Sanctuary

Journal entry 6

My birthday was actually good. I've been surprised by the decent holidays this year. Ended up buying my own cake. It was okay because I got to pick it out and it was beautiful. I should have taken pictures. I don't think about taking pictures any more.

I took everything down from my Shrine and restructured it. Found some books on the fundamentals of magick. I want to find some of my tools and begin energy work again. I just also need to find my balanced place again first. Don't want to be sending this pent up tension out into the universe.

Starting over with a lot of things.

Went and signed up to have a payee handle my bills starting in March. I will be handling my taxes in February. I was trying to think of everything I want/need to do today and it didn't seem like it was going to be enough. Oh well. What is meant to be done will get done.

Writing is not going well. I don't want to write my journal, I don't want to work on this blog, I don't want to work on my stories. I'm going to get myself to do it I just don't know when.

I've felt sick mostly. Weak. Tired. light-headed. my ears have been giving me trouble, itching inside like there is something in there. My eyes itch and are dry a lot. I have a lot of sinus trouble. I think I might get my blood checked after I have my CATscan tomorrow. We'll see what happens.