One Stop Erotica Shop!

I have to agree with the other response that the only real way to get past it is to...just do it.

I first posted my adult stuff under another account/pseudonym. Actually, I first did this on ANOTHER writing site. (They've since banned adult writing...boooo.) I was SO TERRIFIED of doing it, but I'd really wanted to know if anyone would like it...so pseudonym it was. I did not think anybody could like it. I have no experience with the subject and barely even read about it! So I just knew that everybody would hate it and would have a grand time flaming it. I've always had this policy--do NOT post anything online that you wouldn't mind the whole world seeing. Even if you do it under another name, it can ALWAYS come back to haunt you.

Well, I swallowed my fear and did it anyway. It never became popular, but the few people who remarked on it seemed to like it. :/

I then opened up a secondary account here to post it...I even changed all the names in my stories so nobody could trace them back to my regular account, all the identifying details...I had a cannibal character from Native American mythology but I changed him to a "vampire" so nobody could tell...switched everything around. I even changed my personal writing style (i. e., my tone in posts and such). I did NOT want anyone knowing it was me. And people liked it. But then they put a ban on free secondary accounts -_- so I had to out myself. I was so terrified. I had to move the items to my regular port and come out and say that they were mine. I remember posting in here about it. The people who noticed were surprised it was me all along (well, maybe more because I'm just not well known, period! ) but nobody freaked out about it. "OH MY GOD, TEHUTI WRITES PORN!!" I completely expected this because I'd NEVER revealed myself as writing anything higher than PG-13. I was so afraid that my whole "persona" would be shattered and people would look at me all funny at the least, and find me a pervert at the worst. -_- Nobody did. I had TWO people call me a bad person for what I wrote, but that was on other sites, and they hadn't even read anything of mine; I also had one person here highly praise one story of mine, then comment on the second to say that there was nothing of any redeeming value in it whatsoever, but maybe they were peeved that I refused to participate in a writing collab with them; their account disappeared soon after. Aside from that, NOBODY has ever flamed me about this writing.

My second biggest fear was everybody would see right through it all as so fake! I mean, how good can you be at writing this stuff when you have ZERO experience and don't even study other writings of this sort? I write mostly M/M and it's not like I can get an insider's perspective!! >_< (Oh...I'm female, since my name is kind of misleading. o_o; ) But nobody's complained about that either; maybe I just lucked out. :/

In fact, my only complaint is that there isn't MORE interest! I have only one regular commenting reader of any of it at the moment. But I truly believe this is because of the length of the writing, not the subject matter. People like smut, they just don't like it hundreds of thousands of words long.

No one in my family knows anything about any of this, but that's just my personal issue; I think the worst you'd have to deal with is a few people maybe being surprised that you wrote such an item but that would probably be it. The worst someone can do is tell you it sucks and you're a bad person, but we all know what to think of such people.