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** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** "This is pretty much what journals are all about, at least to me. I knew as I wrote them that even though they provided an excellent place for brain (and heart, and psyche) dump, they were mainly a map of me." --- Colleen Wainwright "Writing gives you the illusion of control, and then you realize it's just an illusion, that people are going to bring their own stuff into it." --- David Sedaris "Please write again soon. Though my own life is filled with activity, letters encourage momentary escape into others lives and I come back to my own with greater contentment." --- Elizabeth Forsythe Hailey "In giving of myself onto these pages every day I allow myself to write regardless of the depth and meaning. I share myself with others without fear of recrimination for these are my thoughts, my feelings and my very being, and there are non who's opinion of me matters more than my own." --- Rebecca Laffar-Smith   The Writer's Round-About |
| Procrastination, again... I COULD be writing but I keep wanting to do anything else. ANYTHING ELSE. There isn't even a reason why I don't want to write. It's not painful, I'm not blocked, I have topics I could write about, lots of them, it's just any time I start thinking I should write I get this niggle. Do you get that niggle too? That whining little voice that says, "But..." "wouldn't you rather play The Sims?" "wouldn't you rather watch a movie?" "shouldn't you rotate the laundry?" "you'd do better to go for a walk while it's not raining." "if you want to lose weight you should spend 30 minutes dancing instead." "you still haven't finished reading that library book."... It's hard not to listen to that voice. I want to give into it. I don't understand why I want to not write more than I want to write. I know how much I'll hurt, how I'll hate myself, how I'll regret hours wasted, how I'll feel guilty and horrible if I don't write and yet at this moment, not writing feels safer, better, more comforting. Life passes in these circles. So many of my writing projects could be finished if I didn't keep slamming into this wall every time I think about beginning them. Every time I sit at the keys. Every time I start letting my mind wander on where I want to go. Every time I THINK TOO MUCH! I know how easy it is if I DON'T THINK! If I could cut my brain out and just act. Don't think about writing just write. Don't think about sitting down to write just start writing. It's the mind, those evil insiduous thoughts that put walls up before my goals. Those thoughts, this mind that wanders too much, that conspires against me. Why does it do that? Why can't my body, mind, spirit, all work together to accomplish what is best for me? Even when I'm writing, like I'm writing right now, I've forcing myself to be here. My mind is still spinning through my head telling me all I could be doing instead. All I should be doing. All I'll be doing if I just stop, now. I have to force myself to finish. This is why writing gets painful. It's not the words, the story, it's not the pain of telling a tale or the agony of not knowing my characters. When I'm there, writing it, living it the whole thing is laid out before me and I just write it down. It's the thinking about it that trips me up. How can I get my HEAD out of my writing? I just want to write. |
| [Authors Note: For all those Australia-challenged readers I mean 'cellphone' or some other yanky term. Yeah, get over it, I'll always call it a mobile phone. It's a phone, that is mobile. DUH!] Two of my mobile phones ringtones have become corrupted... I've no idea why but for the past few days I've been not hearing my phone ring because it's ringtone doesn't work. Today, after yet another missed text message, and after only realizing my phone was ringing because of the static coming through my desktop speakers I decided to check it out. What could have caused a corrupted file on my phone? Does it have a nasty bug? Did it catch the flu when it got rained on recently? Did deleting a few of the crappy ring tones that came with the phone make the remaining tones lonely or something? I only deleted a few and only because I kept running out of space on my phone. I don't understand that either. I mean I clear out my messages regularly (about as often as it tells me I'm running out of room) and while I have kept a couple I usually clear most of them and yet, each time it seems like I have less and less room. What is it that takes up all that space? Does it have internet caches of my email from when I've WAP enabled to check my gmail account? The phone is quite old by today's standards. I bought it about two years ago. *ponders* Actually perhaps it's more like three years ago. *ponders* No it must be only two because