Life as we know it sucks

Old Habits Renewed....

Current Mood: I'm alright, I s'pose

Current Music: 12 Rods - Glad That It's Over

written 23rd of October

I cut myself last night. Yes . . . it's true . . . For the first time in over a year and a half. I can't help it. I just want to do it more because my life is falling apart. It's FALLING apart! I'm ruining everything that was once good.

Now, I'm just making excuses. I'm just being the biggest bitch and to repay myself for these awful things, I cut myself. I can't help it. It helps. It's such an emotional pain reliever. I hadn't really thought about this shit all day long and now I can't NOT think about it.

The wrong decision is ripping me up inside. I just want to take a break from my life and run away! I just want to take a break from Shane and hang out with my friends for once. I just want to take a break from Shane all together. He's annoying the fuck out of me! *sigh* I'm such a bitch.

Look what I've done to myself. I'm slowly but surely falling into another depression . . . Maybe this time it will end in death . . . Hopefully it will . . .

Yours Truly

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"I love you" is only 8 letters . . . then again, so is "bullshit."