by Soul sister
Ok so I am addicted...
|I am addicted to this site. My housework gets overlooked. My finger are asleep as I surf hour after hour. I tell my kids, "Go play" so that I can read and write more. I can not stay away from my site. But hey, I know I am not the only Writing.com junkie!!!|
| Ever been so tired but not physically tired-- mentally. I have been that way for a few days. I am just ready to crawl in the bed and sleep when ever I can. Tonight i need to go see my mom and Dad. They were at Emory today and mom got a good report. We were thinking she they may suggest surgery or different options but instead she got a good report. She is on a study there for Pulmorary Hypertension which is a lung-heart disorder that is usually fatal within a few years. Hopefully this study will extend her life.
I think I have been tired too since the time change.
| i am so glad summer is almost here. I am ready for a break from teaching.
I have reading a book on how to get organized. I think it is working. My paper mess is getting smaller. I am organizing my time to be more efficient in the cleaning department. If it works, I will have to write it down in my port for some of you other messies out there.
I had a great weekend. I am feeling better today. Got a lot of rest. Church was good. All is good.
My son got his braces off today. He looks even more like his Dad now. He is almost as tall as me.
| Seems that is all I deal with lately is bad colds. Last week was testing with the students and one of my students was sick with a cold for a couple of days. He should have stayed out a couple more of days because as soon as I saw him I knew he did not feel good. I also knew I would catch that cold as he is always needing my help and I am always near him. He coughed on me once and I just knew. Sure enough. I have it. Lucky for me it was mostly the weekend i was down and out. I still do not feel well.
Today I was talking to a couple of friends at work. One is not of the same religion and in fact I do not think she has attended church in sometime as I can tell she was confused in what her own denomination believes. Anyway- it got kind of heated but my friend ( she did a better job than I ) stood firm in our faith that it is only through Jesus that she are saved. It is not good works. I looked back at my piece , ARE YOU SURE YOU ARE GOING TO HEAVEN? and am thinking of sharing that with her.
IF you have not read RACHEL's TEARS of Rachel from the Columbine shooting-- read it. IT is good. I am telling everyone to read it. It is so inspirational.
|This happens to me a lot. I will be somewhere like Walmart and think of someone. THen I will see them there. This has happened to me at least 10 times in the last couple of years. Spooky.|
|So this week has been spring break and it gets me on fire for summer to be here. I don't have that feeling until spring break. Anyway we took a trip to a cave and park then to a zoo. We stayed in the Embassy suites, my favorite hotel-- well one of my favorite. The kids had a ball. It was neat seeing a cave as I have been teaching rocks. So it will be good to be able to go back into the class room and put some feeling back into rocks.|
|Why is it on some show and esp. on the national news-- if it is a southern-- they will get some hick with the worse accent ever and it makes southerns sound dumb. Believe me -- not everyone or even the majority talk that country hick sound. We may talk southern but not like it is relayed on t.v.|
|Well everyone in the world is either having a baby in the last two weeks or finding out they are pregnant. I know of four babies no 5 born in the last three weeks from today. Then I know two folks that just found out they are expecting. It is mostly teachers at school. We kid it is something in the water!|
| So what is up in mylife? I realized tonight that I do not write as much in my journal as some other gals and guys do. I don't know how they do it. I find I hold back for some unknown reason. I tend to write of trival things and not really get into my emotions.
So I am going to write down here ten things I am scared of. That's pretty emotional isn't it.
1. I am scared of losing my memory and mind when I get older.
2. I am scared of snakes. I hate to even see one on t.v
3. I am scared of people close to me dying and me not being able to accept it.
4. I am scared of not having enough money when I need it (like at Christmas time)
5. I am scared of critism (constructive or otherwise) I am more sensitive than I let on
6. I am scared of failing my boys in some way. I doubt it will ever happen. But I would think if they turned out the wrong way as adults-- it comes back to my parenting. I
just had a friend whose child has tried commiting sucide and having a difficult time in life. WHy?
7. I am scared being looked at as being unfriendly or unapproachable.
8. I am scared of of what others might think of me. This comes from low self esteem that I fight daily. I do not know why I have low self esteem. It puzzles me.
9. I am scared of getting fat or fatter.
10. I am scared of losing my relatively good health .
| Last night I dreamed that we were in a foreign country and did not understand the language well. It was a hostile country and my kids were kidnapped. The government kept telling me there was nothing they could do as the kids were more than likely out of the country by now to be sold as slaves or worse they may be dead. They said it happened alot in this country and I would never see them again. I woke up crying. I was thinking how much I wanted to tell my kids in the dream. Then when I woke up I felt such overwhelming love for them. I wanted to go wake them up to hug them but waited until this morning.
