by CJ Reddick
This is my blog for junior year!
|Okay today wasn't really a great day. And most of it was brought on by myself, which makes it worse. Oh, well.
"Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" [E] Prompt: What were you doing and where were you on 9-11 when the twin towers were attacked?
I don't know. I was three. Most likely I was probably napping or crying or playing. My mom insists that they closed down school that day and sent everyone including me home, but I was only three so I didn't go to school so I don't know where they got that idea from. Maybe she was confused with the neighbors across the street.
I'm sure this is tragic to all of you older people, but 9-11 just isn't very real to me. I mean, it's real. It's a historical event. It happened. But, try as I might, I'm not really... emotionally attached to it. I feel really badly that all of those people died. Did you know that there is a member on WDC that was killed in 9-11? Bandit's Mama I just visited her notebook and left a note, I would encourage you all to do the same. It's a nice gesture even though she isn't around to see it.
Actually, if I'm being honest, I don't feel emotionally attached to any terrible terrorist-related thing that has happened. I feel bad because I know how bad it is, but it doesn't affect me. I am not that sympathetic of a person. I'm not thinking "Well I have it worse" but I just don't, can't really feel anything for it. I feel sorry for them. Do I lay awake at night thinking about it? Am I able to understand the horrible pain this has caused? No. I do remember what I was doing when the Boston Marathon was bombed. I was a freshman then. Beginning band days. Mr J was gone, and so the nine beginning bandies were sitting down in the commons just talking. All of the sudden Sam gets a text on his phone and looks up "Oh my God, the Boston Marathon got bombed."
I didn't even comprehend what that meant. I gave it two seconds of thought and then we went back to our conversation. Only later did I realize the significance of what had happened.
Ultimately, though, I still have trouble feeling sympathy. But it's not like this topic doesn't make me negative. The more I think about this the worse I feel. Unfortunately, most of that is just guilt that I don't really feel upset that it happened. If I could've stopped, I would've. But I couldn't have. There was nothing I could've done. And it was far off. It didn't affect anyone I know. I know that I'm probably a terrible person and making you all mad but it just seems so far away to me. I'm sorry.
14 Terribly Recent Events
Columbine 1999 (I don't actually know what this is but from how Lyn talked about it it must be bad)
Oklahoma City Bombing
Boston Marathon Bombing
Japan Tsunami, 2011
The Kidnapping of those Girls in Africa
The Deaths of All The People in the Arab Spring
These were all terrible things. And now, after musing on them for a bit, I do feel bad. But, the reality is I'll probably wake up tomorrow and not remember this, or not feel bad about it anymore. I'm sorry.