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Haven't written anything for a long time, A poem I'm Very Rusty |
As Best I Can by Keaton Foster I stand I stood Present Or past tense Matters not When and how Even less Upon an edge To myself It was said There it is An end Of choice Of reason The why And how come One step forward Closer than before Inches from Nevermore I would not Without question Continue on Existence The bitch cousin Of truly living The height Far to great The weight Unequivocally more I’d be alive Then not No fear finds me No realities scare me I’m here On my own accord I own the right To decide for myself And dare I say Everyone else Fear A fools game Pain Equally lame Hope For dopes Faith and fate God’s upon And within Themselves I have neither And I have none I am just alive Living as sorts As best I can As worst as I must I’ve done many Terrible things In the name of Under the guise of Surviving What for most Would have been Not survivable I have shame I own such guilt Like a knot in my chest It resides next to My foolish heart Each beat is at risk Each thump betrays The need it creates My lungs inflate My blood flows Autonomously controlled By a mind that has And always will Betray what could be With what I perceive Reality is different For a man like me What is real Is based off What has been And not what is I can’t escape Nor let go of A past of absolutes I was tortured Abused Used and trashed Thrown away By those who For a time decided My faith as well as fate I am broken Destroyed I fight each day As best I can But I fear it’s a fight Increasingly I can’t And won’t ever win… Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2008-2021 |