I guess with all the war and violence in the middle east along with me teaching about Squanto getting kidnapped and sent to Spain in 1620-- my dream kicked in. I am so glad it was not real
|I always figured hamsters weren't that bright. But my Oreo is smart. SHe is almost three already. (old age in hamster life) She reminds me of a kitten or puppy. She will stand up on her hind legs to get attention from you. She will squeak when she sees us sometimes. She loves to be held. She just seems to have a personality. SHe knows how to get out of some of her cages. ( she has several as I swap her around) SHe disappears for a day when she gets out then comes beat bopping out once she wakes up ( around 6 in the evening) Hamsters sleep alot in the day and play at night.|
|I would love to know the average sex married couples have in a week. My husband thinks we don't have it enough. I think we are over the mormal limit.|
|Quirky things about me. (makes me sound like a hypercontr-act (spelling) but it is all true.
1. I break out in hives daily. Heat, nerves and exercise set it off. I am allergic to something but have not pinned that part of it down even after 20 years of this.
2. When I am getting sick, as in needing an antibody-- My thumb starts acting up. First it starts itching. Over a few days, it gets red and dry and then gets fever in it. Weird. But I know from it when I am sick.
3. I get vertigo from eating cheese. This is the newest my quirks. I mean can't walk --eat dirt--type vertigo.
4. My tongue is geographically when i am sick or eat something sour.
5. I take allegra for my hives but now my body is having firbromyalia. CAUSE- allergra. Can't go without an antihistimine or I welt up in hives. So I walk around like an old lady stiff!!
6. Once I heard a radio station through the feelings in my teeth. I could feel the vibration too coming off the feeling onto my tongue. No I am not mental. It really happened.
Any of these quirky things ever happen to you or am I the only weird one!!!
4. I get
| So I am jumping on the band wagon. Here are 25 things about me you may not have known.
1. I grew up on a farm in Alabama.
2. I get vertigo every time I eat cheese. I mean the kind of dizzy where I have to go to the Emergency Room..
3. I teach school at the same exact school I attended from k-12th grade.
4. I am remodeling my house. It should be finished next week.
5. My favorite food is catfish. I loveeeeeee it.
6. I am a clean freak but my house is messy. It drives me insane.
7. I do not like talking on the phone.
8. I prefer to be home alone than go out.
9. My like to garden.
10. I was saved at 13 but did not get baptized until I was in my twenties.
11. I enjoy taking long hot baths as relaxation.
12. I read SOAP opera magazine to keep up with my favorite soaps .
13. My favorite flower is a tulip. I just planted some bulbs and am looking forward to seeing them bloom.
14. Growing up, I loved to go out in the pasture and talk to our cows.
15. I love to sleep late but hardly ever get too.
16. I wish I could sing, but I can't sing a lick.
17. I want to start taking up photography.
18.I love the beach. I also love going to the mountains. Anywhere there is nature and I feel close to God.
19.I saved a little baby's life once from choking and got an article written in the newspaper about it.
20. My favorite day of the week is Saturday because I get to sleep late and it is a day off.
21. I am a about 25 to 30 pounds overweight.
22. I am addicted to colas!!! (COKE< PEPSI
23. I have never done drugs nor cared to.
24. I am over sensitive to critism. I think I am better about this than I used to be.
25. I have and underactive thyroid.
| Much like how I felt when I wrote the camping out entry, I felt again tonight. You see it is very cold tonight. I went with my children on a short drive to Burger King. As I turned there he was with his dog walking somewhere. Last week I saw him at the trash dumpster around a small fire in a container trying to keep warm. Tonight I wondered where he was going. Was he going to the homeless shelter over three or four miles away in the next town? Maybe not because his dog might not be allowed there. Was he going to the bridge where homeless folks are known to frequent? He was walking fast and his dog too. They did not seem troubled but more like happy. After we left, I thought of going to find him and giving him a couple of bucks but then I got scared.
We started for home and already he was at the Walgreens more than a mile or two from where I last saw him only ten minutes ago. I wondered if he was going in there as it is a 24 hour store and one of the few still open.
It is down in the twenties after mild weather the last few weeks. It is a great extreme for any body to take. I feel for him. I see him every where. He and his dog are all over town. Usually he has a sign asking for work for food. The dog used to be kind of skinny but seems fatter now. I think next time I see them I am going to give him something (food or money).
|We have been adding on a new den. It should be done in 2 weeks. I am so excited as we need the room. I am thinking about the colors that I am going to use. I think I am going with a brick red with beige. It is so warm and I have been admiring it in a lot of rooms I see. I already have the beige and green thing going on. It won't be hard to blend that in with my color scheme now.|
| Last year a few days after Christmas, we went to the campsite and camped with our family up from Florida. Turned out to be a very cold night but fun. I was so cold and there was frost on the tent the next morning. I had not been back camping since. My boys and hubby go often but not me. But for the New Year's Eve I went and met up with everyone who had been out there already a day and a half. It wasn't too cold and I had a great time. Just what my body needed. Down time. But the whole time as we were roughing it-- I thought of the folks in Thailand. I got to come home to my shower today. They do not. On top of that as we went through a Burger King drivein on the way home-- I look over next door near a Dumpster and see a homeless lady. That is rare to even see in our town so it threw me a loop. I am so blessed to have all I have.
