YHWH has been so giving to me. As I make mistake after mistake He never leaves me. I try to hold on to what is in front of me yet I cannot seem to leave the past alone. Numb the mind and heart with pills. Now and then hoping they take me all the way down. Waking yo feel a mix of relief and sadness. Happy to be awake another day yet still left wanting to travel the void and see the other side.i still helplessly and hopelessly love someone from my past. I dream of her and it feels so real that I believe she dreams the same dream. Yet He holds me and keeps me to grow and learn each day. For that I am truly thankful. God bless.