by Soul sister
Ok so I am addicted...
|I am addicted to this site. My housework gets overlooked. My finger are asleep as I surf hour after hour. I tell my kids, "Go play" so that I can read and write more. I can not stay away from my site. But hey, I know I am not the only Writing.com junkie!!!|
| Well I had a terrible Christmas. I had a virus. It was not fun. Well Christmas Eve we went to hubby's aunt for the annual too-do. My little one started throwing up.
We came home around 9 or so. (early) Well he kept throwing up and Santa didn't get done until around 3 in the morning. Well 3:30 I started throwing up. Lucky the little one had settled down by then. Well I threw up for 18 hours. My little one was still pretty sick too. Hubby and my oldest had to go do family rounds without us. I was in and out of passing out -- I was really sick. I remember hubby saying that the little one (6 years old) was sleeping -- then hubbby left. 3 hours later after waking up sick again -- I run in the den and he is curled up in a little ball on the floor - under his cover. He slept most of day and was not throwing up like I was. He did enjoy his Santa with brother- but not really much until the day after Christmas. That day I was still in bed from weakness. I haven't been that sick in decades. Thing is about 15 folks from both sides of our family got this thing-- including my hubby and older son after Christmas. It was nasty. I opened my presents after Christmsas. Now I miss that I did not get to see all my family. I am going to go visit all of them tomorrow. Makes me appreciate the holiday cheer more. I hope that never happens again.
|I dreamed I accidentally deleted a lot of my port. Then I was so depressed as I tried to get it back. I woke up and still had this feeling of forlorn. Thank goodness it isn't so. It all has such sentimental value. Strange, but true.|
| I have been going from one project to another. We make several gifts in our family. I decided to make my niece a
creative memories photo scrap book. I just finished it.
Then I am working on a shadow box for my father in law about the army. Then I am still painting 5 desks for various kids. I got a deal on them at school and am repainting them and then filling them with art supplies.
Then I have been wrapping presents and cleaning. Of course you can't tell I have cleaned much but I have. That is what is so depressing. It is so hard t keep clean. My family has been helping out some today.
I am also detoxing my body. I actually have no choice as I have allergies to the max and then fibromyalia on top. SO I am eatting nothing but fruits and vegetables and trying to drink water to clean out my system. I feel kind of weak from it but they say that is to be expected. I figured while I am out of work this is a good time to give
it a go. Even if it is Christmas week and I don't have time to feel bad-- but heck I was feeling bad anyway with all the symptoms of allergy and all.
Last night I woke up and was so stiff like an old lady that I had a flash of being glued to the wall. NOw that is sad as I am only in my 30's. Thing is the other day when I was off antihistmines -- I felt great. I think they are causing me to ache so bad--- but if I don't take them I get hives and have intense allergies. (Swelling in face and throat) I don't know yet what I am allerigic tooo. I have always gotten hives with heat but that is not what I am allergic too. WEIRD.
| So I had a allergic reaction to something last night and my lips swelled up 5 times . They did not look like lips anymore. Weird. My throat was ok though. I went to doctor today and he put me back on Allegra. I already have hives and take Allegra when I need it but now I have to take it everyday. Only thing is I am aching like a old woman (fibromyalia) with Allegra. I have such quirky things happen to me. I mean really. I get dizzy from eating Velvetta. I mean so dizzy I have to go to the ER
Then there is my thumb. I get sick and then my fever gets all red and scaly and gets a fever in it. In fact I can tell when I am getting sick because my thumb acts up. How weird is that??
I thinK my body is needing some kind of detox fast or something. IT is weird. I am going to eat lots of vegs and fruits. They say that is the best for toxins in your body.
|I love to read. The thing is I haven't found a good book to read lately. I mean the kind you just can't put down and you spend all day reading. Anyone got a good one to tell me about??|
|5 more days and I have finished. I am so tired of shopping. I think I won't go in a store for a while.|
|Today I was pssing by my youngest son as he stood on the couch watching television. Just seeing his stance brought back memories of how cars used to not have seat belts. Most cars were bench type seating and us kids would stand to kind of brace ourselves and to be able to see out the windows. This was in the late 60's and early 70's . I remember sitting in a car seat more for convenience than safety as a 1 or 2 year old. It was the kind that had these hooks on the back that went over the seat to hold the seat in place. Hardly safe! I remember some of our cars did not have seat belts. Then when they starting coming with them, we didn't think anything of not wearing them. HORROR! Today-- I wouldn't dream of not making my kids or myself wear a seatbelt. My how times change.|
| Well since I wrote last-- the snow thing is out of the picture. Oh well. Maybe next week or the next. It did snow two years ago Jan. 3 or 4. I remember it was when we were due back to be at school.
