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Rated: E · Book · Emotional · #2093535

One man's journey to find the way home

          I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from.
          After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit.
          I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY?
          Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation....
WELCOME!!
October 4, 2019 at 11:05am
October 4, 2019 at 11:05am
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A month and one half and I am quite depressed. Money does not solve any problems!! I am working too hard to feel awful. As of today I have close to 38,000 dollars wit three months to go, but I am no feeling it. I am tired and wrung out. God give me strength. A part of the problem is my wife's ongoing malaise. She had an awful dream about an elevator of all things. 1300 dollars comes in handy and yet it has really made me feel weird inside. God be with me to help me understand. Who will be there for me is the title my next sermon and this blog takes me at the cross of what that feels like. How do I get off the cross, without ripping the nails thru my skin. God be with me as you were with Jesus.


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