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October 5th - Prompt

Write about the person that has had the biggest impact on your life.

No modesty. No shame. No self-doubt. I, yes I, have had the biggest impact on my life. I have made the decisions that have lead me to right here. Good or bad, this is where I am. This is who I am. This is what I am. My when is now. I and I alone am how I got here! Whether I made the right decision or just made the right decision for right then, I have chosen the road I have traveled. I put down every brick and placed each foot on them. I don't know what would have have happened if I had turned left instead of right. What if's will ruin a life. I live for now and I live for next. I can't keep looking over my shoulder, second guessing every decision I have made.

What if I had paid more attention in college and actually had made it to Vet school? I can't waste anymore time thinking about it. I have spent 25 years looking back and wondering! It is well past time to turn a blind eye and focus on the forward. What if, when I crashed my bike into the mailbox when I was 12, I hadn't just gotten up and walked away? Who knows, even better, who cares? What if, What if, What if?

Yes, there have been influential people in my life but I am the most influential! I have total control over my destiny! I control my future! ME ME ME! You might try to coax me to choose one thing over another. But I make the decision! It is all in my hands! God help me, but I need to stand behind every decision I have ever made and I have to OWN them. Good or bad, they are 100% mine and only mine. I can't blame anyone for any of the decisions I have made, but I don't have to share the credit, either! One hundred percent, good or bad it is all mine! I win alone, or I lose alone!

You can call me conceited or you can call me self-aware. But you won't call me scared and you won't call me weak!