I'm pretty sure I got it after my ex left because it's all in my own name and I remember being concerned they might turn me down because of a lack of credit history. Even at two years old it's pretty much considered a dinosaur because of the way technology moves. It's got most of the latest gadgets, WAP, MMS, SMS, Email, Camera, etc. Alas, it's only got three ring tones now only one of which still actually work but it's not been dropped in a toilet, or lobbed off a boat, or run over with a forklift (yes, three things friends have done to their phones in the past). Anyway, two things have gone wrong with it so far and I'm holding out for the third. Perhaps it'll be something dramatic enough for me to decide it's time to upgrade. I've been on my contract long enough that my service provider would probably offer a free trade in if I asked. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother having a mobile phone. Then I remind myself it's because I never use my home phone. *chuckles* I hate calling people, I hate talking to people. SMS was the greatest invention ever! Phone calls conducted entirely in text. A writers dream!  |
| Hands up if you're ever attempted to toilet train a three year old boy... Ok, well, if you HAD attempted this miraculous feat you might understand my present dilemma. I'm busting, bladder-bulging kind of busting for the loo (a pommy [English] term for lavatory or toilet that Australians sometimes steal). Alas, there is NO TOILET PAPER!!! Because some little brat seems to think every toileting occasion calls for the use of an entire roll. I, in my usual budget conscious unpreparedness didn't think to buy extra this week and the last roll disappeared in the murky waters early this afternoon. With no car and stormy weather outside I was not about to venture out with two children (despite their desire to jump in puddles) to go get some. I mean in this rain the stuff would be soggy and useless by the time we got it home. An hour in the gusting wind and rain trying to keep both kids from running under cars in their desire to make the biggest splash was not my idea of fun. Of course, that's a decision I'm swiftly coming to regret now it's bed time and my neithers are conspiring against me. If I were a guy I could get away with a good shake but those of the female persuasion, such as myself, have to resort to alternate means. You know, I never understood how hard it would be to toilet train a boy. How do other mothers do it? If he'd had a male role model around it would be easier. But he's never seen someone stand up to pee. All his nearest family are female. We're all squatters. So, he always squats and he wipes and doesn't shake. I can't seem to get a grip on the explaination or charades actions required to instill the stand and squirt concept into my toddler. *chuckles* I just had the idea of googling up some images of guys squeezing the weeze as teaching aids. lol No, I think I'm not THAT desperate, yet... Anyway, off to use a tissue and then hopefully I can sleep without having an accident. |
*ponders* This list was surprisingly challenging to make. Do you have a list of your own? [Notes: Credit goes to ♥~HermyKitteh~♥  for the idea.}1. Raise my beautiful kids to adulthood. - I'd like to do a good job of it too, with children who are happy, healthy and confident, make friends easily, hold down a job they love, marry for love but not too early, have children [after they're married], own their own home, and graduate with a good education. 2. Be happy and healthy in my old age so I can enjoy my grandchildren. - I guess this one kind of goes along with raising my kids. I'd like to live to an age where I can enjoy them in my dotage. Of course, this one I don't have much control over so perhaps it's not something I want to "DO" so much. 3. Write and have published multiple books that readers adore. - More specifically fantasy novels. But perhaps I'll release a poetry book or two and a couple of non-fiction books as well. Of course, the first of these books will be The Flight of Torque.  4. Do at least one book tour, preferrably one for every book. - I love the idea of travelling around the country or even the world promoting my books, doing live readings, book signings, smiling at press, and trying to ignore all the protestors. 5. Travel - particularly to the US and Ireland. - The two places I've most wanted to visit. I've grown to love my home country. There is no place like it. By my genetic history and roots are in Ireland. I'd love the opportunity to experience that country and perhaps understand why I feel a kinship with it. I'd also love to visit and perhaps live in the US for a time, it seems like a fantastic opportunity for a writer and there are so many people there I truly care about. 