Michael J Morgan...This Is Your Life

blehh

         im in a bit of a depressed mood today. i don't know if it has anything to do with my writing lately but it's taking its toll...
         i feel im not good enough for tobi.  maybe i really do break up with my girlfriends after two weeks but this time for a different reason. because this time it isnt a question of if i like her, i know i do, but rather if she would be better off without me?
         i want her to be happy. i cant remember wanting that for anyone before. all my 17 years and 7 months ive been looking out for number 1. myself.
         when i looked at her sleeping on monday i just sat there beside her taking in the way she looked. the way he chest rose and fell with each breath. that's when i knew i loved her and started having thoughts that she deserves so much better than me...
         probably wont feel like this tomorro but yeh. thanks for listening...