We have a camp site on my hubby's folks property near their lake. It is like a little hollow in a hill overlooking the lake. We leave the tents there and have it set up with hammlets, and a nice campfire pit. We used to leave a lot of equipment in the tents but it got stolen last time. So we store it up at the big house. The kids all have their fout wheelers and ride most of the day in and out of the camp. At night we can hear the coyotes all around. Makes me think of the pioneers. Last night as I lay in the tent, I was very warm and content and thought this must be how it felt to be and Indian wife. I thought of buffalo skins for blankets and was glad for my Coleman sleeping bags. I was also glad to have an eggshell on the tent floor. As we listened to the fire crackle most of the night, I thought of the energy it has taken us to keep it fed. How hard it must have been for the Indians. We actually have abundant firewood as there are a lot of dead trees already fallen in the woods and we merely had to chop those up. Yet it gets old having to take turns at night to make sure it is still burning with a log on it.
I thought of how it was fun to cook all our meals over the open fire, but it took a long time. Yet we bonded more as family because we hung out around the fire as we cooked and kept warm. We had about 12 of us bringing in the New Year. It was one of the best New Year's I have ever had. No drinking as we mostly had kids with us and only a few adults. We did take out the pocket t.v. at 11:53 and watch Times Square. We drank sparkling cider and it was fun. At one we did it again as some of our cousins there are on Central time and we are on Eastern. I was glad to have a good New Year's as I was so sick at Christmas. Today we all slept til around 9:15 . I lay awake in the tent another hour or so and enjoyed the warmth and sounds around me. I am glad my boys are older so I can do that now. In fact my little one ventured on to his grandmother's house across the lake for a more heartsome breakfast of pancakes and bacon. We had the works too but there is something about pancakes at grandmother's that one can not resist. My oldest had his asthma acting up actually went after midnight from the camp to her house to sleep as he felt stuffy in the woods. He has a of allergies. But he was back at the site early. Didn't want to miss out on any fun. Good thing is that if we need grandmother's house, we can go up there as most of the kids do all day. But us adults usually rough it on out.
|Most of you have heard the joke that if you are seeing someone else they call the other person Jodie or Julie depending on the gender. Well my husband calls writing.com Jodie because I am always on it. He is so funny! He always asks me "How is Jodie?' after I get offline. He used to check up on me I think because he didn't know what this site was. Now he knows it is just my writing site that i love.|
|Thank you to the unknown person who sent me the customicon. You are so kind.|
|Family is camping --- House is quiet. I love it. I have gotten a lot done and now have time to come onto my favorite site in the world. Funny how you can get so much done with everyone gone from home. Don't know what it is.. They are so good and not that demanding. It is just I have more motivation to work in solitude-- Strange.|
| I am indeed a lucky or rather blessed person. You see I have had a beautiful life and I know I will continue to do so. I read about such horrible childhoods and talk to people with a lot of problems.
In fact today I have been rather reflective. It is the little memories that I love to remember. And the joys of today I love to treasure.
Today I went home. I mean to my home where my parents live and I grew up at. I love the country and my boys and I love to go out there and I love to show them all the farm and my stomping grounds. I shudder to think one day it may not be in the family. I pray I am old and dead before that ever happens. As this is the one piece of earth that is mine. It is my identity. It is strange but true. I look at the fields and the trees and the dirt and I think of when I last walked in those woods or over in that pasture. Or when I climbed that tree last. I miss those carefree days. I am trying to relive them some with my boys. In fact they went camping for a couple of days with my hubby but it is just too cold for me to camp in the winter. MY aches can not bear it and I remember I am getting old.
I thought today of how I used to play a lot out of doors. We played in barns, in mud holes, in gardens,, oh such the life.
My parents blessed me and still do to this day. I am sadden as I see them age now. Both have fought fatal illnesses... hopefully to overcome the latest. My mom has heart failure. But yet I do not see them as old. They are young and vibrant in my mind's eye. I hate when my mother tells me she is getting old.
My days sometimes find me sad but then I must think glad. For happy should be my days as I have been blessed and I will continue to live happy moments. When my hormones want to take over and depression lifts its ugly head --- I will snare back>> I work with too many grumpy people and I will not be one of them. I stay happy. I work at it but I stay happy mostly because my life is good and that is how it should be so. Why be grumpy when I am blessed so....