Had a party today for a one year old. Rather I went to a party. It was fun to see her eat cake.
I am having trouble with my fibromyalia or however you spell it. Flares up this time of year and I just hurt all over and am so drained. I feel like I am about 90 or like I have the flu in all my muscles. It is really bad in my knees. I guess I should try to see a doctor about it as my symptoms are worse. I haven' t seen a doctor for that in about a year and a half. It is non life threatening just a pain (literlally) to live with.
| I live in Alabama about 2 hours below Atlanta. We get snow about every 3-4 years if we are lucky.. It may snow this weekend. They always say a chance of flurries but don't nothing will stick--- but it does. That has happened 2 or 3 times. I think thay just don't want to get our hopes up. Even my 10 year old when he heard the weather man say " Only flurries .." said, " That's what they said last time and it snowed alot!"
My first time seeing snow was once when it snowed 3feet which is unheard of around here. They were not expecting it and we rode the bus. By the time we got to school ( and hour and a half ride) there was snow on the ground. I remember getting off the bus ( At the school I teach at now) and walking across the snow. Then in our first grade room we stood in chairs and watched it fall for a couple of hours before they sent us back home. By the time we got home it was already up to my knees. I told my students exactly the classroom and how it looked on the playground -- just as it happened yesterday. It is neat remembering things when you teach at the school you attended. The funny thing was my cousins lived in Atlanta and used to always get snow and brag. They did not get snow that time and couldn't believe it. They came and played with us for the week. It was a fun time in my life. Sledding and snowmen and icees. My poor sister growning up everytime it snowed she was sick and couldn't go out. Once she had stitches-- then next time it was chicken poxes and then the flu. It is a joke to this day that when it snows we say Jenn is going to be sick. She didn't play in the snow until she was in middle school and even then I think she had an ear infection but Mom said it was ok as long as seh felt like it she could play.
|So you saw my title and were hooked. Yeah-- well I am a sex kitten. But only with one!! My hubby! But isn't it funny how if we see sex-- we are hooked. I know I am. I have to check it out. I bet that is what brought you here too. You had to check out my port because it said sex kitten. Didn't mean to trick you. Just making a point-- And hey I am a sex kitten sooooooo -- stay and check out my port. And while you are there give me some ratings will ya???|
|I have been online for hours. I have a dirty house- presents to wrap but yet i surf this site hours on end. I did this when I first joined and now and again I do it again. I love this site. Thanks to all my online friends at writing.com. You rock!|
|I never make more than one entry a day. But I am in a writing mood. I think I need to work on my book. But I need to wrap Christmas presents and I need to do the wash. I am not very motivated to do any of the latter. My hubby has gone to a funeral out of town. I would have gone but it was just too hard to be off work and with the kids and all. There is no one to take care of them as all relatives able are going to the funeral. My mom is not able anymore and my sister is just too busy with her own. So I hope I do not have a stupid dream since hubby is gone. I dreamed last night I watched a plane crash over Lake Harding and the person was killed. I was in school as a teacher and had to tell the others. It was stupid. I try to figure out the meaning of dreams but I don't know about that one except maybe the fear of losing someone close to death or something. I do feel that at times.. esp with mom being sick lately.|
| I have been thinking a lot lately of how good I really have it in life. Ok well I had a great childhood and now I have a great life with my husband and kids. So -- why sometimes even with my great life I can remember things in my life and it bothers me. Well I don't think it bothers me but then I dream of it or I have a flashback and bam I am sad. I can not get over it. It makes me think now of all these folks who have it a lot worse than me--- are they so sad?? I don't think they all are. I guess it is how you handle things. I think I handled all the bad in my life good but it still is some pain.
Ok well here is one. My husband and I have been together 20 years. There was a 3 week period when we were dating that we were broke up. It was a mutual thing and we both hurt while apart. Thing is I can remember how sad
I was. I was in college and I remember sitting in the library between classes and watching him leave in the parking lot. There was an upstairs window I would sit at and study in front of. It killed me to see him going home and me not going out to see him. I was so sad a few days. I was determined not to make any contact with him to let him miss me. It worked. Fast forward-- we made up and have been inseparately since and it was a teen thing at the time. So why do I still dream of it sometimes and it is like reliving it. Whenever I am not feeling close to my hubby as like he is out of town or we haven' had a chance to commuinicate as a couple should-- I have these stupid dreams. I dream of being with my family or a close friend and then thinking
" Oh I haven't seen C in years>" Then I dream of our breakup and how we never see each other again and I need to go see him. I dream of going to his house and picking up like old times. Now this is almost like a dream of what might have been if we had not gotten back together. I guess it is so corny. I just have to make sure I talk to my hubby and he laughs at my silly dreams. But he always makes me feel better. I just hope I will not be a 85 year old alzemiers patient and all I remember is a sad time in my life. Gosh there have been a million happy times in my life. Why do I get fixed on the few sad ones. It is strange indeed!!