6. Get a degree in English. - This is one of my most challenging "DO"s. I'd need to get my high school equivelency to even get into college and a Masters degree is not easy to get, especially since I went the family route first. Still, I'm determined it must be possible and I'm looking forward to the opportunity to study language and literature in depth. 7. Make at least a million dollars. - Preferrably by selling books. But I wouldn't go against winning the lotto either. Having lived pretty much all of my life here on the poverty line it would be nice to have enough in my bank to feel like I'm not scrimping for basics. 8. Buy a boat - and use it regularly to go fishing or cruising. - The connection to freedom and abundance has this image of a boat in my mind. I've always loved the water, I travel well on it and have a fascination for marine life. I love to go fishing, even if we catch nothing but don't get to do so very often and never have from a boat before (I've only been riverbank fishing). 9. Become a patron of the arts and attend multiple premier live theatre (ballet, plays, dance, comedy, etc.) - One of the things I'd love to invest in as a millionaire is 'the arts'. Particularly theatre. I'd like to sponsor poverty challenged dancers and actors to give them the opportunity to learn and succeed with their passion. And of course have the chance to watch these live performances as often as possible. I'd also like to develope a writers retreat, the sort of place people like me will be sponsored to attend. A place that does regular weekly, fortnightly, or even monthly events with cottages and an events center. Like a luxary resort, for writers who want to write and learn to write. 10. Learn multiple languages (italian, french, and spanish). - I've attempted to learn languages and always struggle a great deal. I've a passion for English so getting my head around the strange intricasies of other languages is daunting. Still, I've not given up. I want to learn these three languages. 11. Learn to play the violin, beautifully. - This one I've kind of put aside again. I've even been thinking of selling my violin because I just can't afford professional lessons and since I can't even TUNE the darn thing there is no point trying to teach myself how to play. 12. Learn to play the piano, with every intricate detail. - This one is waiting for me to be able to afford a REAL piano. I practice on the keyboard but I just can't get the hang of pressure on that thing. And I don't practice often enough either. I'm great at the songs I've learnt by heart but it's so hard to learn knew songs that I actually ENJOY playing. 13. Take my family on a long camping holiday to explore and survive in the wonders of nature. (Preferrably in Australia) - I had a similar opportunity when I was younger, with Dad taking his family and me south on an 8 day trip. We weren't camping however, as we had a fully furnished bus instead. It was fun and an experience I'll never forget. I want something similar for my kids, but with the lessons on how to survive in the outback to go with them, from navigating by sun or stars to knowing what's safe to eat and how to get water etc. 14. Have a 'fairytale' wedding (white dress, seats, big fancy reception and all [perhaps even period fashions and medieval theme]) - Well I'm a girl, got to make sure I have a truly girly fantasy don't I? Yes, someday I'd really love to have a fairytale wedding. I know, something for the wish list that might never come to pass but there's no point not having it on my list. 15. Make love in the ocean. - Something I've not done but read about. It SOUNDS fantastic, to be part of the sea and my partner. So *blushes* Yeah... There you go 15 things. I could probably think of more but I'm already running late for getting my daughter to school. OPPS!!! *runs* |
| My blog is so old that I'm pretty sure in it's earlier entries there is mention of my attending weight watchers. I really loved going to meetings each week and while it was a struggle with tears and triumphs I felt great about myself and knew I was creating a healthier, happier me. In the six months I attended I lost 15kgs (33 pounds), was only 3kgs away from goal weight and felt fantastic. I even managed to fit into a dress I hadn't worn since I was 16 to attend my father's wedding in March. Shortly after that however my mother (and weight loss partner) started working night shifts and we could no longer manage to attend the weekly meeting. We thought we'd go it alone. After all, we'd learnt all the tips and rules and knew what we were doing. We did pretty well for a couple of months but in the year and a half since we stopped getting together to work out and I stopped tracking and then started eating things I knew wouldn't help me stay fit etc. It all stacked back on with an extra 10kgs. But last week I finally reached the point where