|I always hesitate when writing this because I am not sure whether anyone reads it or not. However, I relish the opportunity to put my thoughts down in the hope that someday, someone will read them. I also realize that I can help the process by reading the thoughts of others.
What does this year hold for me?
I believe it holds opportunities that I never thought I could experience. For one thing, I think I have found love. For the first time ever, I have met someone who loves me unconditionally. Someone of the opposite sex, I must clarify since I have had friends, though few and far between.
Since this is my first experience with romantic love, I am understandbly nervous. I am so afraid of saying or doing something stupid to mess this up. I am afraid that my lack of experience will be a detriment to this relationship. However, I understand that a lack of experience can be a good thing as well as a bad thing. For me there are no rules for a relationship since I have no basis for developing any. For me there is only one step at a time. For me there is only my heart, her heart and God's heart.
I detest rules... the kind that enslave people rather then set them free.
Yes, I realize I am rambling. I apologize. However, this is where I state my thoughts, feelings and emotions raw as they come. Not where I polish, edit, revise until my writing comes as close to perfect as I can. Though I will go back and revise what I have written in time. Plus, it will be refreshing to see where I came from.
How will I approach this relationship?
The Lord has given me three words.... passion, patience and purpose.