime, nor any of those visions
Nor will you need to make any tough decisions

You cannot please her, you know this well
So just get out of this stupid spell
No one can save you, no one should have to
But here you are, longing for someone...dammit I hate you.

I want you dead, your sadness worsens by the day.
You WON'T be able to have 'Her' yet alive you stay.
No charming poems no loving words
Could get you to have her and fly away like birds.

Your no one's little dove, your nothing special at all.
Yet once more you will not ****ing fall!!
Pull the trigger it's not big deal
Then you'll see heaven is real

How I hate your eyes looking at me like this
You think I give a piss?
You can't intimidate nor harm me
For I am you, you see?

You're my bitch, I'm your god
Ironic huh, not a sex slave, yet mine, isn't it odd?
It's ok, I'll end it quickly, the gun is loaded it only takes one round.
Take it and end us both or, let us both drown.

Why do you look in the mirror like this, your eyes filled with fire
You're going to keep living? Ugh do you ever tire?
Well, that's fine, fight me all you like little bitch
For I'm always with you like a bad itch.

You refuse my words, refuse me!?
Well, that's plain to see.
But one will take over one day will it be you or me
Hmmm, perhaps there's more to you than I see

Well then Alys I'll exchange blows with you soon
Till then dear...try not to meet your doom.

from Alys