enough was enough. I needed to give myself a kick up the butt. Not only could I not realistically afford to keep giving in and buying take away dinners and splurging on junk food binges I had to get back on track or I'd have to buy a whole new wardrobe. I've never been particularly confident of my figure at the best of times but things were swiftly going down hill. I certainly didn't want to wake up some day and discover that I was peeing in a plastic bottle and so large I couldn't fit out the front door. Ok, so things weren't really THAT drastic but I knew if I kept doing what I was doing it wouldn't take more than a couple of years for me to get there. Anyway, I splurged when I really shouldn't and recommitted myself to Weight Watchers. My mother is still working night shifts so I'm doing it alone this time and opted for the online option since I can't get to the weekly meeting. It's a challenge but again, I've only been back on track for a week. I'm having to remember what's good for me and what isn't and relearn how to avoid the temptations of sweets and junk. Take away still looks so tempting and it's so much easier than having to cook. But no, I stand firm and I stocked up on frozen dinners and easy to prepare meals and preprepared a few others so that when exhaustion or illness strike me down I won't need to order Dominos. So, back to walking every day. Back to behaving when it comes to food options. Back to keeping track of what I eat and thinking ahead for what I'll prepare at meal times. Back to drinking plenty of water. Back on the road to a happier, healthier me. |
| ... even if it's just this blog. I've actually been feeling good lately but a bit at a loose end. I could get some housework done I suppose but more often than not I'll procrastinate thinking, I could spend time at the computer to write but of course, I've not been writing, video games and repeated email and web site checking happens instead and ultimately the day passes with nothing productive accomplished. So, in the hopes of starting me back on track I've decided to return to daily blogging here. I make no promises that anything interesting will come up. I just need the commitment of daily writing and this seemed as good a place as any. I know I had planned to make The Writer's Round About a regular event but the challenge of writing something with a 'writing' topic AND sounding professional doing it slammed me into multiple writer's blocks. Fingers crossed, the action of daily writing will inspire me to return to that blog too. It's strange to realize how very important it is for a write to write, every day. It's amazing how flaccid I feel when I reach the end of the day having written nothing. Often it's right about 10PMish that I get an urge to get some work done and it's frustrating that I can't take advantage of that. But, as a single mother I just CAN'T write all hours of the night and expect to be functional the next day. So, I tell myself at 10PM that I'll sit down at 10AM and write. But of course, my mind isn't in touch with writing at 10AM, it's still habitually calling at 10PM. I guess this is just a case of having to retrain that habit. Get my mind and body used to being called on to write at 10AM each day. And then I'll throw that about with days when I can't write at 10AM. *chuckles* Thus goes the endless rollercoaster. *sighs* I’ve no idea what I’ll write about each day. I guess that’s part of the surprise. I do have a file full of prompting ideas so if I having nothing to write about I could resort to that. I know I’ve accomplished daily writing in the past, this blog has at least one entirely blue month somewhere back there. So it’s doable.Of course, my commitment isn’t just for writing every day here, it’s for 500 words. *sighs* This makes it a little more challenging but also more realistic. What’s the point of saying I’ll write every day if I can let myself get away with putting a single word in the entry? Do you commit to writing every day? Does it help you keep writing and inspire you to write on various other projects? What do you write about? *sighs* I need a plan that works. I’ve tried scheduling and task lists but ultimately they only work for a week or two while I’m sticking to it. My willpower is shocking. I guess it comes down to deciding to change. I can’t keep doing what I’ve always done because it’s getting me nowhere. So, here’s to change! |