| Sorry I haven't written in awhile. My life is busy as always. I went shopping again today and promised myself I will be finished by this time next year. I mean it. I can not stand the crowds. I am too impatient.
Kids are at Grandmothers so means hubby and I will have some romance tonight. Its hard to have romance when the kids are here. Just not the same ya know.
One more week of school. My class is has been super cool this year. There are only 14 kids so it has been great. But on top of that they are a quiet bunch.
I love my teaching job but I have been thinking I would like to do something else in the next few years . Maybe educational seminars. I would like retail too. I would love to work in a bookstore. It would rock. I would love to work as a desk clerk in a quiet office where I could just do nothing but answer phones. I know the money isn't great-- but I envy people who have those quiet jobs where they don't have to interact with many people. Of course it might drive me insance in a day of two.
I just know my job is so giving and demanding. I am on my feet all day and giving alot of myself. Then I am having to bring alot home. They do not pay teachers enough. Enough of that!
| I clean and clean. So I finally set down the law. Every family member puts in one hour a day of house cleaning until this house looks decent. This is the third day and things look better already. I even had the 6 year old doing clothes. But I am tired of working and it still looks like a wreck around here.
I have been spending more time reading and writing now too with some time not having so much cleaning on my own to do. I still am putting in 2-3 hours a day on cleaning. I don't know why we can't get it together.
I talked to a friend today and she told me about an out of body experience she had as a child. She was praying at a summer camp and fell out ( in spirit) She said she wasn't even trying. She just had gone up to the altar to pray for a friend and next thing she knew she was in Heaven talking with Jesus. She was in a field talking to a dead granny she barely knew from life and a pet. It was beautiful and peaceful and Jesus was showing her around. She then came back and was very cold. The camp counselors said that summer they had a lot of kids that day go into the spirit. ( and later that summer) My friend said she was only 9 but remembers it so clearly. She didn't want to come back but Jesus told her she needed to come back and live. Isn't that amazing? My friend said she has always had this peaceful feeling since and can't wait to go there again in death. I have known her a couple of years but she just told me this now because she thought I might think she was crazy. Actually I think it was pretty special!!!
|I used to love the Christmas season. I still love what it represents. (Christ's birth) But I hate shopping and all the stress of spending money that I do not really have. I hate crowds. Today was Black Friday. I used to always go out shopping but now crowds get to me. I did venture into Walmart but it was late. I know I need to think positive. I guess I am in a little funk. I am glad I have my my kids to help me enjoy Christmas more.|
| Yeah -- I know I haven't made a journal entry in awhile. But I have been on-site most everyday. I just haven' had as much time to devote to writing as I would like. I wish I led a life of pure leisure so I could spend a lot of time writing. I really want that but right now my life doesn't allow much time for it.
Things are great other than that. My mom has been sick. She has Pulmory hypertension which is a very serious heart problem. I have been very upset over that but she does seem better. My kids are getting so big. Today we made out lists. Dalton wants everything. He even wants a snow sled in case it snows which is only usually about once every 3 or 4 years.. Kaleb is growing up. He picked out lots of teen stuff. Makes me kinda sad! He is getting all grown up!
| So I have been here over three years now and get read alot in my journal. Yet it hardly ever gets rated. I guess people don't rate journals as much. Anyway I finnally got up to 11.
Back in school - teaching. Having a great year. I will go into detail later about my class. I am so sleepy now that I am about to fall asleep typing. Yeah and I think I could type in my sleep as I write and type so much!
|My writing juices have started. I have written some and feel such a powerful high!!|
| I need some help from some online friends. Ok I am ready to write something longer. Trouble is I can not decide. Here are some of the things in my head. One is to write a historical novel. Either a royalty type one or 1800's western style.
I also have in my mind a teacher's or parent's resource book on improving children's school grades. It would be kind of like a workbook type of thing.
I also have some childrens' books in my head. |
I want to write them all. I just can't get started on which one to start first. Which sounds interesting?