lost the care

Yes am of age to be qualified as an adult
am not a fool neither a sluggard
my life as seen the pains beyond an old man tale
still with all this i face more sharp pain daily
off course as a result of my slow but gradual building
i steadily but surely keep climbing the hills of glory
with all the loads of how i feel backward when compared to my peers
i still had a responsibility to be my cousins care
under the tutelage of my brothers spear
i read and surely understand is undiluted care
his son brings so much a memory that deserves all the care
i have to try and match a mothers call as a man
under the ever eagle eyes of my brother
not helping is his ever imaginary heart
that non other could care or feel concern for precious sons care
don't blame me because have tried to raise my standard of care
only to be shut down by heavy words that my reminds me of how backward and slow have been in life
i of-course cant be bias to accept a brothers pamper
understandably only his son will get that
i tried to match up a mothers care
under the pressure of my life daily spear.
to imagine a whole lot of loads of responsibilities call
gradually i look stupid at every strength of character i give
to be candid i stopped trying to match that mothers care
not that i choose not be caring
i only discovered no matter how i much i leap
i never meet the standard my brother seek
yes i love my cousin so deep
but suddenly due to his understanding whip
i suddenly look like the fellow that lost the care