| I've been wanting to post a blog entry for ages now but could never really think of anything to write about. Thanks to the beautiful ♥~HermyKitteh~♥ I've been giving the perfect torture for you all. (001) Your gender: Female (002) Straight/gay/bi?: Bi (003) Single?: Physically yes, emotionally no. (004) Want to be?: No I don't want to be single. I'd rather traverse oceans and be with my trid. (005) Age?: 25 *grimaces* Gosh that number keeps creaping up. *frowns* (006) Age you wish you were?: I don't mind being 25 really, I just don't like how each year I have to add one. (007) Your label?: *frowns* What's a label? (008) Your height?: 5'2" (shorty) (009) Your eye color?: Blue (010) Any piercings?: Ears. (011) Any tattoos?: No DO YOU... (012) Smoke: Not since I was 15. (013) Drink: These days I tend to avoid alcohol. I LIKE to drink, especially red wine or vodka cruisers BUT... alcohol always affects my bipolar so I completely avoid drinking now. (014) Do drugs: No, I tried marajuana (sp?) when I was 14 with no effect so I haven't bothered since. I don't see the point. Reality is enough of a trip. (015) Read the newspaper: Rarely (016) Talk to strangers who IM you: It depends how they address me. Most of the time they'll get a brush of since generally people who IM me out of the blue are only interested in getting laid. (017) Like to walk in the leaves: Um... Maybe this is some deciduous tradition. We don't have many trees here that dump piles of leaves everywhere so the opportunity for playing in leaves isn't there. Still, I don't think I'd be too keen on it anyway, leaves = bugs to me. *shudders* (018) Take walks in the rain: Frequently *chuckles* Sometimes it's because I don't have a choice, other times because I've taken the kids out to jump in puddles. Rain is wonderful and cozy fires and hot chocolate after is even better. (019) Drive: Yes and these days I rather enjoy driving. That feeling of getting away from my normal day to day life even if it's just a short trip. I don't have a car however so I don't get to drive very often. (020) Like to drive fast?: Nope, I'm a strictly speed limit kind of girl. Cars are dangerous enough without risking lives going even faster than legally recommended. (021) Hurt yourself: Probably, who hasn't accidentally bashed their knee into something at some point? But I've never hurt myself just to feel pain. (022) Have a job: Self Employed, Freelance copy writer/editor. (023) Like who you are: On a good day. (024) Consider love a mistake: I've gone through stages when I DID think loving was a mistake. At the moment, although it aches tremendously to be so far away from the man I love I don't regret loving and I'd never give up the love I have for my family. (025) Base your judgement on looks alone: No. (026) Do you like/love someone?: Well DUH! HAVE YOU EVER... (027) Been caught doing some thing your weren't supposed to be doing?: Actually I haven't. Been caught that is. (028) Been in love: Ok, get over it already. Too many love questions that all equal the same answer. YES! (029) Done drugs: Opps, I answered this one earlier too. Yes, when I was 14. (030) Gone skinny dipping: No, I'm not confident enough in my body to do that, yet... (031) Had a surgery: Yes, when I was a child. (032) Ran away from home: No, but I moved out when I was very young. (033) Played strip poker: Alas, no although I would. (034) Gotten beat up: No (035) Been on stage: Yes, school play. But hated it. (036) Slept outdoors: Yes, used to tent it sometimes, slept on the trampoline a couple of times in the past too. Only when it's very warm.(037) Pulled an all-nighter: *chuckles* Often. (038) Talked on the phone all night: Yes I have. (039) Had an X-ray: Yes, dental x-rays. I don't think I've had any bones x-rayed however. Ultrasounds too which is kind of like an x-ray. (040) Had detention: Actually I don't think I ever did. *tries to remember* I can't be sure but I don't remember being in detention. Then again, that's probably because I was never 'caught' doing something wrong. (041) Been suspended: No (042) Been Expelled: No (043) Slept all day: Never ALL day but I do sometimes sleep on and off through the day if I'm sick. (044) Killed someone: Ok, does anyone admit to this in these things? Unless they've already served time I don't think they would. Still, I'm not withholding truth when I say that No, I've never killed anyone, yet... (045) Made out with a stranger: Alas No. One of the many wild adventurous things that just isn't something I could do. Strangers might have cooties. (046) Had sex with a stranger?: No. Sex should have an emotional attachment. You don't get this with a stranger. (047) Kissed the same sex: No (048) Done anything sexual with the same sex? Um... Does cyber sex count? (049) Been betrayed: Yes, is there anyone who hasn't? (050) Broken the law: Actually yes. I'm a goody two-shoes these days but in my youth I did a little shop lifting. (051) Been arrested: Never. (052) Been on radio/TV: I don't think so. My brother was on TV (news) when we were younger but I don't think I was included in that or in the magazine articles that went with it. (053) Been in a mosh-pit: No (054) Had a nervous breakdown: Daily. (055) Been criticized about your sexual