Abyss of fear

Everyday I live in things I cant forget
confined by sorrow and lasting regret
drowning in the pain that I brought to you
I Wish for the things that I could undo
I said I’m sorry, to you and to my mind
But in my pain there is no solace to find
I never meant for you to feel that way
Confined and trapped in yourself each day
I know all you wanted was 1 simple kiss
But I was lost in my fears, this infinite Abyss
You didn’t understand my desires, and contradicting fears
You never really knew of my apologetic tears
Did you ever know me, or why I said no?
Do you not yet relize, why I refused to show?
That you meant more to me than life, but I was too scared
Afraid to be hurt if my emotions were shared
All I wanted was your love, never silent tears
But I lost it all in the Abyss of my fears