Life with undiagnosed Autism
|I spent most of my life|
watching time pass
with the world
living in my books
and my art.
I didn't understand the people
couldn't 'read' their meaning.
I was ignored
by other children,
This sense of disconnect
into my youth and adulthood.
I worked as a nurse
interacting with my patients
my coworkers and boss didn't understand me either.
"That's just Audrey"
when I did something or said something off-beat.
I was often reprimanded
but didn't understand 'why'.
For a long time I drank to escape my world
from other's criticism and hatred because I was different.
Then, one day, I found a Doctor who understood.
She determined I was "autistic".
That changed my world.
I 'understand' now.
In AA I found others people like myself,
who also felt ostracized
They accept my past as a drinker,
they don't dislike my differentness either.
I am finding my path as I learn to love myself
I don't need approval from others.
My life proceeds in love and acceptance.