performance: Yes (056) Had a dream that kept coming back: Yes (057) Seen your favorite band play: No. (058) Owned a pair of big sunglasses: No (059) Worn a huge hat: No (060) Judged other people by their clothing: Well, I'll sometimes cringe over someones clothing choice. Obese people wearing clothes that are sizes too small or teenagers showing their underwear etc. I guess that counts. (061) Been told you have good taste: No (062) Been romantically attracted to someone and physically unattracted?: Not yet. (063) Been used?: Probably. (064) Been in an abusive relationship?: Emotionally abusive, yes. That's why I dumped him. DO YOU BELIEVE IN... (065) Life on other planets: Yes! Only a complete egotist could believe that out of the billions of planets in the universe ours is the only one with life. (066) Miracles: Kinda and kinda not. I believe that miraculous things can happen but I also believe in fate so while it was remarkable it was all part of the cosmic plan. (067) Astrology: Yes. BUT... That doesn't mean all horoscopes are legitimate. They have to be done correctly. (068) Magic: I'm not sure. I'd like to believe in magic. I wish I could perform magic. I used to try and move things with my mind like Matilda but, alas, I can't and I've never seen magic so I struggle to believe it is real. (069) God: Depends on your definition of God. I believe there is a cosmic energy but I don't believe that some old guy with a beard sits up in the clouds casting lightning bolts and non-believers. (070) The Devil: Similar to God. I believe there is the darker reversal of cosmic energy, a way to go backwards to the lower planes of existance instead of ascending but I don't believe some guy with a pitch fork goes around burning people. (071) True Love: Yes, but not necessarily ONE right person for everyone. (072) Ghosts: Yes, I see dead people. (073) Rebirth: Yes, reincarnation. (074) Love at first sight: I don't know about that. I can believe in impulsive and instinctual awareness of each other and physical attraction. I think love is something that develops and deepens over time. (075) Ying and Yang?: Well, a sense of karma and balance yes. Is that what ying and yang is all about? (076) Witches: Well I believe in people who believe in Wicca which would be considered witches. Pagan ritualists which would also be witches. I don't know about broomstick flying black hat wearers however. (077) The Easter Bunny: No. I aint never found no eggs I didn't buy myself.  (078) Santa Clause: Um, same as The Easter Bunny. I have to buy the presents from Santa for my kids. LAST PERSON... (079) That you laughed at: At? Um... I don't remember. I had a chuckle when an online friend mentioned they were dancing and singing while baking but I wasn't laughing AT them. (080) That laughed at you: Don't remember this either. (081) That hurt you: Physically? Probably my cat. He's always digging his claws into me. Person... Um, baby boy might have trod on my foot this morning. Emotionally? Myself? Does that count? (081) That turned you on: My Trid but shhh don't tell him. (082) That kissed you: Baby Boy. (083) That hugged you: Baby Boy too. (084) That you went shopping with: Accompanied my mother clothes shopping the other day. Ohhh but I went shopping this morning and baby boy came with me. (085) To disappoint you: Um... My Trid. But it's not really his fault. Perhaps that means I disappointed me. *sighs* I just get disappointed because we're so far apart and I want to be with him NOW. Waiting sucks. (086) That made you cry: A person? Um... I can't remember the last person to make me cry but I've cried alot because of movies lately. (087) That brightened up your day: My kids are the LAST persons to brighten my day but My Trid always manages to when we talk. (088) You saw a movie with: Well baby boy is often around when I watch a movie but I'm not really watching it WITH him. Last person I did watch a movie 'with' was my mother. (089) You talked to on the phone: My sister, making plans for getting together tomorrow. (090) You talked to on text message: Probably my mother. 091) You talked to on IM: HERMI!!! ♥~HermyKitteh~♥ (092) That made you smile: Baby Boy. (093) That made you laugh: Hermione. (094) That saw you cry: Saw me? Um... I don't know. Might have been baby boy, he's around a lot. Maybe my mother. I tend not to cry when others can see me. (095) That bought you something: Myself. Others don't buy me things but I spoil myself occasionally. Prior that was probably my family for my birthday.(096) That danced with you: Baby boy again. *chuckles* Yesterday actually. (097) That you have a crush on: Oh Heath Ledger is single again! TOTALLY CRUSHABLE! THE WHATS... (098) What do you find romantic?: Time to just BE together. (099) What are your turn-on's?: A great sense of humor, a good laugh, a great smile, chocolate and imagination. (100) What are your turn-off's?: Too much kink, crassness, kids, and politics. (101) What is best about the opposite sex?: Um... Their attachments? The ability to change a cars oil? The way I can command them to kill spiders for me? (Sometimes I sound like a man-basher, I'm really not. Mostly.)(102) What is best about the same sex?: Women have fabulous bodies. Why can't a naked man look as beautiful as a naked woman? (103) What is the last present someone got you?: Um... I can't remember the last thing, that would have been for my birthday and not particularly memorable. But the last gift I got that WAS memorable is this beautiful dragon necklace, bunny earrings, and dragon goblets. (104) What makes you happy?: Loving and being loved; Hearing my baby boy talk or sing (Spiderman, spiderman); Seeing my daughter after a long day at school (soon, yay); Spending time out of the house; A wild thunderstorm; Spring sunshine, birds and butterflies; A great love story (book or movie); The final page of a fantastic novel; LOTS OF THINGS!!! (105) What is your B-day?: June 5th (106) What is your favorite movie?: Um... Um... I can't pick a favorite. I love lots. I've got a thing for movies based on books lately. (107) What is your favorite band?: Yes, I'm with Hermi, Evanescence is great. I've also fallen for Josh Groban's beautiful voice too. (108) What is your favorite type of movie?: Well I want to see more fantasy adventure type movies but it's not really a movie genre. It should be. Movies like Lord of the Rings, Eragon, Stardust, etc. Beyond that probably Action and Romance.(109) What is your favorite season?: Winter (110) What is your favorite month?: Probably December/January. The Christmas/New Year cusp. (111) What is your favorite Holiday?: Christmas/New Years? *chuckles* Probably Christmas mostly because it's all about family and gift giving. New Years tends to be a mixture of excitement and melancholy. Especially since I've been bringing it in alone for so many years now. (112) What is your favorite language?: English. But I love the sound of Italian, French and Spanish. (113) What is your favorite thing to do?: Write, and read. (114) What is your favorite color(s)?: Purple! THE WHO'S... (115) Your best friend(s): My Trid. (116) The one person you can trust with any thing?: My Trid again. (117) Your favorite singer?: Amy Lee or Josh Groban, can't decide. Probably Josh. (118) Your favorite Actor?: *ponders* I've been in an Angelina Jolie mood lately, also really taken to Alan Rickman. Always adore Heath Ledger and Matt Damon. (119) Your favorite Actress?: Opps, Um. See above? *chuckles* Sorry, I forget about gender bias sometimes. To me Actor is gender neutral. (120) Your favorite President?: None. I'm an anachist. We should do away with all forms of government. *~* Ick! What a terrible question to end on. Well, there you go, 120 things you may or may not have known about me. Now it's your turn. |
Ok... So I honestly did consider answering the little quizzy thingy when I saw that Rain had so little faith in us. In fact, if she had said I, specifically, wouldn't respond to it I'd have responded yesterday, just to show her a thing or two.  But since Hermi said I might in her own one today I figure yeah, why not. It's another way to procrastinate the day away I guess. So, here goes: Two names you go by: (Only TWO) 1. Rebecca 2. Becca Two things you are wearing right now: 1. Wet Socks 2. My special dragon necklace It rained on the walk home from school but I haven't taken my shoes and socks off yet. I probably should do that. *frowns* Two things you want in a relationship: 1. love 2. communication Two of your favorite things to do: 1. write 2. read Two things you want very badly at the moment: 1. a sense of confidence and discipline so I can make myself work. 2. money so that I don't have to worry about it if I never do. Two pets you had/have: 1. Candy - Silky Terrier 2. Phantom - Black Cat Candy was the first dog I ever had. She died of cancer when she was 16 years old. I'd been raised with her. We had another dog, a poodle cross called Fizzgig which was a snappy little mutt. It lived up to its name and my mother had him put down because he was so agressive that he really hurt people. Toby was the poodle cross she bought to replace both dogs when I was in highschool. My fondest memory of Toby is the day we got him. He slept on my lap on the drive home from school and peed on me. It was cute, he was so small. Now I have a dog, Puppy, who is 7 years old. He has papers and everything. A west highlander white terrier cross toy poodle. He is three days younger than my daughter. I also have a black cat now, Phantom. There are plans for ferrets in the future. Sometimes I used to dream about owning a farm, with sheep, and horses, chicken, ducks, and a milk cow. I don't think I'll bother to make that a reality. lol I like suburbia too much but I have to say I love books about the Australian outback.Two people who will fill this out first: 1. No One 2. and um... No one? The two who might already did, thus why I'm bothering. lol Two things you did last night: 1. Watched Music & Lyrics and The Holiday (was in the mood for chick flick romances. *drooled over Jude Law* OMG He's hot. )2. Was asleep just after midnight for a change. Two people that live in your house: 1. Me 2. My Kids Ok, well that's actually three. But as a mother I reserve the right not to choose one or the other of my children in a list like this. Two people you talked to last: 1. The mums at my daughter's school. 2. My Trid. Two things you are doing tomorrow: 1. *sighs* I SHOULD get some laundry done. 2. *sighs again* And I SHOULD get some work done. Longest vehicle rides: 1. Perth to Albany in 4 days along the Old Coast Road - scenic route on holiday with my father and his family when I was young. 2. Perth to Carnarvon - When I was 6 months pregnant (with my daugther) for Christmas 1999. We were camping but it was a steaming hot summer and since I'd come up with my mother and uncle's family I was bored out of my mind and very uncomfortable. I called for Paul (my husband at the time) to come and get me. His trip was worse, driving up after work one evening and straight back again a few hours after getting there. Two favorite holidays: 1. Easter (OMG CHOCOLATE!! Who can resist?) 2. Christmas Two favorite beverages: 1. Water 2. Tea Nothing interesting these days. I used to say coke but I had a bottle the other week and was not impressed. After months of not drinking any if it I was surprised to find I don't really like the stuff. I still suffered the caffeine headache a few days later which reminded me why I am better off never drinking the stuff again. I like hot chocolate too. And lemonade. But these days, water or tea is my primary beverage choices. Interesting little survey. It feels incomplete. How many questions was that? Perhaps we should add more? |
| In about 20 minutes I'll be the proud new owner (or rather co-owner) of the lastest and final installation of the Harry Potter series from J.K. Rowling. *celebrates* But I'm not going to blog about it right now beyond gloating because I have to go pick it up from the book store. *waves* Happy Reading everyone! |
| Months ago I was doing some writing exercises and I really didn't think too much of what I'd created. They were just exercises, fifteen minute productions where I had some sort of vague goal to produce something coherant but wasn't expecting anything brilliant. So, imagine my surprise when I was digging through my archives and came up against a story that captivated me. I have a shimmering memory of having written those words but it still captured my attention and gave me that rare buzz, "Wow, this is good." It doesn't actually happen very often. Indeed, I have to be in some sort of strange abstracted mood to notice when I've written something well. It is rare moments like these that I think, "I really AM a writer." Anyway, it made me wonder if I might be able to get this peice published. Of course, it's written to suit a market I'd never considered or looked into before so I have no idea where to start in a hunt for the right person to publish the peice. I'm wondering if I should just put it on WDC and be satisfied others might enjoy reading it here. But I don't know, it seems like a waste of the kind of flash fiction I might be able to earn a couple of bucks from if. Does anyone know anything about flash fiction publishers? Particularly a publication that might be interested in a dark psycological peice in the mind of a terminal patient in his final moments? Perhaps I should just forget the idea of publishing something so out of my normal range. I could post it to my blog here or as a static in my portfolio and get readers. Odds are it's no where near as good as I think it is and if others read the peice they'd tell me honestly that it sucks and isn't a flash fiction story at all. That's my experience with flash fiction. I've just never been able to write short. Everyone always expect MORE from every peice I write short. Even my poetry sometimes gets people asking for the rest of the story. I must have to work on my closures or something. Anyway, it's there, floating in my consciousness, this story I wrote that I think might be good and have no idea what to do with. It would be a shame to leave it hiding there in my archives without a reader until it's dug up after my death by some money hungry person looking to get rich off the unpublished works of the famous novelist, Rebecca Laffar-Smith. (healthy ego huh?)What do you think I should do? |
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